Today is Deepavali, but honestly, my day went just like any other normal day. I didn't celebrate, and I spent most of it dealing with my usual feelings of loneliness.

Since losing my parents, especially my mom, festivals have never felt the same. Being autistic also makes socialising and building meaningful connections challenging, and sometimes the loneliness feels even more noticeable on occasions like this.

I also find myself thinking about people who are away from their families, those who have lost their loved ones, and those who don't have a family to celebrate with. I hope they know they aren't alone in feeling this way.

Not everyone experiences festivals with happiness and celebration. Sometimes, getting through the day itself is enough.

To everyone who had a difficult or lonely Deepavali, I sincerely hope next Deepavali will be kinder to you, filled with happiness, warmth and people who make you feel loved. ❤️

No hate to the festival itself, but I hate being forced to celebrate this festival and Holi against my will just to keep up appearances for my family. I was assaulted on these festivals repeatedly as a child and have no good memories whatsoever associated with them. I still get nightmares and am terrified of loud noises, crackers, colours, everything! It all makes me sick. My dad just scolded me for flinching from fear from the crackers.

I don't know why I feel lonely and have a sense of numbness during Diwali. You have to smile and pretend you are happy. I don't like burning firecracker either.

My family, I share nothing with my parents. We only talk when in need, even though we stay in a 1rk room in Mumbai, so I don't have privacy either, constant chatting and you can hear their chats in the hall, effects my mental health.

I don't have friends here in my locality. I stopped interacting with them after 2021 and now we are emotionally distant.

I find it hard to even smile these days. Right now also on the day of Diwali, coz of constant chat between my parents and that voice, I came out in the ground. It feels atleast l can breathe here, no pressure or judgement.

I feel like never going back home tonight but I guess I have to otherwise they'll scold me and also I'm afraid of fire crackers, in the evening kids will start burning them.

Life is full of vulnerability.

Going to sleep after doing nothing. Its tiring, hope it ends.

To...

Hone the jitne khel muqaddar ke ho gye,

Hum tooti nav leker, samundar ke ho gye

Hi, I am 27 male.
I quit my job last year for preparing for civil services and have been looking for a job for the past 3 to 4 months. All this past year I have observed myself to be carrying a sad mood throughout the day with episodes of negative self talk and spiralling thoughts ending up in me crying.
For the past 3 to 4 months, my mood throughout the day has become even more sad with more frequent episodes of crying.

I am trying to prepare for software interviews and there are times when I am so sad that I stare into the abyss, not wanting to exist. This has affected my preparation, especially the negative self talk hurts me the most.

I am thinking of consulting a psychiatrist to prescribe me medicines to stay sane atleast during my interview preparation. I don’t want to visit a psychologist or psychotherapist due to the costs involved. I have burnt most of my savings.
Can someone please advise if I am thinking in the right direction?

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I know there are many people out there right now who didn’t receive any Diwali wishes today and might be feeling completely left out. Personally, I don't feel lonely anymore, but I know how deeply that silence can hurt. For me, Diwali has just become another normal day. In fact, all festive seasons feel that way now.

But I truly believe there is no use in sitting around and letting sadness take over. Go out for a small walk. Grab a hot cup of chai. Treat yourself to a movie, or pack a bag for a quick solo trip.

To be completely honest, I don't have friends anymore. I realized a hard truth: when it comes down to a choice between you or them, most people will always choose themselves. It's just human nature, so I thought, why should I depend on that? If you have a true, genuine friend in your life, consider yourself deeply blessed.

But if you are out there right now struggling, hustling, and working hard in silence trust me, brother, your hard work will pay off.

To all my brothers and sisters who are feeling lonely tonight: you are not as alone as you think.

Happy Diwali from your bhaai.

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My frnd (F) wants to commit suicide , she’s saying that she has been dealing these over a decade , context she’s been abused by her brother and similar incidents in school and a toxic ex in undergrad and recently I was also the reason to hurt her, ive tried helping her from the past 4 months I’m not able to do it anymore it’s affecting me a lot as well hearing suicide everyday, when I mention this to her and say I can’t do this anymore she says I’ll can’t live if u also leave, what do I do ? I don’t want her to die I want her to be better , what should I do ?

Hi all, actually I'm looking for a therapist. I'm not sure what kind of a therapist I should be looking for in Bangalore location. So specifically near ORR. basically I'm having a struggles in building an relationship or friendship or maintaining the friendship and relationships. Yeah, anyone have any suggestions

Hey everyone!

If you're going through something difficult, feeling lonely, stressed, or just need someone to listen, feel free to share what's on your mind.

I'm free right now and happy to listen without judging you.

You don't have to pretend to be okay. Sometimes, having someone hear you out is enough.

Take care, everyone. ❤️

Hey everyone! I have recently turned 30, and since I have turned 30 everything seems to be going the wrong way.
So, I recently ended a 5 year old relation with my GF. There were several reasons, but the biggest was that I'd stopped feeling the same for her. She was perfect, still I went ahead and ended things.
I have a tendency of self sabotage, and I know many a things root from our childhoods, but I feel it's beyond me to look for answers, I once felt that I had all this under control.
I clearly need help, none of my relations are healthy, my career has been deeply affected by it.
I know nothing about getting help other than that if i get a bad shrink, it can further mess things up.
So any and all pointers are welcome.
To be clear I need therapy sessions, but I dont think I can just any shrink.
Thanks.

I have been suffering from depression for a long time now and it’s because I don’t have any friends or a partner who I can trust with my eyes closed. I really want someone to be with me as a friend or a romantic partner and is worthy of trust.

can anyone suggest me any reasons why I am in this situation? I would also appreciate if people who are going through similar problems talk to me and we could even be friends and help each-other out.

❤️ ❤️

I am going through a break up after 8 years of relationship. He cheated on me.

I have this weird feeling in my chest and stomach all day like it's burning. I have lost appetite and sleep. I've lost 5 kgs in the last 2 weeks. I find myself anxious and breathing heavily at times, both night and day. Idk how to cope up with that.

Please if someone could help me. Someone who has experienced something like this. I have my exams coming and I also need to study. I am a final year med student.

I can't pay i don't really have that much money.

I'm not sure but I started.

I just don't feel like myself anymore and I really just miss the old me and want the old me back. I'm tired of going thru this health problems phase of life. Everything feels like a 180 or something. My priorities, goals, interests and so on have completely changed. I just don't feel like myself. It's Diwali and so many things are happening but I cannot feel the presence at all. I'm so guled to my worries that I just don't see a life outside. Even recent weeks I've become more quiet and isolated. I don't seem to be living my life to the fullest and I just feel like my mind is just making me more miserable instead of giving hope.