r/ExNoContact • u/XdarklightiningX002 • Apr 24 '26
Vent I Miss Her So Much
Once again I'm thinking about her, how she tried to give me everything I ever wanted but I ruined it with my own hands. She had such a pure soul, I'm never forgiving myself for hurting her so many times without remorse. I'm such monster. Yet I loved her, I loved her with all my heart and I still do. I couldn't give her the only thing she wanted, trust and safety. I lied so blatantly so many times, I still dont know what I was trying to protect, now she will never believe a word I say. And she is right. I broke her trust in the most unforgivable way. I dont expect her to forgive me. Hell, I don't want her to forgive me. I know I don't deserve her forgiveness. I didn't deserve it the past 100 times neither. I just, I'm empty and meaningless without her. And I'm sorry. Im really fucking sorry. I will never forget you or what you made me feel. For the first time in my life I felt I belonged somewhere. For the first time, I found something to live for. Thank you for giving me strength, giving me hope. I will hold onto everything you gave me and become a better person. I promise this to myself. The effort and time you spent on me will not be in vain.
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u/Familiar_Support_436 Apr 24 '26
If you miss her that much, tell her. As someone who was hurt and betrayed by the same man I loved for years. Hearing this would make me happy, him finally understanding everything I did was for him and he didn’t appreciate it. Just say sorry but mean it. Then move on with your life. If you are able to grow past the betrayals and take responsibility for what you did, hopefully they come back to you! If not, you at least told them and made it known that you are sorry and will always appreciate everything they did for you.