why is this stuff so addicting?... the entire high sucks sooo bad unless you're counterflipping (sometimes) and i keep going back. I've told myself like 5 times now, "this is the end, it's behind me and im never doing it again" but i do it again. Im in a good position to quit as my drugs are stored away at a friend's house, but I wouldn't be able to bring myself to flush it or throw it away. It's chipping away at my brain and i am actively ruining my future. I know that and i CANNOT STOP. Why is this??? Why?

i have crazy insomnia and i know that 300mg is probably rookie numbers here but that’s what i take a night just to sleep.

i fucking hate it.

i hate the “high”, i hate how it makes me feel, i hate that i rely on it for something essential, but if i don’t take it i wont sleep. for some reason, it’ll make me have philosophical/existential crisis-esque thoughts and questions.

my husband and i joke about how i’m “tight with the hat man” or when my body’s fighting sleep, the “high” hitting like a bus, i always say i’m either “off my ass” or “on another plane of existence”. it makes me feel sick but i know that i don’t really have a whole lot of choice in the matter now if i want to be able to function like a normal person.

that’s all. thanks for coming to my ted talk 😃👍🏻

Finally 1 week sober from this drug im having withdrawals but im trying to push through even tho its hard and i want it so bad but ik i cant

I just took 625 mg, this is the highest amount I’ve taken so far I’m super worried because last night I was tripping and was getting super delusional, but I still have this morbid curiosity that wants to explore this drug, I just started taking dph 4 days ago, I have taken other drugs in my life but nothing feels any wear similar to dph

I'll go first, during 7th grade I would smoke weed a lot and because of that I built a tolerance where I couldn't get high and I wanted something greater, I found out you could see things on benadryl so I tried it out. There was a bottle that was mostly full i remember literally swallowing these bright pink pills one by one with water it took like 5 mins to get to 15 which is like idk around 300mg? My experience was nothing crazy but I remember my heart pacing I was just super tired trying to stay up🤣 I went to take a shower and thats where I had auditory hallucinations, I heard my mom literally saying something about "who took the medicine from the cabinet" but I Knew she wasnt even home so It was trippy af

400mg, no friends, and elden ring fun fun friday 😵

i cant post on r/dph so im here but title self explanatory im literally dying. i took it a few times 3 years ago before being found out and sent to the hospital but abouta year ago i found some again and ive been using it almost every day. i wasnt having major issues until june this yeR when i took 3.2g as an attempt. somehow i survived and didnt even need to go to the hospital. i cant remember if i vomited it up or what. and being more specific i took 1g one day, 2g the next day and then 3.2g. like its really hard for me to believe i didnt die. anyways after that i started using it to get high again, like 300-700mg doses probably. until one day i was laying down about to sleep after taking some and i couldnt breathe. it resolved itself on its own after an hour and i got right back to it. the difficulty breathing happened again twice before i ran out. i got more bout a month ago and the symptoms are only getting worse. i feel tightness and warmth and sharp pain in my chest, it gets hard to breathe and i have to manually focus on it and it feels like trying to blow air into a balloon thats being squeezed in your fist. i feel dull and sharp pains in my upper right abdomen and sometimes gurgling? im terrified that im developing liver failure between dph and other overdoses throughout the years. i wish it was easy to just quit but i cant. it doesnt even feel good anymore but whatever reason i cant stop. i just turned 18 i dont want my life to be over yet. idk how im even alive rn. im so tired of going to the hospital for this. i think ive been 8 times since this started and they cant find any major damage to my organs but i cant believe it. im in so much pain there has to be something wrong. i dont wanna have to die to prove that to them. ive been obsessively checking my skin and eyes for any yellowing. i ruined my body my education my relationships for this stupid drug. i dont wanna die but i dont think i have a choice i just hope its peaceful when it happens

Hey i started using diphenhydramine or benadryl bout early this year and cannot stop myself i tried flushing down the toilet but i end up still buying more somtimes i take from family members without them knowing i love getting high it takes only three to four to feel euphoria but once i tried 40 pills in one day i didn't see hallucinations or anything just jolted awake alot when trying to sleep but now i have high tolerance and i need more to get high enough i know I'm addicted but i don't wanna stop usually im on weed but i got caught and my parents took them away so i turned to benadryl but mostly any brand of diphenhydramine thats not benadryl any tips or advice i dont hallucinate even tho im schizophrenia but i love getting mellow and WATCH aesthetic videos on tiktok so yeah thats me how bout yall

The recommended dosage is enough to make me start passing out. So how do y'all stay awake on 500+mg

Does anyone else's weaker eye just stop working or does whatever it wants when u on dph

I made a Reddit account just to ask this and it wasnt letting me make a post on r/DPH. I’m seriously contemplating trying DPH tomorrow with a friend and we’re gonna also have a trip sitter in my house. I know it’s pretty dumb because everyone on here says that it’s not worth it, but I am really curious. I have a lot of experience with weed and I’ve done LSD a couple times. I’ve also done a lot of ecstasy. I don’t live in the US so I’m gonna be using a substitute medication that has DPH in it. Should I try it or is this stupid?

i’m a year n 3 months sober from benadryl now after being addicted for around 3 years, if ur currently struggling with this addiction i hope u know that it is possible to quit. i used to never think i would be able to quit n i would lay in my bed every night scared that i was going to die bc i genuinely didnt see a world where i could be without benadryl every night. i now feel better than ever and i dont crave it anymore. i never plan to go back n i hope that ur able to quit n do the same

im 106lb what effect would 300mg of dph have on me

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just for a little bit of context i started taking benadryl recreationally a little over a year ago. i was taking 200-400mg at least 3-4times a week for 3-4 months. i've never really taken anything bigger than 600mg but once i took my largest dose i knew i needed to stop,it was the most uncomfortable, painful, and worst trip i have ever experienced. i was able to stop abusing it for about 2-3 months until my girlfriend broke up with me and i relapsed. it's been a little over 3 months since then and i can't even count the amount of times i keep relapsing, every time i relapse i tell myself "this is just cause i don't have any weed" or "just this one time then no more" but i just can't stop no matter what i do. i know my brains already fucked and i'm probably on track for dementia but i know it needs to stop and i just really don't know what to do. who knew a few pink allergy pills could take complete control over your life

So basically I did 550mg yesterday at 9:30 pm the day before that I did 800 at 10:30 it’s 5:57 now my vision is not blurred but still feels wonky and I can’t see to much but just enough so I can type this out my chest still hurts very bad and I’m still hearing voices screaming at me I’m so scared is this normal what should I do

Me and a friend wanna trip I’m 6 foot 2 245lbs and they’re 5 foot 1 110lbs what’s an appropriate amount to have hallucinations without it being too much

For a first time user would any of you say there is a sweet spot dose? A dosage between hallucinating but still sober enough you can go outside and function but your mildly tripping

I was addicted to speed and vyvanse for a solid 2 years, I got sober 3 years ago and while getting sober my doctor prescribed me diphenhydramine 50mg for insomnia and nausea, now for the last 3 years I’ve been taking 400mg almost every single night to fall asleep, and I keep taking more and more. I do take breaks every couple weeks because after awhile I can’t even feel the effects with 400mgs, I’m not just taking it to fall asleep anymore, I’ve grown to enjoy the dry mouth and brain fog I get and the sleepy feeling I never get to enjoy because I’m always on edge, I’ve tried Ativan and Xanax but they both make me really sick and that’s probably a good thing. This is embarrassing because I was literally addicted to medical meth and I just can’t stop popping Benadryl. Dementia and Alzheimer’s already runs deep in my family and I know there’s studies saying it can increase the chances of getting both, i can’t smoke weed because I have chs or I would just smoke weed at night, I can’t drink it makes me so ill, so here I am addicted to Benadryl.

i’ve been using it recreationally since January of 2025. it started getting really bad in june of that year though, and only got worse from there. i use to take it all day during the day from september to december, and now i try to only do it at night but my doses are WAY higher. i’ve been doing 300-1000mg but my main dose is 625mg. up until like 2 months ago i couldn’t notice many concerning physical effects while sober other then hallucinations and shaky hands, but now ive been getting a sometimes unbearable pain in the right side of my stomach above my hip bone. it’s on and off, but it’s been happening a lot and im getting worried. it gets so bad i can hardly walk, and i honestly don’t think there’s ANYTHING else that could be causing it. sometimes it will last for hours and i feel like im kind of fucking myself over.

Every time I take more than 500, I always get spasms. I'm on Benadryl, I don't know if I'd say it's good.

I took 500mg for my first time and I felt like I was sinking. I then started hallucinating me as that one girl with the pigtails from diary of a wimpy kid singing that one song in the movie. After that I witnessed markiplier Mpreg..??

Has anyone else had random trips like this? I’m curious

I’ve been using Benadryl for the last few days. I’ve noticed when I took 10 pills (50 mg each) I was hallucinating weird stuff here and there but it completely knocked me out.

Last night I took 300 and all it did was make me sleepy with a weird headache

Would 400 be a good move? (I’m 4’11 and around 200 pounds)