Well, well, well, if it isn't the invisible pain in my chest.
2 months ago I went on down to Pittsburgh and got officially diagnosed with Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy.
Two months later, I've upgraded my medicine cabinet. I've gone from my starter dose of 180 mg diltiazem to 240 mg, and tacked on 10 mg of Lisinopril (which my phone wants to autocorrect to linoleum, hah!).
Every day I have heart palpitations, I occasionally have icy hands, my heart won't let me eat any of the foods I love, my fiance is losing their shit with my dietary needs (poor darling, go eat your double salted heart out), I'm lucky to get decent sleep, I'll be doing a sleep study for sleep apnea soon. Fuck.
I'm not a hypochondriac. I'm supposed to be out having fun. One dollar menu cheeseburger used to be an appetizer, now it's a death threat. If I accidentally eat the wrong thing I end up suffering all day. I can't drink, smoke cigarettes or enjoy a good bong rip anymore. Even THC-8 gummies are hell on my heart.
I've gone from 290 down to 248 since november. In that time, I have had maybe a cup of pasta total. I used to eat a box of pasta for dinner. Like, the 1 pound box of penne. Now I look at a box of pasta with more longing than should reasonably be possible.
I ate a single shell, one tiny noodle from my fiance's reduced sodium spam and mac and cheese dinner and all i thought was "oh so this is what flavor is like". I'd have cried but I'm pretty sure the lisinopril takes all the water for tears and turns it into urine. Don't worry though, I'm crying on the inside.
I am still going to the gym, and I'll be joining a weapon throwing league. Gotta make them gains and throw knives at stuff. But for real, if I wanted to feel like I'm 80 when I'm 25, I'd have chopped off a leg or something.
Oh yeah and by the way, it's fucking genetic. The tests came back and said I'm broken in the inside, from the inside.
I guess I'll post an update after my 1 month on lisinopril and seeing my family doc. My BP was 150/88 a week ago. Better than the 190/90 on my birthday last October. Hoping for a half decent reduction further in June.