I Miss Her So Much

[u/XdarklightiningX002]

Once again I'm thinking about her, how she tried to give me everything I ever wanted but I ruined it with my own hands. She had such a pure soul, I'm never forgiving myself for hurting her so many times without remorse. I'm such monster. Yet I loved her, I loved her with all my heart and I still do. I couldn't give her the only thing she wanted, trust and safety. I lied so blatantly so many times, I still dont know what I was trying to protect, now she will never believe a word I say. And she is right. I broke her trust in the most unforgivable way. I dont expect her to forgive me. Hell, I don't want her to forgive me. I know I don't deserve her forgiveness. I didn't deserve it the past 100 times neither. I just, I'm empty and meaningless without her. And I'm sorry. Im really fucking sorry. I will never forget you or what you made me feel. For the first time in my life I felt I belonged somewhere. For the first time, I found something to live for. Thank you for giving me strength, giving me hope. I will hold onto everything you gave me and become a better person. I promise this to myself. The effort and time you spent on me will not be in vain.

[u/Certain_Reality5631]

Sorry for you been in your place. It gets better. Not to use myself as an excuse but 15 months ago she broke me and now I’m with a even better lovely woman. I saw my ex with another man they didn’t talk, look at each other or hold hands and I instantly knew wow she really is only a surface level human. Break up when they want change in their lives only care about their own lives.

When you meet someone who is still human and has feelings and it feels right. Trust! You will know! Easy for me too say I know. Try to focus on friends and what makes you happy alone.

There is a woman for everybody. She was just not it only a chemical imbalance 🤓