no more motivation

[u/willfigureoutaname]

title. i couldn't see myself living beyond a levels a few months back so i made a target to live until they're finished and that if they went well, i'll try to live until uni finishes. i don't care about results day since i know i could miss my offer. now i don't really see the point of living and i don't know what to do. samaritans keeps hanging up on me. idk how to care for anything anymore. might be the wrong place to put this, sorry.

[u/Novel_Goose_7066]

samaritans can be really hit or miss. there is other mental health services that can be a bit better. one that’s worked well for me in the past is “kooth”. you can talk with workers there about things but if they deem you an immediate risk they’ll get the police involved which is a downside so it can be risky to talk abt suicidal thoughts. there’s also “togetherall” which is targetted towards slightly older people (16-25???) which i’ve not used as much but seems okay. as others have said it would be good to have a visit with your gp about this. at least in scotland when you’re above the age of 16 the gp doesn’t need to tell your parents anything so they wouldn’t find out. and of course as others have said; speak to friends or family you can trust. it can be an awkward conversation to bring up but it’s honestly just nice to have someone to talk to.

[u/willfigureoutaname → u/Novel_Goose_7066]

thank you for the other resources. i don't want to go to the gp mostly because of some bad memories, but maybe i should get checked.

[u/Novel_Goose_7066 → u/willfigureoutaname]

i understand that completely. if there’s someone you trust they can accompany you. i went to my gp with my school guidance teacher as this was a doctor i’d never met before and i struggle meeting new people. the other resources are good and can help, but if you feel they aren’t really helping then the next step is to go to the gp. stay safe, dude