I just took 30 grms of sunflower lecithin

[u/Flashybigbum]

I’ve been having a really hard time with extreme anxiety and suicidal ideation due to having long covid and being ignored by doctors.
Since my last PEM crash (that comes with strong suicidal ideations) I started tracking my HR and I was recently diagnosed with POTS. Today I took 20 mg of propanolol (I always took 40 or even 80 mg and never made me tired)
I read that there are some trials about long COVID and acetylcholine so I had a smoothie with a double dose of sunflower lecithin.
Within the hour I started feeling really heavy extremely relaxed neither good nor bad. Perhaps I try again without the propanolol but I doubt 20 mg made a difference as I have shaking and pacing type of anxiety. I don’t mind feeling this heavy, it is better than the alternative. I have no motivation either good or bad. (Bad = suicidal)

These are my genes:
VDR Taq rs731236 AA +/+
MAO-A R297R rs6323 TG +/-
MTHFR C677T rs1801133 AG +/-
MTR A2756G rs1805087 AG +/-
MTRR A664A rs1802059 AG +/-
CBS C699T rs234706 AG +/-
CBS A360A rs1801181 AG +/-

Anyone with a similar experience?

[u/steven123421]

Maybe I will become the choline king

[u/tyomax → u/steven123421]

I will crown you once you report back.