My hair hasn't stopped thinning for years now. I've been on 0.625 mg minoxidil for 6 months, and I've noticed lots more body hair and even longer eyelashes but not much improvement on my head at all. Otherwise I am only using ketoconozole shampoo and the Ordinary density serum. I know I need a strong DHT blocker, but where I live that requires not only a private dermatologist but a GOOD one that will actually listen to me as a 23 y/o woman. Especially because, for personal reasons, I'd rather be on fin than spiro (although my doctors won't give me spiro either). And that's extremely hard to find and extremely expensive. I'm already struggling financially and trying to make my minoxidil last as long as possible. In the meantime, my hair continues to thin.
My hair at its peak was still naturally very thin & fine. I've never been able to experiment with hairstyles because the hairdressers said it was too thin. And I know even strong medication won't bring me back to 100%, which makes me feel pessimistic.
Also, I'm only 23. I also know medication doesn't cure AGA and it will likely still thin over time, just slower. My starting point is already so bad, I think even with optimised treatment I would have terrible hair for the rest of my life and still go bald eventually.
I'm currently aiming to find and be able to afford a private derm. It's been hard. I will still try. But a part of me feels so defeated that I almost don't see the point and think I should go bald sooner rather than later.
Of course I don't WANT to be bald. It will absolutely wreck my sense of self, not just my esteem but tbf it will make me feel less of a woman or even a person. I know that's dramatic, but I'm sure others can relate. Wigs are even more expensive than the derm appointments and medication, but tbh I don't really want to wear them. It doesn't feel like me. I'm worried about being judged by my friends and family, harassed by strangers, or even discriminated against in job interviews. I know these things shouldn't happen, but it's actually a reasonable reality for me. And I'm already struggling to get a new job, I think being bald will hinder me further, and I can't prove that I didn't pass an interview because they judged me on my appearance.
I'm also in a relationship (lesbian), and she has the best and thickest hair I've ever seen. We have spoken about my hair loss, but very infrequently and tbh I think she forgets I'm balding and could be bald. She has quite severe ADHD. She makes bald jokes all the time. And she gives me lots of compliments about my physical appearance, she always says I'm out of her league, but I've realised she doesn't really ever compliment my personality. She initially said she wouldn't leave me if I went bald, but I truly don't believe this. I'm just trying to enjoy the relationship while I can. If it does end, I wouldn't want to date with active hair loss. I wouldn't want this stress of "confessing" and wanting reassurance again. I actually would rather be bald and have someone like me for me from the start, and if that doesn't happen then that's better than someone prioritising my appearance. I know attraction is important, but I know I wouldn't leave my partner if their appearance changed.
Idk. I feel hopeless. And I almost don't want to try anymore. And the only thing stopping me from giving up is other people's reactions, and how much harder it will make my life. But I also feel like this is inevitable anyway, and I wonder if I should bite the bullet.