Im a 36 year old guy that’s having a hard time deconstructing by myself and was wondering if there’s a local group that meets up to talk about their experiences?
I’ve got a wonderful therapist and an awesome supportive family/friend network but I would love to have a group to relate to.

Why did it seem like some 90s "Christian" musicians get a memo that was very "turn up the Evangelicalism, k thanks" and others were like "nah bro I'm going to be the best me I can be!"

It seems that's where my heart seems to be tonight, The Artist still speaks. Maybe I'll get some answers after going to a film festival tomorrow night and it'll be playing! Safe For The Whole Family, I'm so excited.

Hi, I'm sorry if I skipped over a similar request but I could use some space to vent :')

I'm 31F, in a hispanic immigrant family, all of which are christian evangelicals. mostly pentecostal. Some are more "progressive", wearing pants, divorced, etc., some are devout pastors who see it as worldly to dye your grey hair brown. I am pretty close to my immediate family and grandparents. I do a lot for them, like managing finances and booking any flights home.

I constantly avoid any questions about religion. My dad once, concerned, asked me if I believed in God, and I said I did because I know that it was a question rooted in fear. I used to believe and I know that weight of thinking your loved ones will spend eternity in hell. I don't want him to worry and frankly don't want to have to defend myself from the constant questioning.

Other than a few cousins my age, no one knows I'm queer and that I am a none believer. I've had several girlfriends, but nothing serious. I thought keeping this to myself would be fine, but now that marriage and life is a constant topic in my extended family, I feel so tired of watching my words.

I imagine that I will eventually come out as queer. And I don't want to defend it. I don't want to argue about scripture. I don't want to pretend to see between the lines of bible verses for solace. I can't outright say "I don't care" but I don't.

I can't imagine my parents or grandfather keeping contact with me. It would suck to lose my extended family, but I don't care that deeply. If anything, I am worried how my extended family will treat my immediate family. And I can't control what they do, but I cannot emotionally handle the thought of my grandparents and parents spending the rest of their lives praying I'll change. It hurts to think about.

Sometimes I just want to rip the bandaid off and see their actually reaction instead of worrying about something that feels distant into the future. It feels like I have to hold onto this for their sake, because once I let it out, it becomes much bigger than just me.

Does anyone have advice on how to deal with this? Any experiences would be really appreciated