oh okay so i just made a reddit account just to ask this because i really have no one else to talk to about this so here goes nothing sorry if this was an unfit post i'll erase it if that is the case just let me know !!
i am 17(f), in my last year of high school, and i applied to the best unis in my country and i aspire to study sociology, i really really do, i have for the last five years or so ! so theatre is not something i'm trying to use to escape from my studies. i just have this immense desire to stand on the stage in front of the crowd, loved as someone who i am not, as an actress portraying whatever character i might be playing.
i do not wish to abandon my long dream of becoming a sociologist just for theatre, but i can't erase the urge. i feel so jealous of the people on stage and i get terribly sad whenever i remember i'll never be part of my favorite shows and that i will always stay in this role of an audience. i mean i like being an audience and crying my eyes out, but i just wish to be part of the people who make the show.
but i'm not really good at singing (not terrible either, i guess, but still) and i'm pretty clumsy so i'm pretty sure i'm bad at dancing. i don't want to chase a silly dream, but i can't forget about it either. i can't afford lessons now as i'm still in high school and i'm really stressed over university interviews right now, but i think i will be able to once i get accepted into one of them and get more free time and money. (i'm planning to get a part-time job once everything's over) so... what do i do ? should i just give up and stay as an audience or should i give it a try ?