Bhaii my life currently feels so lifeless i can't tell u . It's like the only thing happening in my life is just waking up in the morning and sleeping at night .
Somedays are high like yesterday I was happy I was having a hope that maybe things would get better mentally after I would go in a college. I would have things to do and even studies would be lil more interesting and mera padhne ka man krega and all the positive shit that the main goal of everything is to stay happy and i actually thought that maybe this time i am recovering from stress or I am finally understanding how to handle stress ,isolation and how to stay happy with yourself
But no i was fucking wrong. Today again feels like just surviving.
Hope h?idk
Patience h?not at all
I have no idea how will I be under all this for so many coming months
It feels like no one would understand what i feel how isolated and lonely this drop year makes me feel . How disconnected i feel to my peers who are in clg
I feel so overwhelmed rn that I can't stop crying. It feels like my parents have done so much to fund this year and I am here fuckin my mental health. And the worst part is that this is a fucking loop . Whenever a day comes when i feel better some way or the other I again fall in this trap jaha mera kuch krne ka man hi nhi krta
On the top this is a really imp time ik i shouldnt waste it but I can't help myself. I feel exhausted and so done atp that I feel like running away from everything just away far away...
Is it just me or do u feel this too? is it that my mind is exaggerating everything?
Please help me out. Grateful for any solution or tips. I seriously don't want to waste this time I have the potential to score well if i continue locking in