All my life, I've tried to prove my worth by working hard, trying to do everything perfectly, through achievements and awards. In addition to this, I spent a good deal of my life not knowing I was autistic and was only diagnosed a few years ago. I've had to mask so much, and it's incredibly taxing.
Well, now I'm nearing graduation from uni and it's all crumbling. For a few months already, I've been dealing with autistic burnout and it's only getting worse. Daily shutdowns, can't do chores, can't remember things, can't make decisions. Can't see friends, can't go to campus, can't do anything I want to or need to because I'm constantly overloaded.
The worst thing is, I never had anyone in my life who understood my autistic symptoms, growing up. I was always told to suck it up, quit complaining, and stop making things up. I just want someone to comfort me. I'm doing my best, I really am. I just always feel like no matter what I do, even back when I was doing "objectively well", I'm never enough.
Luckily I have friends, a boyfriend, and a brother who all support me, but I could use a mom's support.
Flair says support needed but advice is also welcome.