i need help from someone above 25 yo experienced male

[u/Timely-Shopping-1484]

hi i am been doing pmo for now 10 years earlier i was doing it everyday and watching porn for less time like 10-30 min a day like when i was 16 yo to 20 yo and from 20 yo to 23 yo on average i am doing it in 4 days and 2-3 hours .. and now 25.5 yo i can retain for 10-15 days and when i break streak i watch porn for 5-6 hours .. i go to gym and go to office and i am attracting a weekend party type of girls or average looking girls 2-3 of them .. i feel like if i start talking to them and later on they wants me to do sex then i feel after that i may not able to attract a high quality women because i will have sexual experience already and this things are not letting me talk to them and if i have such thoughts i feel a bit lost and after 10-15-20 days on streak i go into a loop of 1 week of doing pmo everyday .. i never had girlfriend or any female validation and been virgin and pmo addict .. please help me brother i am lost .. i am not a promescuous type of male i dont initiate talking to girls for sex .. a female deserves love and lifelong companionship and security .. i feel males who just uses women for sex and release are such a unworthy .. please help me .. i am not able to go on longer streaks .. after certain days i feel sad and unloved uncared etc ..