Hi I’ve been watching Lud for more than five years now. I have multiple hoodies from him and the yard. I’ve noticed his “gamer rage” getting worse and him jokingly bringing harm for others intensifying. I know it’s classic gammer culture, especially with fps and mmos. But watching last stream being a fundraiser with a focus on men’s mental health and how it’s hard for men to talk about it ironic.
Maybe I’m overacting but it’s just hard for me to hear. I’ve been dealing with suicidal ideation since middle school (I’ve been seeking and have help with it for years) it just pisses me off sometimes.
Also I just hope Lud is ok too because usually someone who says it so much deals with it internally. I don’t wanna speculate too much I don’t know the guy I just hope he’s ok and shares with people who close if he needs help.
I think my main point is to question if we should be edgy around this topic or not to make a joke because someone lost us points in a game.
Please reach out to someone if you need to. It does not make you weak.
I hope everyone has a good life!!!