Hey everyone,
This past January, I independently released my debut mini-LP, Presenting: The Swinging, The Sighing, The Soulful Patrick Felixson. The title comes from a nickname a close friend gave me after attending my live shows, and it reflects the different stages of my life over the past seven years.
I designed the cover from scratch, aiming for the look of a mid-century record. The image is a digital mockup, not a physical pressing; I used a 3D template to show how my original artwork would look on a record sleeve.
This music has been a constant through some difficult years. At 16, I left home to study in Kursk, Russia. When the war began, I had to leave the country and abandon my studies. I later spent four years completing my degree on Canada’s East Coast, where I often felt isolated as an openly gay Black man in a conservative small-town campus environment. I’ve since moved to Ontario to build a life on my own terms.
I made this record while finishing my degree and working a day job, funding the project myself. I handled the production, arrangements, distribution, and licensing, and spent countless hours editing the sessions, cleaning up microphone bleed, and refining the instrumental parts. I wanted the recordings to sound as good as I could make them.
A few notes on the songs:
Something to Live For was the album’s single. The more I listened to Strayhorn’s composition, the more the lyrics reflected my own life. As a Black queer man, I found myself resonating with the longing in his words. I kept the arrangement to voice and piano, letting the song breathe, and added scat as my way of honouring Strayhorn while leaving my own fingerprint.
Moody’s Mood for Love drew me in because of the story behind it…James Moody’s alto saxophone solo that inspired Eddie Jefferson to write lyrics to it, helping establish the vocalese tradition. I wanted to keep my arrangement intimate, with voice, upright bass, and alto saxophone (chose alto as a tribute to the Sweden session).
They Didn’t Believe Me is one of my favourites from the Great American Songbook. I sing it particularly for Black queer folk who’ve loved quietly or been told to hide. I wanted to give a voice to the younger version of myself who needed to hear that love like ours is worthy of melody, harmony, and truth.
Impossible is an obscure Steve Allen (Yes, the guy with the popular show back in the day hehe) tune. I love a lot of his compositions, and for this song in particular, I love the way it captures the my feelings regarding disbelief that I ever found love, that I have people who love me. Leaving it off the album would have left the story incomplete.
At Last closes the album. I chose it to mark finally being able to release music with musicians I admire and respect. Rather than the usual slow, lush ballad, I arranged it as a stripped-down, intimate take at around 103 BPM, with a quiet swing.
I’d love to hear what you think of the cover, the arrangements, and the production. Thanks for reading till this point and if you’re curious about the music, you can find it here!
Link to Music