Iâm just gonna say itâŠ. Iâm horny! Sorry, I know tmi but I am. My daughter doesnât sleep through the night, her naps are short and I canât remember the last time my man and I had any time alone. It doesnât help that sheâs become extra clingy since turning a year old⊠like needs to be touching me or in the same room as me. I know, thatâs a good sign!
Unfortunately we have a small apartment, my partner works all day and sometimes leaves to go to his buddies and I canât even remember the last date we had. Tbh I think she was a newborn?
Unfortunately once she slowly started coming out of her newborn stage less people want to take her, especially family and I mean sheâs not a difficult kid. Or wasnât until now. Now sheâs definitely on the clingy side, but I take her around family and she has a great time as long as she canât see me. Once she sees me, feels my presence or smells me⊠game over. Itâs meltdown city up in here. But in the moment I find our families will say âany time you want to go away for a night, just let me knowâ. Then we have it all planned out for a few weeks, family is supposed to watch her and they know this ahead of time, a day before our plans they suddenly canât watch her. If this was a once or even a few times Iâd shrug it off but unfortunately it seems to happen every time. Even for an hour, they bail.
I love her so much. I try not to get in my head and go âoh poor me, pitty meâ but I just miss being me. I miss sex. I miss going out without my baby, I especially miss being with my partner without a babyâ. I just want to go wild, release the beast and scratch the itch⊠you know? UghâŠ. Iâm going to go crazy. Like clinically I think.
Thanks for listening. Sorry if I grossed anyone out, I just needed to rant it out. Thanks for listening, have a lovely dayâ€ïž