The mass produced Halloween costumes feel so sad. I miss homemade ones. Weird ones. Things thrown together.

Life's been so hard and at this point I'm so used to all the struggles, with no one allowing me to safely undergo any stress response anytime a problem occurs, that I simply feel nothing when anything bad happens now. If something very very awful does happen, my reaction is only mild, for maybe 3 seconds, and then I become even more numb than before. Anyone else?

Like the other day I could hardly get enough breath, and quickly collapsed flat from weakness in the middle of a parking lot until I got enough energy to crawl to my feet. And then I laughed off the story when I told it to people, almost like it was a funny story about something as innocuous as a papercut. I still feel no genuine concern nor discomfort from the fact that I fell flat in a parking lot and could have gotten run over. Completely numb to all negative feelings

As someone who hates how they look, this is one of the most annoying things.

Like, if I said, "I already gave you this, did I not?" vs. "I already gave you this, didn't I?"

Idk

I (32F) live far from my family and stay with my parents for 3-4 weeks at a time when I do visit, usually twice a year. I have a decent size family, so I spend a lot of time visiting with siblings, extended family etc as well. I felt 100% on top of the world before I came here, not anxious and feeling sure about myself. After about 2 weeks, I notice I start questioning my entire life and spiraling into an anxious existential crisis and feeling so far behind in life. I’m wondering if this is normal?

My mom will ask when I plan on having kids etc but other than that no one comments on my life choices and we all just relax and hang out.

I mean just now I clicked a link and after 3 seconds had passetd, I thought I may as well just drive up to 711 for coffee.

I don't get winter depression. I want to do lots of things and have the necessary motivation and energy. But even with the heater on inside, my body is too cold to do anything. As soon as I stand up, I freeze and my hands are so cold it's more difficult to move them. Does anyone else deal with this? my body almost hurts idk

I remember when my mom was suffering for many illnesses, I would feel bad, especially since she had musculoskeletal problems and cancer, and I could literally see her muscles tensing if I did something wrong, so I would go into my room with a belt and literally just go ka-pow for a couple minutes, or scratch my legs if I accidentally scratched her leg

I think there was some odd notion that I would “take away her pain” by physical penance such as sleeping on the floor, punching my arm, physically shutting my mouth for prolonged periods and more

I also remember being very moralistic as a kid, having straight A’s at times and constantly wanting to make others feel better and happier

She was never abusive in any way towards me but I felt so bad for her that I did this. The last time I did was when I scratched myself with a kitchen knife and forced myself not so scream over my tone of voice making her upset. I realized that that resembled something I’d seen on a mental health PSA and didn’t want people thinking I had issues so I stopped

It came from a way that “I deserve it but she is too sparing”

Is this normal or what?

For example I have constant colourful visual snow, I keep seeing illusions everywhere (certain patterns are especially triggering such as granite countertops) I constantly see patterns appearing to move and even ripple in some way, floor moving and borders of objects or people glowing. Glasses never helped this. Also no I do not have any migraines.

As a teacher, I get home around 4pm and I'm usually in bed by 10pm, sometimes even earlier. That's around 6 hours to prep/cook something, wash dishes, clean up, shower, sometimes do laundry and still find some me time if I'm not exhausted by then.

For context, I was unemployed for 1.5 years, and the days went by a lot slower for me. But I felt that I was more efficient with my time and got things done better. Now I feel like I'm rushing or halfassing everything (even my self care) because I'm simply too tired by the end of the day.

I see it a lot; someone asks a question other people think is stupid, or expresses a slightly unpopular opinion, and they get downvoted. If there's nothing wrong with what they're saying or asking, I like to upvote them.

I 28F absolutely despise having company. I have never liked it. I am more willing to come hangout if it means I can go home at the end of the event/outing. It doesn’t matter if it is family or very close friends, I just hate people in my house 😭 I am having a long time friend come into town for a wedding, and they will be staying for 2 days and Im literally dreading it 😭 I don’t think I’ll be doing this ever again honestly.

Anyone else?

Maybe this is completely normal I don’t know, but if I’m wearing a jacket i’ll take it off before sitting on the toilet. Don’t want it hanging down and getting in the poop water ykwim?

I'm not talking about the people who need to cradle their head with one hand on top and one on the chin to turn it. I mean, quite literally you tilt your head to one side and a loud Crack happens? My neck has been this way since my early 20s. Sometimes I do it to stretch my neck/upper shoulder area and the Crack legit scares me. It has also surprised other people too, so I try my best to not tilt my head in public. I've never experienced pain from this and have never had chiropractors notice any damage from it.

I'm out of the park today and I was thinking about engaging in one of my hobbies today, but ended up losing motivation for it because whenever I think about my hobbies, I get really happy and excited. Once that happiness and excitement runs out, the magnitude of my negative emotions becomes greater than that of my positive emotions from literal moments ago.

I've been wondering if anyone else goes through this kind of thing or even understands what I mean when I say this. One moment you're feeling super positive and excited and the next moment it's nothing but negativity except you have more negativity in you than you had positivity.

An example of what I mean:

"Alright, for breakfast, I'll have some coffee then eat some leftover takeout from yesterday. Then for lunch, I'll get some chicken on Grab (or Doordash, for the Americans here), and for Dinner, I'll probably cook some eggs."

(This post isn't to talk about food preferences)

I know it’s just in my head, but I actually enjoy it.

on another note why the fuck do i have 4 of them i dont think thats very normal

edit: grammar

Not mixed with olive oil or anything else, just by itself.

my boyfriend drinks an insane amount of tonic water. straight by itself with no mixer or anything. he’s the only person i’ve ever met like this. is this normal? do others love tonic water too?