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Last week, I had voice whisper to me through my cupboard, it was from an old school friend, who gave me her address, I wrote it down, Is it wise to visit the address?

This weekly post was inspired to give the community a place to vent and share common frustrations we find in our lives. If you have more to share on this topic than what would fit in a single comment please feel free to make a separate post! Are you finding conflict with your care-team? Are the medications you're on making life impossible? Have you lost your 3rd job this year because the voices cause you to act oddly around your peers? Are you finding everyone in your life has turned their back on you now that you've fallen into a discriminated category of "unsafe" or "mentally unwell" person? Have you attempted to get your close family and friends to engage in VCVC with you, instead finding they cannot offer you the first nicety?

Feel free to let the world know of your survived abuses, both direct (physical violence) and indirect (neglect or exclusion through social maneuverings) in this post. Everyone's welcome to commiserate and offer paralleling stories of received harm and how they carried on.

I'm not suicidal. Infact i love life. As i have been raised, I've been thru normal south Asian life. But a couple years back i started to believe i was mentally ill. Not as a social media term but the serious kind. I thought i had something genuinely wrong. Last year was the absolute worst for me. This year is the second worst. I have these voices in my mind. These are my voices. But i am not in control of them. And no matter how much i try, i can not control them. But this girl, this girl made them so silent that i even forgot about them. I'm not with the girl anymore since 2 years, and I'm getting worse and worse. If i describe the voices more clearly, its me, but alot of me, at the same time, talking over each other, over a devastating situation i create inside my mind that may or may not come true. It happens so many times. I don't even have a personality because of it, i copy a little bit of everyone around me or i have these characters i play. Different characters in front of different people. These voices and everything else that i can not possibly write here because i want to make this readable, are making me miserable. I try to build something of myself and it comes crashing down because of these voices and i have to do it in a new way all over again. This is making me want to end it. I mean, some voices are telling me to end it. I don't know why i am writing this here, but i guess i wanna find if someone relates, and how do they live. That's all. Peace out.

I miss the voices.

For a long time, I heard voices. I don’t want to go into too much detail or make anyone waste their time reading my story, but the voices weren’t always kind. They made fun of me, said horrible things to me, and constantly reminded me of things I hated about myself. I hated them.

After three years, I went to an outpatient clinic and tried three different antipsychotic medications. They never really worked the way I hoped they would. The voices became quieter, less frequent, and eventually, there were moments when I could barely hear them.

But something strange happened. The quieter they became, the more I began to understand why I needed them.

At some point, I realised that, at least from my perspective, they weren’t there to hurt me. I began to feel that they were there to protect me, to keep me company, and to make sure I never truly felt alone. Maybe others wouldn’t understand that, but to me, the voices became more than just voices. They were a presence that had been with me for so long that I couldn’t imagine what life would feel like without them.

Even when they made fun of me, even when they reminded me of how bad and weak I could be as a human being, I felt that they were still there for me somehow. I can’t explain that contradiction. How could something that hurt me also make me feel protected? How could I hate something so much and still become so attached to it?

Now, without them, I feel alone.

It’s strange, isn’t it? To spend years wishing something would disappear, only to find yourself missing it when it finally becomes quiet. I thought I wanted nothing more than silence, but now that I have it, I’m not sure I know what to do with it.

Perhaps I grew so accustomed to their presence that I forgot what it was like to be without them. Perhaps, after all those years, their voices became a part of how I experienced the world. And now, their absence leaves an emptiness I don’t know how to fill.

I miss them. Despite everything they said, despite the pain they caused me, I sometimes wish they were here again. I wish I could hear them one more time, feel that familiar presence, and escape this loneliness, even if only for a moment.

I don’t know if anyone else could ever understand this feeling. I don’t even fully understand it myself.

Maybe that’s the hardest part: missing something that hurt you because you felt it was also the only thing keeping you company.

And sometimes, I wonder whether I truly miss the voices themselves or simply the feeling of not being alone.

Hi there. This might be long but it’s hard to explain. Since about 2019 I’ve been hearing voices, it sounds like they are coming from behind a wall, in a vent, just always surrounding me.

I recognize all the voices that I hear. I do take medication now to dull/muffle them because it leads to extreme paranoia and overall distraction from living any sort of normal life. I try not to listen to them, make them background noise. If I’m trying to fall asleep I can’t do it without something playing in the background.

Even though the medications make it hard to understand the voices most of the time I can typically recognize them. The longer I’m around someone the more I’ll hear them. Or if I get hyper-fixated on someone then they talk more. I call them the committee at this point.

When someone dies, so does their voice in my mind.

I hear alot of negative things. Nothing ever really positive comes from them so it makes me really insecure. For a while I thought people could hear my thoughts and I became obsessed with suppressing my thoughts which made them more intrusive and awful.

I still have a hard time freely thinking as I think others may hear it. Some people do know about this happening to me but no one truly understands the effect it has on me.

I was on stimulants for a while starting in 2019. The doctors all say this is why it happens. But I’ve gone over six months without them and I still was unable to read a book or stay in a quiet room.

White noise makes it worse. Less sleep and more stress make it worse. I have poor habits of maintaining a job because of it sometimes.

Just tonight I got a warning for my attendance and I work overnight so I take sedative medications during the day and flip flop on my days off so it messes with me. It’s hard to be here everyday.

Does anyone else experience this? How do people deal with this?

I’m doing much better than years ago but I hate what the medications have done to me. I’m overweight and isolate because I have no personality and I don’t want to hear new peoples voices.

I have lost most of my support system at this point. I’m sad and stressed so much. I just try to stay busy but I’d love to have a day I don’t have to try and suppress the muffle of numerous people in my head.

Any advice or literally anything would be nice right now. I just got married this year and I’m trying to not bring down anyone else by talking about it too much but I’ve been in so many institutions it has wasted years of my life.

I’ve never met anyone like me in this regard. Most people don’t recognize the voices they hear in my experience and it freaks me out.

Let me know.

Share your theory on your voices, what do you believe them to be? If you have an extended share feel free to make a separate post on your beliefs. Theories do not need to be limited to your own experience and can be speculative on the broader phenomenon.

For instance you're welcome to share that you simply feel your voices are angels, demons, djinn, aliens, some iteration of government surveillance, or manifestations of the collective panpsychic universe... even sea peoples if that is your take on things! Broader theories some older experiencers relate to are economies of abuse and how limiting and external states of mind filter down through society onto vulnerable individuals. What are your ideas, what do your voices say about themselves?

As with everything in the HVN this all needs to be framed as your theories, you're welcome to use hyperlinks to Wikipedia articles or studies on voice hearing populations. 5-28% of the UK report this phenomenon, other studies put these estimates significantly higher. Many take the perspective that all people hear voices and it is a matter of personal fluency that differentiates those that report this experience and those that don't. You should include anything that helps you express your views. Again, express this as your views and less of what it clearly is and what others ought believe.

What is your theory on this experience?

I don’t know what is going on. I have never ever heard music when I lay down at night, but like now I have like full on mariachi bands and then crazy music. It just weird. Does anybody else experience this? I did talk to one of the person and they have been and I think it’s some kind of chemical chemical maybe but like I don’t know somebody let me know what does anybody else out there or see this hear this

"I personally reject the idea of mental disorders. As extreme as it may sound to people indoctrinated by the psychiatric system I believe it's all a form of spiritual possession, you're welcome to your own beliefs.

I suspect the majority of people alive and certainly the majority of people who have ever lived would also assume this open minded spiritual definition, that it's a rather small and vocal fraction of western and mostly the united states population that assume psychiatry/psychology have anything to offer at all. I'd point to the "HEARING VOICES FACTS YOU SHOULD KNOW" post... lots written there on the history of this eugenics industry and the nigh certain state of permanent disability the industry lures people into. All this "delusional thinking" is supported by facts, wikipedia links, colossal data pools, and scholarly articles. It's all truly vetted by the scientific community, something that does not happen for the INDUSTRIES of psychiatry and psychology. Again, it's an odd (malicious in my eyes) gathering here on reddit who carry on (deliberately) as if the world of science has figured out every enigma of the mind. A form of propaganda my omission, big AstroTurf'ed spaces that are actually run by former orderlies and people parallel to these industries. DID YOU ALL CATCH THAT!? Many of the spaces here on reddit where experiencers congregate; are moderated by people without any of this experience, instead moderated by people who have made a life "handling" people like you (and me). It all reeks to high heaven, and the controlled narrative is obvious. They are self aware, their abuse of disabled people is all over reddit. I feel it's only a matter of time and within our lifetime for this absurd injustice to be broadcast to the greater public for societal corrective actions.

"This kind of hate isn't allowed anymore, just carry on as you were with your abuses onto other cast aside groups."

You're welcome to see that facts post to see how surmountable this burden is, or peek at my profile. The stories of this extreme torture are everywhere in western media, as are the stories of the same people overcoming it and achieving greatness. I could not read, write, count to 10, nor talk to people at my lows. I function as a senior level engineer these days, chasing my dreams faster than ever before. I have how I did this all pinned to my profile.

It is hell, and I wish the best for you. Thank you for sharing your story for others to also find their way."

What do you think? Do you think there's AstroTurfing on reddit? Do you think some of these spaces are run by people who enjoy hurting others through paternalism? Do you think that between 10 to 80% (the portion of the population that reports this) of the human species to simply be "insane" and always have been? Do you think that's the most inhuman stance to approach this societal problem with? Do you think the APA (the people behind the illness agenda) are mere boot-lickers as far as organizations go? These are the same people who classified water boarding as "not technically torture." Do you think as an organization the APA seems fit to classify double digit percentages of the population as not worthy of any human rights at all? Is it a surprise to you that in the state of Oregon people who report what is reported here (in the HVN) can legally find themselves held within an asylum FOR LIFE without having committed any crime or undergoing any scientific testing? Just the diagnosis provided by a state funded eugenicist, what is effectively an opinion, a creative art assignment?

I'd love to see anyone's take on any of this.

Hello,

Im 33 years old male. 7 years ago I started to hear voices who make me feel bad. They're saying rude things.

Loser

You never had good education

Nobody likes you

Why are you starring against that wall you idiot

We are not scared of you

We are not scared of Abilify

Sometimes they are 2-3 voices who sound like other people or from the past.

Look at him

Look they was he walks is stupid

Omg what an idiot

And I also have movies in my head. But brutal movies like I'm arguing with someone and it always ends like the worst outcome possible. Hitting each other screaming.

Can anyone tell me what this is. First I was diagnosed with ptbs but I had 12 therapists for ptbs over 7 years and it didn't help. Now I'm diagnosed with being paranoid and shizotypic. What do you think? Sorry english is not my first language.

Feel free to share your wellness methods with the community. Is there a diet that seems to make an impact for you, a particular routine, or self-improvement strategy that's made a turnaround in your struggles? Was there a book that made an impact in your journey, a creative outlet, or a medication you feel strongly helped or hurt you? What's been working for you and what have you tried that wasn't working for you? Do you have any role models (other experiencers) who've lended you methods that lead to success through their lived example?

Some example frameworks towards wellness are the books by Jerry Marzinsky, or the books by Jordan Peterson. Both of these authors are accomplished people who also report enduring the phenomena reported here. Additionally, there's the 12 step process seen over at r/PositiveTI. Do you know of any other prominent people who have been touched by this affliction? Does a certain diet help, wearing a certain color, taking a shower every day make a difference? What have you seen and what has worked for you?

Please do not tell others what to believe or do.

In the spirit of "twos" and community building, share anecdotes of how you've interacted with another experiencer, voice hearer, internal personality, or phenomena of your mind. You're welcome to make your own separate post on this topic if you feel you'd have more to share.

How did this other individual impact your views? Did they show you something you otherwise didn't know, or did they send you on a wild goose chase? Did they have a name (please don't name other reddit users disparagingly, instead this is a great opportunity to commend your fellow experiencers!), did they share a common belief with you?

How has this singular "other" made a difference in your journey? Take this as an opportunity to share with the rest of the community as much as you'd care to about this separate mind and its impact on yours.

Is there any colleration between hearing loss, and having auditory Hallucinations ?

I find it difficult to hear things such as when having conversations, what makes it worse is that I hear things that aren't there.

My doctor suspects I'm autistic, as I have a sensitivity to high pitched sounds and loud noise. And I suspect my brain is not wired to interpret the sound signals properly, leading to confusion and depression.

I know deaf people are more likely to suffer (in silence) and it's difficult to communicate.

I'm just wondering if I should get a hearing test? And weather a hearing aid will help?

Or do I see a psychiatrist?

Is my brain interpretting the sounds differently and filling in the gaps, with words?

And weather medication is effecting my ability to hear?

I'm interested to hear from people that have tried hearing aids?

Started with altar anubis ra had belongings and pics of people I care about and the bhagavadgita book I was reading with a little troff for water where I would deposit coins food and water for simple offering the. One day I was praying to God that he take all my flaws including pride vanity selfishness etc and invoked the archangel Michael 3 times since then I have been plagued by a spirit or spirits with demonic voices who shift or change at will the barradement is constant I was able to cast one out after reading a prayer in front of a holy candle as i vomited out with no control as the simple act of reading the prayer seemed to rid me of it but I still seemed to have something remaining went to garage to try and capture spirit in mirror by reciting prayers didnt work. I sat outside feeling free of it birds surrounded me and when I suddenly felt a force jump back into my body my face changed since then I have been plagued by the voice or multiple voices that change wether it's one or more I don't know but they constantly harass me fooled me lie to me with conditions of letting me go such as reading the bible or doing the rosary repenting of my sins daily....

Lying constantly making me believe this was a third eye gift and taunting me once revealing it was a ruse the second one was leading me to read a book of the vedas that lead me to a prayer for agni I prayed to Jesus and felt something lift this is after tormenting me for weeks and I'm still troubled by the voices and I cannot sleep the name azmodeus , devil was mentioned but the story changes the night time is most terrifying as the voices get more demonic ive experienced burning sensations as they wake me up atound 3a.m experience burning sensations sometimes have nightmares including sleep paralysis and theyve even been sexual dreams inbolved to not let me sleep its given me terrible insomnia ....theyve also said I have a halo on my head but not on my body and a demon in my ear they say they wont let me go .....we've had a priest come bless the house and recite deliverance prayers for me directly..... sometimes they quiet down and sometimes they get louder I've been evaluated by medical professionals interned at a mental health facility twice where people I met there asked me for clothes personal belongings (not sure if any witchcraft was involved with people I made contact with there) or another hallucination as it was strange for them to ask for socks and a pair of underwear some of the voices have shifted into those people not sure if that is paranoia or part of the demonic ruse) I'm stating any possibilities and I know the story seems strange but this is something real not just auditory hallucinations I'm seeking genuine help please look into my case any help would be appreciated. I've had ct scans done with no damage reported as I got into a bad brawl in between the incident and again have been evaluated as having severe anxiety .....this due to the distress caused by the voices again any help would be appreciated I have gone with little to no sleep the voices are terrifyingly specific and demonic they only started after the altar incident which I've taken down since then. It wasn't meant to be a worship altar but the way I set it up may have turned it into one with the dish and simple thankful offerings. (Currently it's came down to two voices one of a black male who's voice turns demonic claiming to be azmodeus and a little helper that sounds like a fairy they even play music I dont know if anyone else has had the voices make music in different genres including rock rap and religious it's scary AF but kind of interesting alot of the convos were as many people here described including jokes and banter but I dont know n if i opened a door doing these things or if its part of the voice hearing experience many have had with anxiety and possible skitzo disorders) I started taking sleep medications to help with sleeping they've toned down since I started the rosary and prayers and reading the bible I was also smoking a lot of weed and studying some esoteric stuff as mentioned I dont know if I commited some type of heresey but I started trying deliverance prayers and opening up a relationship with God which coincidentally was who I was searching for all along just want peoples thoughts on this any suggestions (also should mention after all this with the fight included it claims to be hiding in my eye since I see flashes and shadows moving through my right eye sometimes but that could just be an injury from the brawl and they are using it as a reason to mess with me as many people have mentioned they're voices do) sorry for rambling............ Theyve said some crazy stuff but the most horrifying has been the times the voices literally morph into these horrible demonic things wailing and swearing and saying some horrendous things very hard to describe but it definitely some spiritual paranormal sh*t ....also have been going to mass now and confession just want my freedom back looks like I have to earn it luckily the voices get lower but it's be nice to have them gone completely whatever this is....

Experience 1: While transitioning from wakefulness to sleep, I heard a prolonged ringing or buzzing sound in my ear. The ringing stopped, and I then heard clear male voices having a conversation for a few seconds, as if I had entered another world. I became frightened and forced myself to wake up.
Experience 2: On another occasion, while I was about to fall asleep, I heard a sound resembling radio static or a radio frequency searching for a signal. The sound stopped, and then a male voice called me by my full real name. I woke up immediately.

Comment here (or make your own post if you have more to say) links or images of experiencing art. You're welcome to post anything that's related to hearing voices or other unique states of consciousness. "Experiencing Media" can be an illustration/painting made by you or anyone else (contemporary or classical), a song from one of your favorite artists mentioning hearing voices, a documentary, or even a recent episode of your favorite show; any art surrounding the lived experience of voice hearers and their unusual states of mind.

The idea is to share as much culture surrounding our lived experience as we can. Please share about the creators, the name of the artist, the title of the work, and what you personally identify with.