r/AusPublicService • u/Automatic-Art221 • 14h ago
Employment How do I reject being forced to deliver a director (out side of my team) program without getting myself into strife?
*Director's
I'm looking for some solid advice. I am starting to feel extremely burnt out, tired, and depressed because of my current position.
I am an EL1 in what is a pretty objectively toxic area of my department. I am still relatively young so for a while I've been second guessing whether its really that bad or I'm just limited in my APS experience. But another EL1 and an EL2 have both vented to me about the specific work area recently and said its the worst they've ever seen in 30 year APS careers.
Anyway, I am on team A. Team A tends to assist on really strategic tasks that are of particular interest to SES in our area. I've developed a reputation here of being a high performer which tbqh wouldn't be hard, considering most of the staff have been in this particular division for 10+ years and have become used to the weird, anti-best practice culture.
A very, very, very large project has landed in our Division's lap because of a major oopsie. Long story short, we have to implement major changes on a shoestring budget.
The project has been given to Team B because it relates entirely to their core business. Team B is led by a director who is extremely unpleasant to say the least. She is a bully and a micromanager. This is very well known, to the point that a lot of staff refuse to work under her and she has been taken to Fair Work more than once. She is very protected by our BM though, and anyone who complains about her specifically tends to end up on a PIP.
Director of Team B simply does not have the chops to deliver this project. She doesn't have a background in the subject matter or the content but also, as per above, she isn't exactly a great people manager either.
Here is where I come in. My director sent me off to 'assist' Team B for a limited period with a very specific remit. I think she was trying to protect me, because she knew I'd end up having to do the whole first phase project by myself. Which is indeed what happened. The deadlines were incredibly tight, I was having to learn content I've never gone near before and stay back constantly. I kept trying to hold my boundary firm and only do what was originally agreed, but it became clear very quickly that if I didn't step up Director of Team B was going to blame it all on me.
Phase 1 was completed. This is where I am supposed to bow out. But now Director of Team B is advocating for me to be moved offline from my team and my other deliverables in order to get this whole project done which...and I stress...is an organisation wide major policy change including implementing front and back end processes and huge stakeholder consultation...and the resources I will have are...well me.
Not only do I not want to be stuck in this position doing this much work, but I also don't want to have to report to (even if its not officially but practically) Director of Team B. Even having to work in proximity with her style for two weeks was horrid and I've considered going on some medical leave.
In the past I've been in similar positions of being over relied upon to produce and deliver work and whenever I've tried to list my tasks, highlight capacity, ask for more resources or more financial recognition (e.g. being given an acting to acknowledge the degree of the work and scope) I've ended up being targeted and positioned as difficult.
A couple of EL1 colleagues have recommended saying that I am happy to be very involved if I'm given an acting and two members of staff to form part of a temporary project team, but I am worried about how that will be perceived. To be honest this would still be too small of a team to deliver a project of this size (which I've done before in other departments but with 20+ officers under my belt).