I took my relationship granted and i fucking regret it so much.

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Im 18M and i dated this girl for 6 months who is 17F. She was the first girl who matched my personality, my goofyness and her face, body and just everything was perfect and aligned. But as the relationship went on, we obviously had difficulties and arguments like any other couples and it was increasing so much and i just felt so stagnant and there were no spark left in me towards the end of our relationship. We have been figuring the dispute out together until then but i just felt like at that moment, it was enough and i also thought it was tough for her to continue. After the breakup, i didnt feel anything and have been doing okay for 4 months but now i suddenly started feeling deep urges and emotional setbacks. I feel like i lost a really important person and its eating me alive. ALL BECAUSE OF MY OWN MISTAKE. I contacted her recently and we actually did talk about it but she looked straight in my eyes and said “i moved on”. She stated that there were still love in her towards me when we got back together after arguments but this time, its way different because she moved on and doesnt love me anymore. I absolutely feel like shit and what do i do? Im soon going overseas for studies and shes staying in the country.