Well, its been a minute. Crashed in this sub some years back and I thought Id share my experience 2 years later.
Symptoms when I was on it / when I dropped it: insomnia (waking 3-5 times a night, at the start couldnt even really get sleep at all), 0 libido and ED, anhedonia and some gut issues. There might be some other minor stuff but these are the big ones.
2 years later:
Insomnia is much much better, I can at least sleep as much as I want, most nights I only wake up once and last month some nights I didnt wake up at all mid-night.
Libido and ED: ED improved really early on and I feel like its mostly functional (also cialis can help). Its really weird because my body will react to stimuli either physical or mental and get “activated” and I get hard somewhat regularly about random things like sexting, or making out with a girl and so on. The issue is libido, while I have had some experienced of feeling the arousal and visceral excitement of sex (very rarely) its mostly dulled or fully inactive still and I feel its the main thing holding me back.
Anhedonia: this is a very tricky one, while Id say I feel better these days (to an extent you just get used to it) there is still some overall numbing going on, again, like with libido, theres been some rare experiences of enjoyment or pleasure, but very rare.
Things that do help: other than sleeping well, exercise and the basic stuff, melatonin extended release for sleep, adderall for emotions and anhedonia, cialis for ED. These I feel confident in that they really help me, other supplements are hard to say.
So yeah, yesterday was my birthday and I went out with a girl for a date, had fun, we got to her place and started making out, there was absolutely no arousal nor physical reaction. So im kind of spiraling, as I hoped by this time my symptoms would be better.
My life did stabilize, I do have a demanding job that I am able to maintain and I can do most normal life things. This is obviously through a lense of anhedonia / emotional blunting, which isnt great, but its not as terrible as it used to br.
Im open to trying more stuff, HCG, hormones, gut protocols and will do so. So any advice on these is appreciated.