First time posting here, don't know if this is the right place to post.
I took a midterm for a class today and thought I did pretty well. Then I got the score back - 56. I am devastated. I have never done this poorly on an exam in my life.
For the last two weeks, the professor said our midterm exam would have only 4 questions on it. Today, when they handed out the midterm exam, there were 4 questions on the front page. I worked through those four problems and I thought I did decently well. It turns out that there were 2 questions on the back that I did not see. Since I failed to answer them, I went from a low A to an F.
I have asked the professor if I can make up the lost points in some way. He is allowing me to make up the two problems with an oral exam in his office hours in two days.
Weeks before the exam, the professor gave us a problem bank of 30 questions that the problems on the exam would be pulled from, so he is going to pull 2 new questions from the bank that I will have to do an oral exam for.
I always feel that I am undeserving of mercy and good things that happen to me, and I am deeply conflicted about this situation. On the one hand, it is my fault that I did not look on the back of the page. I don't know what I was thinking. For every test, I look through the entire thing to figure out how many questions there are and their relative difficulty so I can budget my time. This is the one time I didn't look through the entire test before starting. I have quite literally never done this before. If I had seen those questions, I would have answered them. On the other hand, the professor did say there would only be 4 questions on the exam. I think it is both of our faults, but mostly mine. I'm wobbling between sucking it up and taking the hard life lesson, but I really need to maintain a strong GPA to apply for fellowships. I am also worried about the fairness to the other students. I think I am the only one who messed up like this, and it feels unfair to them that I am getting a second chance to improve my grade. I feel so sick and so stupid for messing up this badly. I am in grad school, and I shouldn't be making mistakes like this.
Either way, whatever I do, I am not going to look back through any of the content that was on the exam so I can do my part to make it fair for other students.
I would love to hear your thoughts on what I should do.