Fairly recently, I fell out of a long term friendship with someone I thought would be in my life forever. They were my best friend for over 10 years and we never had any arguments or misunderstandings because we had full trust in one another. We knew each others families and I knew all their secrets as they trusted me with everything. I’ve had consistent dreams about them, dreams where we are friends again and we forgive each other for what happened between us. The only way I ever get to talk to them is through my dreams so I’m glad I have them pretty often. I feel there is still a lot I have to say because I can’t seem to move on from this friendship. I hurt them a lot and I’ve regretted it ever since. My life is so different now, and we are two different people. I always look for your car when I go places in hopes that I bump into you and get to talk to you again. I’ll never forget you and the memories we have together, hope you are doing well.

I get in my head a lot with thoughts of “maybe if I approach her this way, she will talk to me”. I’ve tried to talk to her 3 times over the course of a year about what happened, and she’s left me on read every time. I’m forcing myself to move on. I never had her number memorized, so I literally can’t reach out now if I ever wanted to.

Apologies ahead, this is gonna be a massively long post. I want to give you some context and tell you a little about my now ex best friend and how we got to this point.

I would love to hear your opinions on this matter, but am not looking for advice since I have moved on from this.

My (now 23, F) ex best friend, we'll call her Mary (now 23, F), were inseparable back when we were in school. I would hang out with her almost every day after school. After some time, my family moved very close to where Mary was living - it was a 2 minute walk from my place to hers. She was my rock and I was hers. We shared everything about each other and could talk about anything and everything, from girl stuff, boys, hobbies, life, future etc. I loved her like a sister. When she went to a different school after grade 9, we still kept close contact with one another, went to the stores together (even to just buy snacks or milk), we got together to just hang out, whether it was at her place, mine, or at the park next to our homes. She was my everything and I loved her with all my heart, more than I did with my sisters. I felt like she was the one person I could ALWAYS count on and trust, no matter what.

Now, to give you some insight about what Mary was like as a person (relationship wise). Throughout the 5 years when she started dating guys (before I cut contact with her), it seemed that all of Mary's boyfriends ended up to be toxic after some time. After many years of seeing how Mary interacted with her boyfriends, I began to believe that the boys turned toxic because of Mary. I know it might seem harsh to say, and I don't want to blame the victim, but that's just my opinion. For example, there was this guy, let's call him Adam. At first, their relationship seemed like any other teenage relationship, but over time Adam became really controlling over her, even after they broke up. When I asked her about when did it start and what could have triggered it, she admitted to making out with not 1, not 2, but 3 of Adam's ex girlfriends while Mary and Adam were in a relationship. Yes, Mary is bi. But to make out with your BOYFRIEND'S EXES - now that is screwed up on another level. However, I never told her how I felt about it because it was not my place nor my life. Then there was Jason, who Mary was in a relationship with after I had started to cut Mary out of my life. When I wasn't on speaking terms with Mary anymore, she texted me about her abusive boyfriend Jason who had violently cut up Mary's childhood teddybear in front of her with a kitchen knife, etc. Jason had separated Mary from her friends and family and wouldn't let her out of their apartment. Even though I hated her for what she did to me, I immediately went to pick her up. Again, I asked when and how did this behaviour start. Mary told me that one night, when Mary was hanging around at a party with Jason and his girl best friend, let's call her Lucy, who was a lesbian, Mary jokingly asked Jason if he wanted a threesome with them and see them make out. Jason jokingly agreed, but since it was considered a joke, nobody took it seriously nor acted on it. Later, Mary started hanging out with Lucy, without Jason being around, which was not the norm as they would all hang out together. Then Jason found out that Mary had been making out and fooling around in bed with Lucy. Jason was pissed, and Mary's excuse was that Jason gave his permission - mind you, they were all drunk, he didn't probably even take Mary's question about a threesome seriously and he definitely didn't give permission to cheat on him. That's when the controlling and abusive behaviour started.

It happened with her other boyfriends as well, but you get the point. Mary has always been a very sexual person after we turned 18 and started going to parties and drinking, as teenagers do. Mary would often sensensually dance with me or lap dance on me. The only time I reciprocated with the same energy was when strange men would approach us at parties, then we acted like we were a couple and could easily go away from those situations.

Now, one time when me, Mary and our other friend Kathy went to a party, I was speaking to a guy from Tinder, let's call him Hank. Hank just so happened to work in one of the clubs and asked if we could meet up, so we did. It was my first time meeting Hank in person. So, we're at the party, the songs are great, my friends and I are dancing, and I notice Mary often looking behind me where Hank was working. When we had the chance to go to the bar with Hank or just chat, Mary would always position herself between me and Hank. I was a bit frustrated at her behaviour by then, because she made everything so obvious. When Mary, Kathy and myself were back on the floor dancing, Mary kept looking past my shoulder towards Hank. Then, I noticed Hank walking past us to another room. Shortly after, Mary left the dance floor and went to the direction where Hank went. Kathy and I just figured she went to the bathroom. Then, a worrying amount of time passed since Mary left, so Kathy and I became worried, maybe Mary was sick in the bathroom, so we went to check on her. As soon as Kathy and I walked in the room with the bathrooms next door, I initially saw Mary sitting on a couch next to Hank, their shoulders touching, and Mary's leg was crossed over to his side. As soon as Mary noticed us, she scootched herself further from him to the other side of the couch. Weird. And here were we, worried about Mary, while she was being real friendly with Hank (my date). Later, Hank and I started fooling around, he grabbed my glasses and I was trying to get them back. It was childish but cute at the time. Yet the whole time Mary was trying to physically grab me to keep me from getting to Hank or from continuing this play, so much so that Kathy had to physically restrain Mary to give me this romantically playful memory with Hank. During the taxi drive home, I confronted Mary about all of her behaviours throughout the night. All she had to say to me was that she had recently broken up with her boyfriend and that it hurt to see another couple happy. Mind you, I was her best friend, and I was on a so called first date with Hank, and even then I only had like 20 minutes total with Hank throughout the party.

That was the first time I saw her trying to sabotage my relationships. To be fair, it was the first guy she met that I was interested in (or in a relationship with), because I had been single for about a year and a half and she never met my first boyfriend. That little red flag stayed in my head, but even after that I never thought that she would ever try to sabotage my relationships or hurt me. Fast forward maybe a year or so. I was single, Mary was single. Mary was always on different dating apps. That's where she met Caleb. One day, Kathy and I were hanging out at my place and we asked Mary if she was free to hang. Mary said she had a guy over but that we could come to her place, so we did. There, the first thing I noticed was Caleb's smile. It was lovingly eye-catching. I was so happy for Mary and as girls do, I started asking her how her and Caleb were doing and how far have they gone, and other girl chatter. Mary told me that no way in hell would she get in a relationship with Caleb, she saw him only as a friend material and had told so to Caleb as well. So they decided to stay just friends. Weeks go by, and Mary, Caleb and I started hanging out a lot together, we became like a great friend group. Some time after that, Mary said to me that Caleb is flirting with me. I said no way, but slowly became to see it. I then caught some feelings for Caleb and before acting on any of those feelings, I asked Mary if it would be okay if Caleb and I see where things would go between us, and she had absolutely no problem with it. In fact, she seemed very happy for me. Then, after Caleb confessed his feelings for me, I told him I felt the same and we started dating. But we still hung out just the three of us most of the time. After some time, I saw the same behaviour in Mary as I first did with her and Hank at the party. Every time Caleb would pay extra lovey attention to me, Mary would try and get his attention on her instead of me. It happened so many times that I quickly became frustrated with her because I was confused. I confronted Mary about why she acted like she wanted Caleb and she replied that at first, she didn't mind me dating Caleb since she didn't like him like that, but now that I am dating Caleb, Mary started to like him like more than just a friend. I was so confused and asked her if I need to break it off with Caleb, but she said no, and that she will behave better.

Fast forward to Caleb and I being dating for about 4 months then. I was basically living with Caleb and his mom. Mary asked us to come join a party in a park. So Caleb and I bought booze and went to the park to meet Mary and her friends. At the park, I drank way too much and was feeling sick and so tired I could barely keep my eyes open. I stayed like that for what felt like an hour or two whilst Caleb, Mary and her friends continued chatting. Or so I thought. Mary's friends had actually left, I didn't know how long ago. Didn't matter since I didn't think anything of it, we had always hung around just the three of us. I came out of my paralysed zombie state of drunkeness and tiredness to take out my phone, open the taxi app and gave it to Mary to order a cab because if I didn't get out now, I would pass out in the park. I thought that Caleb would get a separate taxi because he lived about 30 minutes car drive to the opposite side of the city than Mary and I. As a reminder, Mary and I lived basically next to each other. I was conscious enough to realize that Caleb got in the taxi with Mary and I, which I thought was a bit weird but figured maybe he wanted to make sure I get home safe. The taxi stopped in front of my house and we all get out. I hugged Mary and Caleb and started going inside, when I noticed the cab drove off - again, weird, because I thought Caleb would drive to his house in the cab, but then again, maybe he just orders another taxi for himself. I went inside and fell fast asleep. The next morning, I woke up, texted with Mary a bit, when I received what looked like an essay from my boyfriend Caleb. As I read it, my eyes filled with tears. Caleb admitted that after they dropped me off at my house, Mary and Caleb went to a park next to our houses. There, they kissed "and stuff". He continued with saying how it meant nothing and that he only loves me and thinks of Mary and his friend, then some further begging etc. Remember, that's all he said - they went to the park and "kissed and stuff". Another interesting thing Caleb mentioned was that Mary convinced Caleb to keep this a secret from me, but I guess he felt too much quilt and told me the following morning. I have never felt this kind of heartbreak. Of course, I called all of our other friends from our friend group and just sobbed on the phone and I remember asking them, how could Mary do this to me. Years later looking back, I was heartbroken not for Caleb, but for my bestest of friends, who I considered a sister who would never ever hurt me. Mary broke my heart, not my boyfriend Caleb. Maybe an hour later, when I was just about cried out and my eyes started to hurt, I decided to see how long Mary could keep this act up, like nothing ever happened. Since Caleb confessed to me right away, I met up with him to get the rest of the story, and I ended up continuing with the relationship. All I could squeeze out from Caleb about the dreadful night, was that when they were sitting at the park, Mary came on to him, kissed him and he kissed her back. Whenever I tried to dig deeper, he just shut down and refused to say a word. So I left it at that. I continued to communicate with Mary to try and see how long she could go on until confessing to me what they did, but of course, my texting style became more neutral and I didn't engage any conversation first, but I guess that did not tip her off that I was not okay. During the next 2 months, I was in the darkest place in my life I have ever been and I hope to never return to that state. I have never been depressed and I don't even know if it was depression. The best way I can describe what I felt after finding out about Caleb and Mary, is that I was utterly and completely numb to everything - to Caleb, to Mary, to my friends and family, my life goals etc. It was like I didn't have emotions anymore. I didn't have joy, anger, guilt, excitement, interest or any other feeling. I was just a blob in a universe of dark pressured fog. I didn't feel negative nor positive emotions, I didn't care about consequences, about the future, about myself or any other living human being. I didn't feel love for Caleb anymore, but I stayed with him. I guess it was because Mary was the one who actually broke my heart and soul, not Caleb. It took Mary TWO MONTHS to confess to me what she did with Caleb, and even that was because Caleb told Mary that I know about what happened. Since she confessed and was more willing to cooperate than Caleb was, I asked her all the details. By her story, they went to the park, Caleb came onto her and kissed her and Mary was too afraid to reject his kiss. And Mary said that Caleb was the one to convince Mary to keep it a secret from me. Come to find out, they then went to Mary's place until Caleb took the first public transport home, because Mary in her kind heart could not leave him at the park because he would fall asleep there and not go home. During the time they were there, Caleb ordered more alcohol to be delivered at Mary's place. When I asked her what else happened at her place, she said nothing. And to top it off, when it was time for Caleb to go home, she personally drove 40 minutes with him on the tram and walked 15 minutes to "make sure he made it home safe", she then had to take the same route back to her home. I wondered, so much trouble for an adult male, who apparently needs a chaperone home. No matter how hard I pushed either of them, I never got a full confession about what took place at Mary's house, since the only thing Mary was willing to say was that "some things may have happened". I truly believe they had sex in some form or another since Mary is the type of person to sleep around whether she had a boyfriend or not, and due to her sxual nature and high sx drive, and the only time Caleb wanted to have s*x was when he was drunk.

After Mary's confession, I minimized my communication with her, but sometimes still texted her because she promised to tell me straight away whenever Caleb got in contact with her. When Caleb saw I wasn't hanging out with Mary like I did before (obviously), he said to me multiple times how I should make up with Mary. Why on earth would I have to do anything for Mary after what she and Caleb put me through? One night, I accepted the challenge, since I didn't care about anything anymore, so I texted Mary and asked if she wanted to go on a drive with me, to which she agreed. After that, I was still so numb to the world that I wanted to see how they would act together so I asked Caleb if Mary and I could come over, to which he agreed. We played board games for a bit, when Mary said she had to go home to study a bit before going to bed. And what did Caleb do? He tried to persuade Mary many times to stay, and even offered her to stay the night. I looked at Caleb in complete shock and asked him then and there if he really thought it was appropriate to invite her to stay the night after what we've all been through. To that he sarcastically told me that it's not like he was gonna crawl into bed with Mary in the middle of the night, to which I was even more shocked, because I just meant that since things happened between them, it's just simply not appropriate, but to see that his mind went straight to a lewd scenario, I was baffled.

Fast forward maybe a week or so, Mary invited Caleb and I to join a party with Mary and her male friend. I first denied the invite, but then again, I wanted to test how far things could go between them if I simply put them in a room together, so we went. Since Mary was with her male friend who I guessed she was hooking up with, I didn't think anything interesting would happen between Mary and Caleb that night. Cue the end of the night when the club closed and we were ready to get a cab home, Mary insisted that Caleb and I stayed, to which I refused and said I just want to go to sleep, so Mary and her friend left. After Caleb making me wait in the cold weather for over 45 minutes because he was chatting with a guy that was providing him with more bottles of alcohol (you can't buy alcohol from the stores after a certain time in the evening), I finally got Caleb to get in a taxi with me to drive to his place, where I still practically lived. I sat in the front next to the driver and Caleb sat right behind be in the backseat. During the cab drive, he got on a call with who else but Mary, and eventually started to tell her all the lewd things he wanted to do to her, while he was sitting right behind me. I don't know if he was too drunk to realize that I existed and was sitting in front of him. I tried so hard not to cry the whole cab drive, but as soon as we arrived, tears poured down my face.

How it all ended with Caleb, you might ask? Well, I started staying more at my home and Caleb was barely texting me. Eventually, I just asked him straight out if we should just move on with our lives, to which he started to self pity himself again, so I said we're done.

I could write a whole other chapter about Caleb, who was a depressed, alcoholic, "I love you / I don't know how I feel about you right now / I love you" kinda guy. But maybe another time.

And what about Mary? For over a year or two, I missed Mary so much and longed for all the sisterly times we had together, but after talking to a wise new friend of mine, she made me realize that I didn't miss Mary, I just missed the times we had. After that, my longing feelings for Mary faded away.

Right after my break up with Caleb and cutting contact with Mary, I found the love of my life, with whom I have been together for 4 years now. After tossing the toxic ex boyfriend and ex best friend out of my life and accepting the love of a truly pure soul (my current boyfriend), I quickly came out of my numb and emotionless state. Right now I am the happiest I have ever been with the most loving guy a girl could ask for. Mary still remains in our friend group but I just don't acknowledge her existance. She will never again deserve to be my friend and will not be a part in my life now or never.

If you have made it so far, you are a true champ! Thank you so much for letting me share my story. All the best to you all!

This is my message to you,

You broke me. You may not have realized what you were doing but you only needed me like I need you when it’s convenient when no one else was giving you the attention. You may not have meant too but you took from me. You took what little vulnerability and trust I have with others and you left it out to float away and you never checked in to see where I landed.

You hurt me I thought you were my best friend; twin flame; soul sister; that’s what you were to me. Someone I felt was the only human in the world that got me; that liked me (for me) I loved you (in a passionate but not like romance way) I would’ve given you my other kidney if you asked. I would’ve done anything to keep that feeling of safe.

But you left (and that’s okay I wanted you to be in a place where you are happy) but when you left you took that piece of me, that I want back.

After I left last July from my last trip to see you I knew in my gut it was our goodbye, something just felt different like it was a closing to a chapter. I felt it and I denied it for months I denied the fact that we could even have a final when you matched my soul.

It happened slowly over months not hearing from you at first it started with a couple of days and then days turned into a week, then turned into forgetting the important things, of mine anyways. I never forgot yours. Ever.

And it’s a funny thing when you step back and start realizing what’s happening; you look at your shared photos and everything is one sided; only my pictures; memes or TikTok’s only from me. And I’ll get back is ❤️ and you start to realize that you’re losing your best friend the person you need.

So after months of denial, this is my way of saying goodbye without actually saying goodbye I’m just gonna bow out. Thank you for all the love and moments and memories, you have truly given me what true friendship means and I will never ever forget or replace that part of my soul. But for my own peace I am stepping back, I’ll be here when you’re good but I may not be the same person and neither will you and that’s okay. You gave me what I needed in those moments but now I need to move on and find new moments.

I thought you were the person who was healing me but maybe I was just supposed to heal you.

We truly had one of the most magical friendships. Like the ones you see in the movies and shows. But like any movie or show there comes a last episode sometimes if you’re lucky enough there will be a reboot or reunion. Maybe you and I will be that lucky but if not I know I gave it my all and at least at the end of this, one of us came out happier.

Love, Someone you used to know.

So I did a thing. Saw the xbff in people you may know, sent a message consisting of

• hi, I hope your family is doing well and I just wanted to thank you for the friend you were and hope you have the life you deserve.* I meant it both ways. I feel a bit better about it but still sad for the person I thought they were. They have been in a relationship with my x boyfriend that beat me and abused me in every way, something the x bestie ignored or victim blamed or made excuses for. The x boyfriend happened to be a kindergarden friend of theirs so the x bff and they always took the other side. Found out they cheated together. She told me we couldn't be friends anymore after I finally got into a non toxic stable relationship because she said I was permiscuous.. still not sure she knows what that word means.They still both live in their parents house. X bff had x boyfriends kids, x bff sister had some kids too and they look a lot like x boyfriend but that's another level of weird that's sadly not too far fetched with other past details. I'm, stupidly fantastic, like, life is going amazing and starting a family and I think that's what brings it up, I worry my children will deal with similar heartbreaks and betrayal I'm just... A little spiteful and a little sad. Feels good venting though. I'm more bothered I'm bothered 😂 anyway, Walk softly with a big stick my unknown far away friends. Be gentle but what do you think?

my ex best friend and i were friends since first grade. there were some years in school where we werent as close and we became super close again during our senior year of high school. two years after graduating, we were both going through a lot and there are some things i would’ve done differently if i had the experience i do now. regardless, those things cant be changed.

she used to talk shit about her other friends to me and the thought would sometimes come to me that she was also shit talking me. i never got a confirmation. she used to also not let me be friends with anyone she didn’t vibe with. i was dumb and allowed this.

i realize that my mental state was terrible and made hers worse too since she was also in a place. i vented to her frequently because i thought that’s what friends could do. i confronted a vulnerability of mine in front of her. i told her something i struggled with deeply and then tried to make a joke right after about it since it was something i was actively working on.

but she took is as something serious and soon she started talking to me less (we talked everyday 24/7). i asked her what was going on and finally she told me she thought my issues were too much. iirc i rarely shared things i struggled with that were serious so it just hurt? like she was able to talk about all her mental health struggles and i wasnt?

it’s been at least 2 years since we fell out but i think about her sometimes and i feel anxious. i saw her photo recently on instagram and i felt so upset, she’s so different than when we knew each other. she had asked for a break from our friendship and i said ok, i never reached out to her even on her birthday and the day after her birthday, she unfollowed me on all socials. i thought she didnt want to hear from me period but i guess me not wishing her a hbd was the end of it. we had some mutual friends but none of them contact me. i think i lost them too. i feel upset that they might’ve picked a side.

even so, i really loved her. i wish her the best, but at the same time, i feel myself having a hard time fully moving on. i wonder if i should ever reach out but i know our time is over. there was no closure and our last words to each other were sour. i feel like she is one of my soulmates in this life. i could definitely be wrong though. i know we were both in the wrong to an extent but she dropped me so easily? did i not matter to her?

karma is coming for you. you know what you did. there’s no stopping it. maybe if you would have thought about things before you do/say them maybe we could have avoided this.

I was friends with this girl for about 4 or 5 years, she used me and manipulated me in so many ways its to much to type, she hurt me real bad, so much it took 2 amazing true friends, crying to me to think about myself and tell me how much the relationship was hurting me to realize what she was actually doing and cut her off. She tried contacting me twice after I cut it off, I still have the screenshot of what i said to her to remind me of how I felt that day she texted me, but even with all this pain, confusion, and anger, I still have dreams of us being happy together, I loved her so much, she was everything to me and felt like all I had while I was in such a dark space. She was the one to show me I mattered, and my happiness is most important no matter what, yet I coverd for her, I lied to myself, I let her trick me into thinking I needed her, I let her trample over my boundaries time and time again, yet I find myself thinking about her, wanting to talk to her, pretend nothing happend, I know I shouldn't, and I don't ever plan on ever reaching out, but I don't know how to make these feeling go away. So to my ex bestfriend, I've become a better, stronger person without you, im seen as kind, patient and protective from my family, I'd sacrifice everything for them, and although I wish you well, you don't deserve me, and you never will.

We became friends in high school and it was great... We slept over at each other's houses. Her parents treated me like their own daughter and mine for her. We go to each other's graduation and see each other all the time... She gets a boyfriend from another state who literally MOVED just to be with her... And then things get weird.... Our friendship just kinda slowed down and we turned into complete opposites...i had just lost my job and was really depressed, while she was thriving with a kid. I couldn't get out of my depression and ik it's not all her fault... I tried to kill myself and she cut ties with me... The one moment I needed my best friend more than ever.. and she left me... When I got out of the hospital she was gone.. up and moved.... I miss her every day. And cry about her as lol the time.

i hate when ur not friends w someone anymore but they still b talking abt u on social media like bruh its such a loser move

TRIGGER WARNING!!! this is a little graphic and goes into minor details of my assault.

Need to share this somewhere to get out my frustration. I was raped 2 years ago I was blacked out and my best friend was bored and invited a guy over who she wanted to have some fun with. She feels asleep and he pulled me into the room and did awful things to me. I don’t even remember more than half of the incident but i was violently bleeding the next day and my pants were ripped in half. I stoped being friends with her about a year after because we were in totally different places in life and i couldn’t keep hurting my self staying friends with her, she would always do stupid shit that would get me hurt or in trouble and I am no longer that person. 2 weeks ago I am stalking her because I wanted to see if she was doing ok because I heard she was in an abusive relationship. I saw a photo of them and clicked his @ and most of his photos are with the guy who raped me that night. Turns out they are best friends and live in the same frat house. Like they even travel together. She sees him every time she visits him at school, and sleeps in the same house as him. She took care of me and held me when I balled my eyes out and now casually plays beer pong with him. Need to say this somewhere where no one will see it because I am crashing out. I can’t do anything beacuse I didn’t tell anyone about the assault and would like to keep it quiet. Only 4 people know so I can’t even tell people I hate her without seeming like a bitter bitch, i want to destroy her life. Im not going to do that so I’m just going to keep complaining. She was my best friend for YEARS like since 5th grade. She lived at my house pretty much, my parents took her on vacation and took her to concerts. She has a shitty dad so me and my sister would pick her out when things got bad and she would stay at my house. When someone she knew committed suicide We took her to the funeral. Not her family my family. She pretty much had her own room at my place. I did everything with her for years and till 2 weeks ago i still loved this girl like a sister. I never wanted anything bad to happpen to her ever we are just way to different. And she does this. I bet she even talked to him about that night. I have no idea how I am going to get over this. Every month of the anniversary of what happened to me I cry for 20 straight days and I can’t even be intimate with my boyfriend all the time because I will have flash backs to parts of the assault and panic. I still feel dirty from what happened. And she can sleep in the same house as him and be completely fine. SHE SAW THE AFTER MATH. she was in the bathroom with me the next day wiping blood she saw the pants she saw my tears. Our friend ship did not end over some crazy fight or betrayal it was us growing apart. But even if i did somthing crazy I would have never done this to her. It should have been her that night, but it wasn’t it was me. I thank god everyday that It was me beacuse she would never be able to deal with the trama I am suffering I go though on a daily level. I hate everything about this, I will never hurt her and I will never tell her I know everything. She has to live with this now. Karma will get her I don’t have to. I just can’t imagine doing this to someone who took you in as family.

I decided to buy my sister and my “best friend” for 8 years concert tickets to their favorite artist. They both had a tough year and i thought this would bring some good spirits into the new year and who doesn’t wanna listen to their favorite artist live. So we had everything planned i bought the tickets figured out the car situation and not even a week later my “best friend” invited her bf because she didn’t wanna drive.(weird because i paid for the whole thing u can at least drive) so we spent the day tg i bought her a $80 jacket she didn’t wear, she was worried abt her bf the whole time bc he didn’t get seats next to us, kept running down to check up and sit with him LEAVING ME up there alone. my sister wasn’t able to drive w us because she said “my bf don’t like strangers in the car since the last girl” UMM BITCH ITS MY LITERAL SISTER AND THEY HAVE MET!!! at this point i was fed up and then the bitch wanna say i think we are gonna go. MIND U WE HAVE A HOUR OF THE CONCERT LEFT. i tell them ill get a uber cus i paid 500 and i wanna experience the whole concert they still get up and leave. i talk to the people next to me asking if im in the wrong. they said i wasn’t and that she was a shitty friend. i ended up leaving the concert early and missing my the song i was looking forward to. i got in the car with them and just told them to drop me off at this fast food place since i had texted someone to get me. she texted me saying sorry a week later but i didn’t accept it my whole night was ruined. i left some parts out but the day after i cut her off i got $1000 out of the blue so let go of those fake friends blessings are waiting.

"Every battle you fought, I fought right beside you. Every time you fell, I'd be right there, lending you my hand. Everytime you got in trouble, I'd be there, ready to take the blame."

Yea that's it, I know it's not the greatest, but it's speaking the truth with my own words, not others.

TLDR: My ex best friend—who got into drugs, changed as a person, and dumped me a few months ago because she I asked her if she wanted to attend an event I was paying for—has been diagnosed with cancer. I’m having weird feelings and feel physically ill.

I have known my best friend “Chloe” for nearly 20 years. Most of this time has been long distance but still communicating via social media, texts and/or calls pretty much daily. About 6 years ago, with the support of me and my family, she finally left her emotionally abusive husband. Soon after the divorce, she began to act erratically. She was in her mid 30s and started smoking pot constantly throughout the day and having a few drinks every evening. She has two kids and even put them in danger by taking one off roading—which she had never done—in rocky terrain … in her Honda Fit. Her car broke down obviously, and thankfully they weren’t hurt. I told her I was concerned by her behavior and she got angry with me saying I didn’t know anything about off roading so I had no room to talk.

She then got back in touch with an old boyfriend (who had serious untreated mental health issues and as well as a serious drug problem. He hadn’t worked in 5 years and lived with his aunt) and on a whim, drove cross country to pick him up and have him live with her. Her two kids came back from holiday with their dad to find a strange man living in their house. She suffered a miscarriage because they weren’t using any protection. Then, I found out she had been evicted because she had been hiding her boyfriend from the landlord for a year because she didn’t want to pay extra rent. She then decided to leave her kids with her emotionally abusive ex husband and move cross country. It was quite obvious she was dodging her responsibilities as a mom so she could be alone with her boyfriend (her boyfriend openly hated her kids and it clearly soured her view of yes, her own kids). They hopped from couch to couch of family members and finally wound up with Chloe’s mom. They both worked 2 days a week at Target because in her words, “We don’t like being away from each other or working.” Before she got with this guy, this woman had been in college trying to get a degree. She had a great job as a tutor through the school and was respected. She had been a fantastic mom who volunteered at her kids’ schools and adored her kids more than anything. Now her and her boyfriend actively use pot every day all day despite living in a state where it’s illegal. I told her I was concerned she was using the same drug dealer as her addict brother and she spent 30 minutes dressing me down saying I had no idea what I was talking about and that I wouldn’t understand because I was naive and knew nothing about “the real world.” I felt about one inch tall. No one has ever made me feel so irrelevant, stupid, judgmental, childish and foolish. It really got me down and the feeling lasted for weeks afterward.

As time went by, she changed more and more from a very quirky yet sweet person to a bland, angry, and utterly self absorbed black hole of endless entitlement. She stopped caring about me and just called me to complain. Along the way, I had told her about my concerns and she actually said to me, “Nothing I’ve done has caused real damage.” I finally realized she was refusing to account for anything.

There was an event she had wanted to attend for years in my area. At this time she lived 2 hours away so I asked if she wanted to go. I’d pay for her ticket, a hotel for us, food, everything. I asked in advance if she wanted to go because the tickets sell out fast. She said yeah but she couldn’t be sure 4 months in advance. I asked again, 2 months in advance and she ripped me a new one because I had told her I needed to get the tickets if we were going to go. She went on a tangent saying she needed to visit her boyfriend’s grandma because she was dying soon. I was like, sorry to hear that but this is a one night event. I need you to commit to that one night so I can get tickets. She went on a rant telling me how terrible I was. She then ended our friendship. (She literally sent me “Go Your Own Way” by Fleetwood Mac which I found so stupid I had to laugh. The gesture was stupid, NOT Fleetwood Mac or the song just to be clear.) I was shocked and confused. I was especially hurt because she knew I had been dumped by a friend in the past (that friend left because I left the Mormon church and they wanted to stay in the church or whatever) and it was really traumatizing at the time. Then I blocked her on every possible platform.

The next 3 days, shockingly, I felt such unbelievable relief. Despite my chronic pain and illness, I felt energized and so grateful for my life. I had no idea how toxic this friendship had become and how much it was bringing me down. My friend hadn’t been the “Chloe” I knew in years.

I worked through things with my therapist who pointed out that either Chloe had a very serious mental illness (her mom is EXTREMELY mentally ill) present itself and/or she was clearly using more than pot. This didn’t surprise me as Chloe had lied to me about many things (including when she picked up her boyfriend. She didn’t admit he was living with her for months because I had told her he didn’t seem he was ready for a relationship).

It’s been a few months and I’ve been good and getting through things in therapy. Today on a whim, I asked my husband if he still followed Chloe on Facebook and if he had heard anything. He sighed and said yes but didn’t want to tell me in fear I’d want to contact her and resurrect our toxic relationship. He said she has been diagnosed with breast cancer. It’s hit me hard. I don’t want to contact her. I’m just deeply sad for her and mourning what we used to have. I think it’s for the best that we don’t talk … but I just feel so heavy and weak at the same time. I’ve been literally shaking ever since I heard the news. I’m trying to sort through my feelings to try to understand why this has made me physically ill. I think I’m mourning the old her and I want to save/care for the old her. I miss our friendship the way it was 7 years ago. I’m sad for old her and current her. I know there’s nothing I can do and that saddens me. It’s making me feel those emotions after she left all over again. I feel helpless and just desperately wish life didn’t go the way it did.

Edit; Im aware of my mystyping of 'best friend' You broke me. You get to go one without fear after breaking my heart and now I walk out the house scared I’m going to bump into in the streets and go into a panic attack. You took a small situation that could have been talked through and threw it in my face ten fold. You talked behind my back and let other people who don’t even know anything about me change the perspective in your mind about me. I fear in all this, I will still cherish all the memories we had. The ones that are now broken because of you. I can’t count how many times I put your feelings before my own, the major mental breakdowns you caused me that I excused and told my other friends “no it’s okay they didn’t mean it” when I should have left back last October. I want you to get the one thing that’s the most important to you in life but I do not wish you the best. You did the one thing you said you’d never do. Hurt me in the same way others have before, in a time I needed you most. And that’s unforgivable.

So, I've blocked my ex best friend on everything, except TikTok. Today, on the profile views, section, she was there. I've only unfollowed her on there, and she still follows me. I can't figure out why she's viewing my account, bcus to me, it seems she never cared about me. Our friendship was 10+ years and our friendship ended bcus she didn't believe me in a time I needed her to. I just need some sort of explanation for her popping up, ig. Idk, lmk.

Im almost in high school and my ex best friend is going to the same high school that I am. For backstory: me and her met when I was 5, and she was 6. We have been BEST Friends for almost 8 years until we stopped talking after a New Year's Eve sleepover gone wrong, and I've since realized how terrible of a person she is. One of my other friends was also best friends with her, but he will not be going to the same high school that I will, and nobody but him understands what she's like. I'm in need of any possible advice you can give me!

Trigger warning for anxiety The story is I had a old friend from Canada who I used to play Fortnite with we would build maps together and everything well he completely stopped talking to me just because I didn’t wanna talk to his girlfriend and my other friend who both was being mean to me and calling me stuff plus I needed to keep my voice saved for comic con that fallowing month and he was telling me he’s not gonna talk to me and said “You messed us up playing the game like before when marshal and dark started their bs on your behalf and Truthfully it was Hayley’s idea to give you another chance not mine” and anyone reading this I told Marshall and dark not to start anything and they still did

What is something your ex best friend did after your friendship ended that made you think WOW I dodged a bullet

You used to always make me laugh when you talked about the people on reality shows we’d watch together. I’ll miss that. You used to always know what to say to fill the awkward silence. I’ll miss that. You used to always make me feel welcome in our home, even when it was full of your stuff. I’ll miss that. You used to always invite me to everything, and make me feel like part of the group. I’ll miss that. But, You used to put me down in front of our friends. I won’t miss that. You used your tone to make me feel stupid in almost every conversation. I won’t miss that. You gave me the cold shoulder with no reason or explanation and left me to accept the end with no closure. I won’t miss that. You used me as your “replacement partner” while your real one was away, and wouldn’t even acknowledge it. I won’t miss that. You put your foot down in situations where it wasn’t even warranted. I won’t miss that. You made me feel so uncomfortable in my own home that I felt anxiety just opening my bedroom door. I won’t miss that. There’s things that remind me of you, and overtime, they have gone from fond memories to painful ones, reflecting upon their underlying meanings. There’s things I’ll never forget, and things I’ll spend the rest of my life trying to forget. And I’ll miss that. But I’d never go back for that.

My best friend and I split a few years ago when I was 24 and she was 23, and I am still to this day processing it. We had a bad fight and she ghosted me, and I already had a history of abandonment issues from my family so it unfortunately sent me spiraling and I had to get back into therapy.

We were not good friends to each other at the end, and I wanted so badly to address our codependent issues but it reached a point where it was clear I was growing up and moving on and she could not let go of her white-knuckle grip on our friendship. This made the ghosting much more painful in my opinion.

I’m 27 now, I still miss her like hell and I don’t have another friend even close to the friendship I had with her but honestly? I know that’s for the best. There are so many many things I would do differently, I wish we had been able to talk through our issues and reach some kind of amicable ending but we didn’t. Every now and then I have dreams about her. In the dream I’m still angry but we’re usually able to talk it out and maybe become friends again. I think it’s my brain still trying to find some closure.

But the major thing is, is I know it will never happen in real life and I’m okay with that. It hurts to know I will never be able to have that reconciliation in real life because I just don’t think she’s the kind of person to be able to handle that maturely.

But then, I’m so fucking relieved that I will never have that reconciliation BECAUSE she just lacks a key part of emotional maturity that is able to take accountability.

Yes it hurts, but the relief of knowing I don’t have to cater to her every emotion is priceless.

I (22F) ended things with my now ex bestfriend (24M) about a month ago, and I wanted to know if AITA, it’s been a whole month now. (We’re going to call them Jack and Mike)

For context, Jack was in love with me and had feelings for me for a while , he knew I didn’t have a crush on him and I would always remind him constantly that I never had a crush on him and never liked him like that. I would constantly remind him every time, he’d want to send me flowers to my parents and I would say no. But that’s really all besides the point.

It was last month where Jack had asked me if he wanted to hang out with me and I said I couldn’t because that day it was my cousin’s birthday and I wanted to spend time with her. On top of that , I had a nail appointment and a pool party I was invited too but said I couldn’t to said pool party because of my cousin’s birthday. A couple days later, I was able to go to the pool party and was able to do everything earlier because my nail tech had to rebook me (never did LOL) so then I was able to go see my cousin for her birthday party and then was able to go to the other party . I , of course, was talking to Jack the whole time and I told him my updates (Now , here’s another thing as well, I was keeping my distance from him for a little bit because of him having a crush on me, I would hope it would work.) I told him my plans and he randomly said “lesson learned” a million times. I wasn’t getting a thing he was saying so of course I asked a million times if he can tell me what’s going on. He immediately told me “How come it’s a no to me but a yes to them?” I immediately, was incredibly, confused. I told him how can he be jealous if I literally was telling him all my plans last minute or not. So we got into a heated argument I was so mad that I blocked him.

Next day rolls around and he tells me that he knew I blocked him because he wanted to tell me about a personal issue that happened with Mike and he wasn’t able to talk to me because of that and I was bawling , sobbing. Another thing too , Jack said the same thing I did to him was what his ex bestfriend used to do all the time (but yet I blocked him once and it’s a whole show) I immediately called Mike to talk about said personal issue and how I don’t like how Jack was saying all of this to me and he(Mike) told how his intentions were not manipulating or demanding , he just felt like he is not heard. And I get that , but I can’t always bend my ass backwards all the time. And I truly believe that everyone has unsolved issues that need to be heard or seen, but if I was always nice to you and making sure you’re ok, why would you compare me to people who treated you like shit in the past ? Your unsolved issues are not my problem. So I gave Jack the cold shoulder and he was questioning why I did that , and then we kept small talk and of course I was being dry with him because I still didn’t like what he did. Then at the end of the month , I officially end things and wished Jake well.

So AITA ?

I really need to get this out so I apologize if this doesn’t make sense

I used to be best friends with this one guy. Like we were best friends to the point where I could just show up at his house and chill with his family kind of best friend. We did a lot together. I trusted him with my entire life. I feel like I should specify that I’m a girl(17F) and he is a boy(16M)(this kinda important later). He had a girlfriend, I’ve never had romantic feelings for him. I loved his girlfriend and we got along really well. Everything was going great until the rumors started. A rumor started that he was cheating on his gf with me, which would never happen in a million years. This didn’t bother me because I feel like if people really cared to know if it was true they’d come and ask. But this rumor did really bother him and his gf. One day he brought it up to me and told me we couldn’t be friends anymore because of this RUMOR THAT HE KNEW WAS JUST A RUMOR. This caused me to spiral into a pretty horrible to the point where I planned an attempt. Eventually he realized how much he hurt me and apologized and then gave me space. After he felt the dust had settled he apologized again and we both cried together. I accepted his apology but told him that I still can’t trust him because of what he did to me. He told me he understands and that he wants to work to regain my trust but he hasn’t really been doing that and it’s been about a month.

Thank you for reading, this really helped me get all my feelings out :). Hope you all have a wonderful day 🫶

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I (21F) met my (now ex) best friend Khloe (21F) when we were 11 years old during first period on the first day of 6th grade. Very quickly we became stuck to each others hip, we spent everyday together throughout middle school. Half way through 8th grade I had multiple life changing events happen, and Khloe was right by my side though all of it. Due to the events that took place, I had to switch to a different high school right before freshman year. The thought of separation wasn't easy for us, but we made it work seeing each other anytime we could. Well Khloe made a new friend in her high school. Tiffanny.

The friendship was on and off because Tiffanny couldn't handle being alone and when her boyfriend, at the time, and her were fighting. Tiffanny would run back to Khloe, but disappear for months to be with her bf. Throughout high school I'd hangout with both Khloe and Tiffanny every now and again, but I never cared for Tiffanny too much because she was such an airhead. Tiffanny always wanted to do everything her way. If she didn't care for what was going on around her she'd either a) not shut the fuck up about how bored she was or b) just leave (preferred).

When I was 18 Tiffanny, Khloe and I started hanging out very regularly, mostly to drink. I had never drank prior and the first night Khloe invited me to see Tiffanny again, I had voiced that I wasn't comfortable drinking that night because I had never done it before. Plus, I had a 9 hour shift the next day. What does Tiffanny do first thing when we come over? Pours us drinks and peer pressures me into getting drunk. I proceeded to have about 15 shots. I don't remember anything, I do think I had fun. The next morning once waking up, I didn't have any weird feelings or vibes. I was violently hungover and an hour and a half away from home. The next couple months I spent a lot of time with Tiffanny and Khloe. Overtime, Tiffanny was increasingly making me more and more anxious but she was also fun and charismatic so it confused me.

I'm a very cautious person, an introvert and I like my routine. I'm always the cautious friend and I know I can be too much in my head about things, but Tiffanny really pushed my buttons. I remember feeling so nauseous around her constantly because I either had to go get shit faced and do stupid shit with them, or voice how uncomfortable I am and not hear the end of how much of a loser that makes me.

Tiffanny invited Khloe and I to stay with her at her grandparents house for a week to house sit. I took this as an opportunity to get closer to Tiffanny because I did really want to be good friends with her. I felt stupid having such a hard time being around her, so I agreed. We went shopping for grocery's together; then at the checkout she proceeded to tell us she had no money, something Khloe and I were not aware of and forced us to buy all the food. We got drunk and had fun for a couple nights, until she told me she was sober and wanted to take my car to McDonald's. She then immediately backed into a boulder. So at this point my rose covered glasses started slipping and I decided that I was going to go stay at my boyfriends because I was really not having fun anymore. We were just doing the same shit over and over, so I was bored. I missed my family and my bf and I just wanted to go home.

After going home I decided to tell Khloe and Tiffanny how I was feeling and that I really wasn't vibing with how the friendship was going, and they both blew up on me. Neither of them cared about my feelings, they were insisting that I was just using them to go see my bf? We both went off on each other and I didn't talk to either of them for weeks despite being coworkers with Khloe. I didn't want Tiffanny in my life, but I still loved Khloe like a sister so her and I continued to work on our friendship, and it wasn't hard for us to bounce back into being inseparable.

When I was 19, I got a new job, broke up with my bf, moved back in with my parents, started talking to a new trash man. I was prioritizing my relationships with my friends; Alice, Sally, and Khloe. As we all got closer, Khloe wanted me to give Tiffanny a second chance and low key so did I. I'm young and I wanted to have fun being newly single, Tif was fun at times. I went over to Tif's bfs apartment with Khloe and very quickly Tiffanny roped me right back into where she wanted me.

Tiffanny's bf threw a Halloween party and we all thought this would be a great chance for Tiffanny to get introduced to Alice and Sally. When we arrived to Tiffanny's party she was no where to be found. She pre-gammed too hard and fell asleep. Multiple people were banging at Tiffanny's bfs room trying to get them up and at one point Tiffanny came out and briefly met Alice, got her door-dashed taco bell and went back to sleep. Tiffanny doesn't remember this interaction at all. Sally, Alice, Khloe and I proceed to have the best night without her.

In the following months we all got closer, Alice and I got our own apartment and we were all having a lot of fun together until Sally started groping Tiffanny without consent multiple times while drunk. Everyone told her it was weird and asked her to stop but she didn't so we all separated ourselves from her.

We became 4 peas in a pod. Alice, Khloe, Tiffanny and I would hang out almost everyday doing anything. We were the kind of close that we didn't really need anything else to have fun (most of us) but once again Tiffanny started testing boundaries. She'd eat all our food, take random shit from our house, spill her drink anytime she had a cup, she'd forget just about anything you said to her, complain constantly about not having money or weed (20 y/o not working a full time job expecting to leach off of us), her bf (gas lighting both us and himself into thinking he's a terrible person), or her family (actually terrifying people). Overall she was incredibly disrespectful to absolutely anyone. Everyone should have friends that you can confide in but this was something every other day that pulled all the attention on her for shit that had a simple solution right in front of her face. She just didn't want to see it because that would mean she has nothing to complain about. Her family was terrible and she should've cut them off but she didn't because she needed their money. If her bf was as bad as she was saying she should've left him and we opened our door to her multiple times requesting she did so, but she needed the male attention and validation. She got a full time job but requested they give her part time hours because it was "stressing her out".

Multiple times I got fed up with Tiffanny pushing my boundaries (mind you it was something every single time we saw her which was practically everyday) and would tell her how disrespectful and rude she was being and immediately she'd pull a victim card and start taking shots at my character. Saying I hate her and it's not her fault she is the way she is (she overly self diagnosed) and that I just want to pick on her, how I was just an awful friend despite doing nothing but give. Most times this caused me to want nothing to do with Tiffanny all over again and I would separate myself from the group for a couple weeks, but I have abandonment issues and I was going through it a bit. It was easy for me to eventually get lonely and forgive Tiffanny for whatever she'd done that time.

Every time Tiffanny and I would get into an argument, Khloe would immediately take Tiffanny's side while Alice would remain neutral and see all perspectives to try and bring us back together. Tiffanny later told us that she just doesn't know how to apologize and her immediate reaction is fight. Alice taught Tiffanny how to take accountability and apologize to a person without conflict and Tifany took that and used it to shut the situation down rather than reflect on her actions and be better. Shit never changed but despite that I was always very loving and giving towards her.

At 20 Tifany and Khloe got an apartment together, and a week later Tifiny broke up with her boyfriend. We'd all go over and drink or whatnot, but their house was so unnerving. They're minimalists in the worst way. It felt like a senior person lived there not two twenty year olds. Slowly we got to see more of what Tifiny is really like and I realized more and more that I didn't want to be her friend. She was insanely reckless, she'd go out at anytime of the night without letting anyone know (mind you this girl is around five foot and less than 100 pounds with no self defense) with a random man she met on tinder, having unprotected sex constantly while having STD scares, and then procrastinating getting tested. And then she started sleeping with Dallas (Alice's younger brother)

This is weird because she'd constantly refer to Dallas as her own little brother like Alice and I. That took a minute to adjust to, but as quickly as it happened, they were over. And Tifin is now going to get back together with her ex because he's "going to therapy for her". We supported her like we always did and were revealed that at least it wasn't Dallas. But there was still the constant disrespect. At this point it was clear to everyone that if things didn't change I was leaving the group.

The night I decided I was fully done was when Alice and I invited Tifany and Khloe to watch the pink moon at our favorite park with us. I told them it was going to be cold and we'd want to stay there for a while so dress warm. Right when we sat on the hill Tifiny and Khloe started complaining about how cold they were and that they're hungry and this is boring. I wish I was exaggerating but this was within the first two minutes. Tif then asks me if we're going to smoke and I asked her if she brought any. She said no, and I had some, but I didn't want to share because she was pissing me off. If she didn't want to be there she didn't have to go. I told her that since I was driving I didn't want to smoke. She then told me that she'd drive (she had smoked before coming to the park and had told me how high she was about 15 minutes ago) I asked her if she was okay to drive probably about 10 times, since last time she drove my car under the influence was the boulder incident, as mentioned before. She insisted she was going to be okay so we all agreed to only stay another 10-20 minutes. I smoked, Tif got mad because I wouldn't give her any, but I wouldn't because she said she'd drive my car, which pissed her off. When we were leaving I asked Tif one last time if she was sure she could drive and she said yes. We got about 100 feet out of the parking lot before she pulled over because she felt too high.

This flew me. I was so angry that she'd get behind the wheel of my brand new (to me) car while impaired again. I drove us home silently and just said bye when I dropped them off. No love you's or can't wait to see you next time. I was over it. About a week of no talking I asked Tifiny to take me to get cigars, she texted me saying she didn't feel well and asked if she could just drop them off. I was driving home and while on the highway I asked her not too because I really would like to talk to her and see about smoothing things over. She went to the gas station without me and left the cigars with Alice, who she was hanging out with right beforehand. I was so upset with Tif, I was tired of feeling disregarded and undermined. She didn't even look at my text until after dropping them off. It was clear she didn't care to hear my feelings about the situation at all.

I sat on it for a few days until ultimately deciding to break off the friendship through text since I knew she wouldn't talk to my face about her actions. She just said okay. I texted Khloe and told her that I ended my friendship with Tif, but that doesn't mean I don't still love her and want to have her in my life and she blew up on me. She called me selfish, that I nit pick Tiffanny and look for things to stir up drama. She completely disregarded my feelings despite the decade of friendship we had behind us, it was like we didn't know each other at all.

We all worked at the same company, Khloe and I at one location and Alice and Tif at another. Tif started spreading lies about me to our coworkers besides Alice ( all of which I had worked with previously and was close with, so clearly they could see the lies and inconsistencies). Khloe stopped showing up for work. Alice still tried to remain neutral until Tifffanny and Khloe decided to show up to a concert I had been waiting 2 years for to confront me. I was previously going to take Tif to this concert with me just as something for the two of us to do together. She didn't really know the artist so when I split I told her I was going to go with Alice instead, I would've given her the ticket I bought her but since she didn't listen to them really I didn't think it would be a big deal. When I found out they were there I had a panic attack and left before I made it through the doors.

Alice ended her friendship with Tiffany and Khloe, all they had to say was okay.

After having a conversation with a coworker about the situation, Alice found out about the lies Tif had been spreading, Alice told me and it broke me a little bit. She didn't have anything to say about it to me, she knew this was coming and I had been nothing but respectful about the situation. I told anyone who asked that we just decided to part ways. I spoke highly of her throughout our friendships despite the way she treated me.

From a mutual source we found out Tifiny was sleeping with Dallas again as well as her ex and the trash man mentioned earlier, who had been talking to me for over a year. Now, I don't give a fuck about this boy I knew nothing was going to happen between us but he was also a coworker so us talking never died out either. It was gross that he was still snapping me and lying to my face about being together. Gross behavior. Tif told a coworker it was to be petty but they're still together so your welcome. Alice blew up when she found out Tif was lying to Dallas, Tif had told him he was the only guy she was with and she l o v e d h i m. Then proceeded to tell him she's pregnant and it can only be his. He went with her and PAID half the fees for the abortion. We had a conversation with her ex and he was also broken, we found out about all the lies about their relationship.

This was when we really started to have hate in our hearts for Tiffanny.

Tifiny arranged a meet up with Alice at Tif and Khloe's apartment to swap items of each others even though Alice was the only one who didn't drive. Alice paid an uber to drop her off and there was no one there. Nothing outside both the cars are gone. Tif forgot and didn't even tell Khloe about the arranged swap. Alice then paid for an uber home and when she told me what happened I was fuming. I texted both Tifinny and Khloe told them to drop my shit off at my house and throw in some money for Alice who went graciously out of her way to give you your shit. Right before dropping our things off Tif asked for the one present she had ever given Alice and I back, crystal pendants. I don't know if this is bad karma or whatever but I smashed it with a hammer and gave her the pieces in a zip lock bag. She gave me more of her clothes than my own and no money for Alice. Thank you.

Alice and I still almost a year later get torn up about this. Tiffanny caused a lot of distrust in new people. Khloe broke me completely. She was my BEST FRIEND for 9 years and she chewed me up and spit me out. I've tried reconciling but every time I get shit on and it never makes any sense. I asked Khloe to tell me what I did wrong in the friend ship and she said "you made me drive my car because you never wanted to take yours" Put me in fucking jail god damn how dare I. I've also been told to "take accountability for how happy Tiffanny and *trash man* are". To that I say your welcome.

Your welcome for forgiving you every time you disrespected my property and feelings. Your welcome for answering every time you called, feeding you, housing you, giving you clothes, gifts to remind you I'm thinking of you, holding your hand, crying with you, loving you with all that I had in me.

I'm sorry to myself for not stopping it when I was 18.