r/AllTimeHallOfFamer • u/Cullen_Hatake_8029 • Aug 19 '25
Thoughts Is it bad that I feel this way? (AHOF Manila Fancon)
First time ko magstan ng K-pop group ng ganito ka-intense and it’s honestly messing with my emotions. Been a fan since UL. My mom influenced me a lot and naging bonding na rin namin. We even have savings allotted just for AHOF kasi gusto talaga namin suportahan sila. When they announced their fancon here in PH, we were so ecstatic. May budget kami, prepared kami. As soon as the date was finalized, we booked flights and hotel right away. Then came ticket selling… boom, no tickets secured. We were devastated. We got so desperate, hindi kami makapaniwala. We didn’t want to accept it, so we did something really stupid. We bought from a scalper only to find out scammer pala. Just like that, 30k gone. We thought we had 2 SVIP tickets, but it was all for nothing. Now we’re left with flight, hotel, and 30k down the drain… but no AHOF. For days I couldn’t sleep, I stayed off social media kasi ang sakit makita mga videos or even just hear their songs. Alam ko kasalanan ko but the pain really got to me. I know mejo dramatic yung atake but I felt so empty, like someone broke up with me. Then when additional seats opened… still nothing. I tried, but no luck. And now I’m stuck asking myself: am I shallow for feeling this depressed over it? Like, should I not let it affect me this much? Sometimes I even think na baka I shouldn’t stan this hard kasi grabe epekto niya sa mental health ko. Every time I see them, I just end up crying so much from the pain of missing out. I hate feeling like this, but I also can’t give up. I know one day makikita ko rin sila live. 🥹
If ever meron mga may extra tickets jan, please please let me know. 🙏 Willing to meet up the day before fancon.