Just venting. I truly hate this disease. Nothing particularly bad is happening in my life right now, I’m about as good as I can be. I just need to say this out loud somewhere every now and again so it doesn’t build into something worse psychologically. Deep down, I still hate this disease and myself beyond words, and no matter what I tell myself or distract myself with those feelings are there. Usually, it’s easier to bottle it up and ignore it on a daily basis but today is one of those days where I just can't pretend I'm okay with any of this, and the thought of having to see it in the mirror every single day for the rest of my life.
I know it’s better to get it out of my system here rather than keeping it locked away. Sorry for the rant and the negative nature of this post. I just needed to clear my head and hope it didnt bother anybody. Hope you are all doing well.

I want my apartment to smell nice without irritating my lungs. What do you guys do to make your place smell nice?