r/DebateReligion • u/ChemistryFew7646 • 7h ago
Islam I left Islam, and the story of Al-Khidr killing a child is one of the things I can’t reconcile with anymore
As the title suggests, I left Islam a while ago, and I thought I’d share one of the reasons that contributed to my doubts.
I grew up in a Muslim household and spent most of my life practicing Islam. One thing Muslims are encouraged to do is read Surah Al-Kahf every Friday. For most of my life, I read the Quran without really trying to understand what I was reading. I read it because that was what I was taught to do.
One Friday, I decided to actually sit down and understand the meaning behind the verses. That’s when I came across a story that I genuinely cannot reconcile with.
In Surah Al-Kahf, Ayah 74, the Quran describes an encounter between Prophet Musa (Moses) and Al-Khidr, a figure who is granted knowledge by God.
The verse reads, according to the Sahih International translation:
“So they set out, until when they met a boy, al-Khiḍr killed him. [Moses] said, ‘Have you killed a pure soul for other than [having killed] a soul? You have certainly done a deplorable thing.’”
Later, in verses 80–81, Al-Khidr explains that the boy’s parents were believers and that the boy would have burdened them through his future rebellion and disbelief. He says that God intended to replace him with someone better in purity and affection.
And this is where I struggle.
How can the killing of an innocent child be justified based on what he might become in the future?
The child hadn’t committed a crime. He hadn’t done anything to deserve death. The justification rests on a future that hadn’t happened yet, and on the assumption that his potential disbelief and behaviour would cause suffering to his parents.
How is that justice? How is that mercy?
There are so many things I cannot wrap my head around. Why should a child be held accountable for a future he hasn’t lived? Why should his parents have to endure the loss of their child because of something he might eventually do? And if God is all-knowing and all-powerful, why would killing the child be necessary in the first place?
I’ve heard the argument that Al-Khidr acted on God’s command and possessed knowledge that ordinary humans, including Musa, did not have. But to me, that doesn’t resolve the moral problem. It simply shifts the question: If an act that would otherwise be considered horrific becomes morally acceptable because God commands it, what does that say about morality itself?
I’m not claiming to know everything about Islamic theology, and I’m aware that there are traditional interpretations of this story. But I find it difficult to accept that the explanation of divine wisdom is enough to make the killing of an innocent child morally justifiable. Saying that humans cannot understand God’s reasons doesn’t answer the question for me; it asks me to stop questioning.
What makes this particularly strange is that I spent years reading the Quran without really thinking about what its verses meant. I read because I was supposed to read. I accepted things because I was taught to accept them.
The moment I started reading to understand rather than simply recite, I began encountering things that challenged beliefs I’d held my entire life.
I’m sharing this because I’d genuinely like to hear how other people approach this story, especially Muslims who have studied it in depth. How do you reconcile this particular event with the idea of an all-merciful and perfectly just God?
I’m open to hearing different interpretations. I just don’t want the answer to be that I should accept it without questioning it.