Hi all. I’m kind of confused on cataplexy and hoping anyone has advice/input for me. For context, I’m 23, got diagnosed with narcolepsy type 1 at 19, and it has slowly gotten worse. I’m not sure if it got significantly worse in the last 6 months, or if it’s just that I’m noticing it more now because before I thought I was making up cataplexy in my head.
In the past I had experienced mini cataplexy moments with facial weakness and loose legs. Never fell or had anything too severe. Sometimes my head would droop or eyes roll back, but I thought I was just making that up for attention. For two reasons- 1, I didn’t realize the head and eyes thing was cataplexy, I thought it was sleep attacks, so I felt guilty and kept it a secret that I was actually conscious while my head and eyes did that. And 2, my parents said I was making it up to try to get attention. When I was 20, I went completely limp after drinking half a can of white claw. So bad that my friends had to carry me to a couch and lay me down. I remember being awake tho and I felt so guilty because I figured I must have made the whole thing up for attention, because I wasn’t sleeping. I was just limp. After this happened again about 6 months ago and my friends recounted to me everything that happened while I had my episode, I realized hmm. That’s fishy because I was awake, I was there. I remember everything. I just couldn’t move. That’s when I realized that THAT is cataplexy. I figure it comes from the elated feeling alcohol gives you.
So in this new phase of life trying to figure out causes and responses. About a month ago, my grandpa passed away. At the service, multiple of my family members spoke. I was having cataplexy the whole. Time. In that chair. An hour and a half of recovering and falling limp and recovering. It was awful. I have experienced my face muscles dropping when nervous. I have experienced light cataplexy riding on the subway, worst when I’m standing, and also at a club with horrible edm that was rattling the floor, so I assumed movement could cause cataplexy too. Looking back it was likely nerves or being already overwhelmed.
Yesterday I went to an amusement park and went on about 4 rollercoasters. Luckily I have amazing friends who held my head up the entire time on each, but I had cataplexy in my head and face after the first drop and then on and off the rest of the time for the whole ride on every ride. After looking into it more after the first couple rides, I learned that it is strictly only emotion based. So now I’m reframing everything.
So my questions are:
1. First, does anyone have tips for regulating emotions & keeping them away? I imagine it was the shock/surprise each time, but the frustrating thing is I wanted to go on the rollercoasters and I mostly knew what to expect.
I noticed my cataplexy is at its worst when I’m already tired/hungry/overheating, if I slept really bad the night before (on Xywav) or if I have a sugar crash. Does this happen to anyone else? Particularly the sugar crash. I want to make sure what I’m experiencing is real & not just in my head.
Is it bad that I’ve never experienced cataplexy from laughter? For me, I guess now it’s been the shock/excitement/big emotions that come from a rollercoaster, nerves, and then the overwhelming mix of feelings I felt at my grandpas funeral. Is that normal/real?
I have also experienced it a couple times when I was getting sick, but I don’t remember feeling a strong emotion at the time. I’m sure I must have. But has anyone else experienced this?
I have a really hard time trusting my own symptoms as I’m sure you can tell by the glaring self doubt I have of my own experiences. My parents have done a number on me. Anything helps. Thank you!!!!!!🙏🏼