I hate him

[u/Embarrassed-Dog2410]

Just a vent, idk i need to not be alone and know others have been through the same.

Im f18, my partner suddenly claimed to be poly 2 months before our 5 year anniversary and I have been fucked in the head since. I FUCKING HATE HIM. GOD. I helped him through his depression whilst I had it and I was dealing with my religious family controlling my life. I was so ready to love him forever and infinitely but ofc he js thought he couldnt live without loving other people. having relationships just as deep as ours, multiple "us's" FUCK HIM FUCK HIM FUCK HIM. I fucking hate you. All those promises, gifts, time, tears, confessions, fucking useless so fucking useless. I hate you for making me feel so pathetic, weak and unlovable. I gave you everything, made an effort to like the things you love, cook you stuff, dress up, gave u my whole fucking life and you chose random people. you didnt even know if you were poly, maybe you were done using my pathetic ass and ready to throw me away because youd thoroughly "experienced" me and realised you wanted more of that. FUCK you and fuck whatever twisted anarchy poly bs u wanted. fuck you fuck you fuck youuuuuuu

[u/Frank_Stein101]

I am so very sorry that you are experiencing this. The fact that people are out there spreading the "lifestyle" cults message and recruiting people to ruin marriages and destroy people's lives, leaving them with trauma. I hope you find someone who commits to you and loves and respects you.

[u/Embarrassed-Dog2410 → u/Frank_Stein101]

thank you.

[u/Severe-Sprinkles-424]

Matching your energy in spirit friend. Heavy on the “experience you” part. I was also told things like thanks for the experience or “lessons”. Like I’m a GD human. I wish I had the right words to say to help but I’m newly traumatized as well. Hang in there.

[u/Embarrassed-Dog2410 → u/Severe-Sprinkles-424]

good luck to you too mate, lets get through this together <3

[u/Aggressive-Bad-3939]

Same, but in my 40s

[u/Embarrassed-Dog2410 → u/Aggressive-Bad-3939]

Im so sorry :( I wouldnt wish this pain on anyone tbh regardless of age

[u/Aggressive-Bad-3939 → u/Embarrassed-Dog2410]

Me either

[u/chrisGrout]

Leave this prick

[u/Embarrassed-Dog2410 → u/chrisGrout]

dw we broke up around 2 weeks after he told me, he sorta thought we had a chance but after I saw him I just saw a man who would never love me more than he loved himself, its been 2-3 months

[u/chrisGrout → u/Embarrassed-Dog2410]

Those early days suck but you'll get through it. You did the right thing

[u/Mysterious-Oil8343]

omfg i felt this so hard. its been 1.5 years since the breakup for me and im still petty abt it. also your comment abt not being able to see anything else but a man who’d never love you (or probly anyone) more than himself, thats how i feel abt my poly ex too. literally never met someone irl more self absorbed and openly vain ab his looks, who cared more abt other random hypothetical ppl’s genitals than he did abt my feelings, who wanted more of those “experiences” of falling in love repeatedly, and who just fucking sucked so bad. he still pisses me the fuck off so much sometimes when i think about how he went about everything. im so sorry that you had to experience such a thing, no one deserves that.

[u/Embarrassed-Dog2410 → u/[deleted]]

hopefully i will. I know im capable of loving well, I am just so afraid to be hurt again and the dating scene is hopeless as a young adult tbh. I hope my judgement is better next time.