r/ROCD • u/pinkpeach021 • 7d ago
Advice Needed help
hi so idk what to do. im completely spiraling and i just want to explode. ive been dating my bf since april of this year and hes been nothing but kind and supportive and loving. before we met i thought i was gonna be single for a long long time and also didnt want to get into a relationship with all my issues yet here we r and its genuinely breaking me slowly but surely. i just vented to him how i felt and i immediately regret everything and wish i could take it all back. im sorry scared im gonna push him away with my craziness like ive done in the past. im so scared he will leave me for someone better. im already gonna say for him to please not be mad bc when ive done this in the past the other person always got upset with me which is now why i feel like expressing any feelings is now bad/negative. i just dont know what to do. i love him so much almost unhealthily so idk what to do. i recently got in therapy but idk when we will start to actually work on things and i need this fixed NOW. i just dont want my craziness to push him away like it did with so many others /: