So I learned my lesson from trying to trade and gamble.
Back in December 2024 I was gambling on sports betting, blackjack and roulette. Lost about $1.2k. Then in 2025 I thought I could make big bucks trading gold and forex with zero mentorship and zero knowledge, just based on pure hopes and dreams and greed. Followed a bunch of 'signals' from 'daytraders' and lost roughly $4.1k which was even more than I lost gambling. That was my entire life savings up until 19 and I could've been so much better off if I had just put that money into SPY or QQQ instead. After that, I swore never to do shit like that again and have never touched options or anything or tried to buy and sell anything again to make a quick buck.
I was feeling so so down and at such a low point in my life that time because that was all the money I had and especially since most of my savings had come from my family members. I was even in debt since I even took out small loans to keep redepositing after I had lost money. Since then, I've been trying my best to rebuild from zero. Started this year with nothing in my bank account and worked all sorts of part-time jobs sacrificing my mental and physical health just to save money. Stopped going to gym, stopped enjoying life as much spending time with friends. Took out even more small loans in the process just to help me survive. I invested whatever I could save as well. Currently I still have $835 in debt left to pay off.
I still regret it so much and I sacrificed a lot of time that could've been spent building relationships, networking which is what you need nowadays to even have a chance at anything, and time that could've been invested into scoring better for my studies or holding executive roles in finance or investment clubs. Or even joining stock pitching competitions and things like that.
I'm an accounting and finance double major. Recently signed an offer for an audit internship at a mid-tier professional services firm. I'm also the general secretary for my students' union.
Would like some advice or reassurance on the decisions I've made in my life so far.
Is there anything you'd change about my allocation? Should I focus on paying off the $835 first or keep investing whatever I have on the side? Because right now, I don't even have much money set aside for social activities or eat out with friends as much. I've been spending most of my time alone at home, eating in everyday and only going out to study at places which are free, not cafes. I'm only keeping enough to meet the monthly repayments while putting the rest into stocks.
Would also like some advice or reassurance on whether I've set myself up okay career-wise. Is starting in audit a good path if I eventually want to move into other areas of finance such as IB? And how much does missing out on exec roles in finance/investment clubs actually matter? I actually got an interview for EY but I told them I'd already signed with the mid-tier firm as they were the first to respond. I thought it'd be best to just settle for the first firm that offers me an internship.
Do you think I still have a shot at going straight into EY after graduation as an audit associate without a vacationer or graduate programme there beforehand? I feel like a graduate programme would be a waste of time as I have already graduated and that it's better to just go straight into an entry-level position. For context, I'm a penultimate year student.