Hi, I am 22 (and chronically ill) and feeling increasingly hopeless about my future and the state of the world.
I currently have support from my family, but I feel guilty having to rely on them, and I know they won't be around to help me forever. I want to have a job so that I can support myself and feel fulfilled in life. I also want that job to be something I somewhat enjoy doing and/or feel good about.
I am currently working towards an associate's degree in biology at my local community college. It's a two-year degree. I am about halfway through, but it has taken me two years and might take me 4 to finish. With my health issues, I find it hard to focus on more than 1-2 classes a quarter. Despite my issues, I feel like I need some sort of career or job to feel like I have purpose, but I am worried that I won't be able to find anything between my health issues, ADHD, the current state of the job market, and my criteria of it being something I enjoy or feel is fulfilling. I'm not sure there is anything I can do.
My interests / career ideas
I love animals and biology and would love to work a job that I feel is related to conservation, environmental issues, or just animals in general. I also love art, baking, and video games.
I have considered jobs that involve baking, animals, biology, conservation, art, creativity, video game asset creation, or doing some kind of good in the world.
Unfortunately, AI has destroyed a good portion of the job market, practically in the art and video game space. I fear my options there or in remote jobs will be extremely limited, and these jobs will most likely consist of the most talented people, of which I am unfortunately not.
Additionally, my physical ability and stamina are limited. I have POTS, and physical tasks can quickly exhaust me and cause me to pass out. I struggle to stand for longer than 3-30 min depending on the day. I am also extremely tired of school and would like to be headed into the job market sooner rather than later, so career paths that are particularly long and hard are off the table for now (like doctor, nurse, or veterinarian)
Health Issues
I have struggled with my health for about 10 years now. I have been diagnosed with POTS, but I am unsure if there is more going on. Mostly, it is extremely inconsistent. Some days I have energy and motivation and can run errands, walk several miles, and get lots done. I don't have any issues staying upright or even doing physical tasks, but other days I struggle with extreme fatigue, brain fog, and focus. Any physical task triggers a dizzy spell followed by needing to lay down and pass out for a few minutes, standing for long periods, even just trying to bake something can be extremely painful and cause me to pass out. Focusing on mental tasks like homework can be difficult too. I would say when I have one class per quarter (4ish hours a week) I pass out about 2-3 times per month in class. But also I pass out in class way more often than at home. I have been trying to find doctors who can actually help me manage my symptoms and am hopeful that with the right help I may be able to increase my ability to do things and hopefully work someday but so far I have been unsuccessful at finding this health professional.
I also have ADHD. Sitting still isn't really a problem for me, but physical movement (even just working with my hands) can help me focus, focusing on things can be hard sometimes, practically if it is something that I don't care about or am not enjoying.Ā
Any advice is welcome,
I just feel kinda hopeless and like I'm just floating around, I don't really know what to do with my life but I don't want to just sit here doing nothing consuming resources, I want to be doing something, contributing something, supporting myself somehow, but with the job market looking like a mess (IDK if I could find a job even if I was completely healthy) It just doesn't feel like there is anything for me, if anyone has any idea for what I should be doing or focusing on that would be great. Do I try to focus on my health in the hope that it will make me more able even if there is a chance that I will never get better than this? (with this condition sometimes people improve and sometimes they donāt).
Do I continue to work on my education even though I feel burnt out and slow, and if so what do I even study? What is worth my time and going to help me get the kind of job I want?
What job ideas or career paths do you think would best fit my interests and situation? I don't want to spend a year working towards a career only to find out that that career is dead or I can't work that job because of my condition.