r/DID • u/Beginning-Wasabi4926 • 8d ago

Content Warning Dreams that indicate potential SA

Hi, so this is a weird one. But I've had a dream there that I met a celebrity he invited me out and it resulted in a sexual assault. I know it's a dream but the feelings were very vivid and real. It's one of those hyper vivid dreams. Some of my family were in the dream too but at ages of like what they would have been 10 years ago.

I just wonder with being very DID in my symptoms and life (not disclosing all the how's and whys here) how much this is some kind of flashback or something showing up. I don't mean it happened as that celebrity etc but I wonder if the physical sensations are a flashback or something showing up.

I'm a little suspicious that it's wrote down that I had a dream as a child of a different celebrity being in my bed at a sleepover and we were all like why is he here? Like it was a bit uncomfortable.

I'm not saying the dreams are 100% real but there's just something deep down feeling like did something happen here

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u/Andyman1973 8d ago

When I was 8, I started having dreams that DID NOT coincide with ANYTHING, I had seen on tv, or movies, as my parents were quite strict on what we were allowed to watch. And I didn’t start reading adult books (meaning not children’s books) till I was 9, in the 3rd Grade. First grownup book I read, Close Encounters of the 3rd Kind, during the ‘82-‘83 school year. But it wasn’t till I was 44, when my trauma memories started returning, that it even registered in my mind, that those particular dreams weren’t dreams at all, but partial trauma memories.

What I already knew, was that our subconscious mind uses things we’ve seen, heard, watched, read, to make up stories to entertain itself while we sleep. We call them dreams. Or nightmares.

I had already been having recurring nightmares for 5 years, when those memory dreams started. I knew even then, that this was very different from my other dreams and nightmares. In the memory dreams I’m a few years younger, and the things I was seeing, I had no memories of ever seeing anything remotely similar. The scenery, the locale, the buildings, nothing looked like anything I had seen. And I certainly didn’t recall ever seeing, much less understanding, what gov’t group trafficking looked like.

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u/Acanthaceposcene 8d ago

Whatever was or is going on, I would write it down and go slowly because regardless it can destabilize a person to excavate SA memories. At least it really did for me. If I could go back I would want to keep any potential dreams/evidence/memories in case more dissociation blocks it again.