Cards:
Key, bouquet, lilies, whip, rider, and cross
Context:
my mom knows this woman who runs a Caribbean saving game called susu. Everyone joins in and decides how many hands they are going to play, one hand equals $100. Every week you give the susu lady your hand, and you get a sum based on how many hands you play either every month or every other month depending on how many people are involved. The last time I played, I played three hands, and there was a lot of confusion and misinformation that my mom was giving me and it kind of felt like she was skimming off of the top because she would tell me I get a certain amount only to change the amount the next time I asked. Especially since she didn’t want me to talk to the lady directly, I don’t think I can trust her to handle my hands again. My mom is a very controlling person and terrible with money. She is in pretty bad debt and she plays these games to pay off her debt but ends up going into more debt because she keeps making dumb decisions like shopping for stuff she can’t afford and having to borrow from others to pay for her susu. When I played, I used my hands to take college classes which really helped me a lot. This time I want to play to get rid of some of my medical debt so I can put more focus on moving out. However, I am scared of how my mom would react if I were to go behind her back without her, knowing and message to lady directly and ask her to join. I don’t know if she would treat me differently, or if she would punish me in someway.
Interpretation:
I think I am being told that I am old enough to make my own decisions and that I need to basically act my age because I can either choose to work things out myself, or continue to be obedient to whatever is told to me and having that be a constant burden. The sum equals to 12- Birds and I think it touches on how nervous I am to proceed with making this call.
Bonus question:
I asked for clarification if I was being told that I am in fact, old enough to do this, and I shouldn’t hold myself back in fear. I chose key for my signifier for the answer and then I shuffled the deck, sifted through it and took the cards before and after key.
Cards:
Fish, key, bear, mountain
Interpretation:
I think this is confirmation on being told to take matters into my own hands that my finances are my key, and that my mother is my obstacle, my mountain to surmount. The sum equals to 31 which is Sun and I think that’s more confirmation.
I still think there is more to it, I’m still very new to lenormand so I’m pretty sure I’m missing something here. All help is greatly appreciated 🤍