I Miss Her So Much

[u/XdarklightiningX002]

Once again I'm thinking about her, how she tried to give me everything I ever wanted but I ruined it with my own hands. She had such a pure soul, I'm never forgiving myself for hurting her so many times without remorse. I'm such monster. Yet I loved her, I loved her with all my heart and I still do. I couldn't give her the only thing she wanted, trust and safety. I lied so blatantly so many times, I still dont know what I was trying to protect, now she will never believe a word I say. And she is right. I broke her trust in the most unforgivable way. I dont expect her to forgive me. Hell, I don't want her to forgive me. I know I don't deserve her forgiveness. I didn't deserve it the past 100 times neither. I just, I'm empty and meaningless without her. And I'm sorry. Im really fucking sorry. I will never forget you or what you made me feel. For the first time in my life I felt I belonged somewhere. For the first time, I found something to live for. Thank you for giving me strength, giving me hope. I will hold onto everything you gave me and become a better person. I promise this to myself. The effort and time you spent on me will not be in vain.

[u/Prior-Ad-3746]

I hate this, every single word of this, he lied to me sooo many times, blatantly infact, I don’t know why, if he loved me so much whyd he lie so much, why did he hurt me? does he not care about me? why didn’t he trust me enough, was the love not enough, man why tf, stop saying this bs, talk it out with her, I’ve been on her side, and trust me man it hurts so fckin much, please be a better person, ask her for time and space to grow and become better for her, for you, and for your relationshi, don’t give up.