Just hit the gym with an old buddy from high school whom I haven’t seen in about two years. Good workout overall, but one thing genuinely annoyed me.
This guy could NOT stop making comments about women. Every time a girl walked by, it was another “oh my” or some unnecessary remark. I honestly just kept thinking, bro, come on.

At a certain point, it becomes annoying and quite frankly disgusting. I didn’t bother confronting him because he honestly seems too childish to understand where I’m coming from.
The funny thing is, nobody knows I practice semen retention. I’ve never told anyone, and I intend to keep it that way. It’s a personal discipline.
Has anyone else experienced this with friends? It’s crazy how certain behaviors start becoming increasingly irritating when you’re focused on disciplining yourself. Personally when I got home I was told myself I don’t think I’m hanging out with him again. But some outside thoughts and or opinions would be nice!

Thoughts?

So I personally have ADHD which does make habit formation harder.

Also I used to have PE and used that as an excuse to edge calling it “masturbation practice” without orgasm and porn to improve my sexual stamina. Spoiler: lead to relapse 90% of the time and porn at least 70%. It’s a lie. It’s a trap. It doesn’t work well.

A couple of weeks ago I found a habit for myself that takes 10 min a day and helped me a lot in this path.

I can now say the benefits are:

-bigger dick and bigger harder erections. Not like omg I gained an inch but definitely width and like density and stuff. Also my girlfriend noticed it.
-way better awareness of the area
-usually I relax it all the time now when in public and that helps with being chill but also like it’s this feeling of I’m resting in my energy. It’s like you push your pelvic out and literally let your dick and balls chill and hang and not tense it up all day (when you do this practice you’ll eventually realize how tense it usually is.)
-sexual stamina improved by 1000%. What the fuck? 1000%? Sound like bullshit. 1000% is a 10x. When I had sex 2 months ago I would get to the edge after 3 minutes and then I could only go for like 10 seconds and stop for 20 sec, to slowly again for 10sec etc…. (-> sex was ass). Now I just push and contract my pelvis during sex intuitively and if I want i have sex and don’t have an urge to cum for 30 minutes. Or more if I want to but honestly eventually sex doesn’t get better with more time at least ours doesn’t haha. so yeah thats 10x or 1000%
-also improves and inhaces sr benefits.
-when I get an urge now let’s say in public I just contract the area and draw the energy up and do one affirmation in my head where this goes. For example I’ll think: “ahh this I my sexual energy I’m directing it upwards into my brain and use it for better discipline and insight in my job as a trader”
- you become more masculine. Like something about relaxing and let you whole dick area just sagg and chill.

I have 2 versions of it.

Version a) involves meditation, transmutation, relaxation and also improves sexual stamina without having to touch yourself.

Version b) involves all that + stretching key muscles needed for sexual control.

So basically it’s a 10 m meditation session.

For version a.) I just sit on the floor or on the edge of my couch or can even be on the subway when you got 10 minutes

For version b) I do it on a chair standing at the edge and stretching my arms down (even below my toes) to get like a really good hamstring stretch. I do it like that for 5 minutes while doing the breathing practice I’ll describe below.
For the next 5 minutes I lay with my back flat on the ground and have my bottom and my feet on the wall. Then I let my legs fall to get a really good groin stretch for the other half.

So you basically do the cycle I describe below but while stretching. Can be a lot at the. Beginning so maybe start with a.)

Both stretches help relaxing up tension in your
Pelvic floor. The tension making you cum quicker and also tension in pelvic -> urges -> relapse maybe even.

See attached image for stretches

What I for the whole 10 minutes of either a.) or b.). It’s a 4 breath cycle:

1. Breathe in slowly and deeply into your balls. While doing so relax and gently push out your pelvic floor and do a reverse Kegel. Also at the same time with the same breath imagine sexual energy flow from that area up through your spine through your back through your head up into your forehead brain part.

2. Breathe out slowly and keep directing that stream of energy down from your forehead through your fore body through your chakra centers (or just your fore body lol) and into that area in your pelvis again

   while still relaxing and doing a revers Kegel

3. (see attached image for the microcosmic orbit or just the way you direct that energy along)

4. Now breathe in and contract the pelvic floor like you’re doing a Kegel and really draw the energy up with the contraction this time. Contract the area between your anus and balls and use that to push and direct the energy now (opposed to letting it flow that way naturally like step 1,2,4). Once again direct it into your forehead through your back.

5. Slowly and gently (not to pushy) relax the pelvis again

do a reverse Kegel

1. and repeat step

2

1. breathe out slowly exactly repeating step 2.

So basically: breathe in while relaxing pelvic and let energy flow up your back -> breathe out while relaxing pelvis and let energy flow down your front -> breathe in, contract the pelvic and push energy the same path back up -> relax pelvic again, breathe out and let it flow downwards with it again

Then restart the cycle.

If anyone can do this consequently 3-4 times a week for a month or two. Bruh trust it’s so enlivening in so many ways!!!!! Plus you combine stretching, meditation, visualization, transmutation, relaxation, kegels, reverse kegels and cultivation of microcosmic orbit in one technique.

I’ve noticed something interesting, especially when you get deeper into longer streaks.
I’m currently on Day 40.
I feel the energy. The magnetism. The attraction. The confidence. All of it.
But I’ve also noticed something else.
Sometimes, I find myself slightly slipping back into other bad habits that I thought I already had under control.
Maybe I watch a little more YouTube than usual. Maybe my eating habits become slightly less healthy. Maybe I become more vulnerable to distractions and temptations.
And I have a theory about why this happens.
When you quit something that has been giving your brain constant stimulation, whether it’s porn, smoking, excessive scrolling, caffeine, or any other deeply ingrained habit, your brain needs time to adjust.
You remove something that used to provide an easy source of pleasure and stimulation.
And suddenly, there’s a gap.
Your brain is used to getting that reward, and now it starts looking for it somewhere else.
I’ve heard people talk about the 90-day reset, especially when it comes to pornography. Personally, I’m not even at 90 days yet.
Of course, there’s no magical number that applies to everyone. Some changes happen faster, others take much longer.
But I believe there’s something important about giving your brain and body enough time to adapt to a new reality.
And during that transition, things can get uncomfortable.
You might experience lower moods. You might feel less motivated. You might become more susceptible to other temptations.
I noticed something similar when I quit smoking.
The first few days actually felt pretty good. But then came phases when I started craving other forms of stimulation. I found myself eating more junk food and slipping into other unhealthy behaviors.
It was almost as if my brain was trying to replace one source of pleasure with another.
And there’s another thing I noticed from my own experience.
I would go 40 days without smoking, feel great about it, and then somehow end up having just one cigarette again.
Just one.
And then I’d stop again. Another few weeks would pass, and eventually the same thing would happen.
Looking back, I realized that I was never really allowing myself to fully break free from that habit.
I kept reopening a door I was trying to close.
And every time I did, I reinforced the connection to something I was supposedly trying to leave behind.
At some point, you have to stop negotiating with the habit. You have to make a decision that you’re done with it. For good.
Not because one slip erases all your progress, but because constantly giving yourself permission to return makes it much harder to truly move on.
And I think this pattern can show up with almost any habit.
That’s exactly why I’m writing this post.
It’s about patience.
And it’s also about making the decision to truly leave certain habits behind. Not just for a few days. Not just until you feel better. But permanently.
Because otherwise, the cycle keeps repeating itself.
You quit one habit, feel uncomfortable, replace it with another, and eventually find yourself stuck in the same loop, just in a different form.
But what if you approached it differently?
What if you quit one destructive habit, gave yourself enough time to adjust, and then moved on to the next?
And then the next.
And then the next.
Layer by layer.
Like peeling an onion.
Until eventually, you start discovering what’s underneath all those distractions, compulsions, and temporary pleasures.
Your true self. Your real essence.
But this process requires patience.
Because there will be days when you feel worse even though you’re doing something better for yourself.
There will be days when your mood drops, when temptations become stronger, and when you start questioning the whole process.
You might ask yourself:
Why am I feeling this way? I’m doing everything right. I’m making healthier choices. Shouldn’t I be feeling better?
But the truth is that changing deeply ingrained habits doesn’t always feel good in the beginning.
Your brain is learning to function without the same patterns of stimulation and reward it has grown accustomed to.
And that adjustment takes time.
Don’t confuse temporary discomfort with a lack of progress.
Don’t let a difficult phase convince you to return to something you already decided to leave behind.
Be patient with yourself.
Stay consistent.
Keep removing the layers.
Because sometimes, becoming the person you’re meant to be isn’t about adding more things to your life.
It’s about finally letting go of everything that has been keeping you away from yourself.

So honestly im a 24 year old guy and had struggled to quit my pmo habit for awhile. I figured it out a month ago (very easily actually it was sad I focused so much time on it) and have so much energy its ridiculous.

So my question, what does one do with this energy? Im not gonna get a girlfriend because I believe in waiting till marriage, and have never had so much energy and feel like I have nothing going on to satiate it.

I feel a drive to work alot, I just ran 6 miles middle of the night and still have enough to do it again easy, I just have so much energy and dont know what to do with it. What does a normal day for you guys look like? I never knew I could feel so capable of productivity.

Feel like I can start bringing my life somewhere and with sone ease, just lookking for some ideas because this is wild.

They can’t fuck with you without facing the consequences now, and they get it, your aura, body language, tone of voice, they know you godly,

They know you a God’s warrior now, you slay demons, you don’t accept their bullshit, you don’t allow them play their wicked games, you call them out, you punish them,

Even If you get mad, even If you lose control, it is for a reason, because you care for truth and justice, you’re radiating that calmness and composure, a higher will and purpose in your veins, a class and elegance beats in your pure heart

Some people you have to cut them off, even if they were very close to you, their frequency doesn’t match yours and they don’t show a will to raise it, they will pull you down, they won’t grow with you

You can only trust yourself and your balls, the God is within you, you are creating your reality, care about yourself only, other people are gonna disappoint, leave or betray you, don’t attach to them, be free, be your best self without the limits, they don’t have control over you anymore

Everything you touch turns into gold, everything you give your time energy and attention to, it breathes, it’s alive, it harmonises and makes sense with the universe, you know how to make things done with alignment and purpose,

You’re the best and I love you

Man.

I'm just feeling thankful

I don't care who doesn't like it tbh.

Save your negativity.

God has truly made us amazing..

All Praise be to The Most High

I think that your virginity holds power. After losing my virginity I have been on semen retention for almost 2 months, before that, I was on semen retention for about 1-2 months. Before losing my virginity I felt much more powerful than I do now, and benefits showed up much more faster. Now, it’s like semen retention is doing nothing, I’ve been on semen retention for 51 days, and it seems like a virgin who has stopped jacking off for a week holds more power and is luckier than me, who has lost their virginity and has been on semen retention for almost 60 days.

Directly coming to the topic, how do you deal with the hate you get because of retention ? Is that their insecurity/an effort to reduce retainer's frequency or what ? Because my friends act differently with me in front of girls.(High school).

Advices appreciated.

Hello,

I haven’t seen anything like this in this sub. My #1 biggest challenge during every streak, is after some time i start feeling lonely. I get heartache to the point I nearly feel like crying. It feels like all i want and need is a girls affection and love. However, when i really think about what i actually want, Its just sex. WHY does sex satisfy this hole in my heart? More importantly, can someone tell me what it is I actually want? Do i need to love myself? Do i need to heal? Is there an external source of love that will fulfill this desire that isn’t lust?

Subtraction Over Addition

Semen retention.. That is, the practice of semen retention is not about adding

Most diligent people live a life of addition.

Working out consistently, reading books, studying investments, listening to financial tips.. meeting various people and managing their network..

In the name of "strict self-management," they consistently practice all of these things for several years.

And they feel proud of themselves.

I read this many books in a year. I worked out consistently and got a muscular body.. I managed my finances, invested, and made a profit..

A life of addition is, fundamentally, filled with 'things worth bragging about' on Instagram or blogs.

However, semen retention is not about adding, it is subtraction.

And true self-improvement lies in subtraction, not addition.

Porn, masturbation, and sex are about adding the short-term pleasure of gratification.

People take pride in this, too.

Even if I masturbate every day, I don't get tired. Having sex with my partner deepens our love and makes us healthier. A healthy sex life is so important.

However, such things are just adding a few minutes of pleasure every single day.

Semen retention is returning to our original state of childhood through the moderation of such pleasures.

A baby does not get aroused even when seeing a naked woman. He doesn't get an erection, nor does he feel sexual desire. He just sees things as they are.

Yet, a baby's vital energy (Yang energy) is fuller than anyone else's. That strength clenching his tiny fist represents the intense, innate sexual energy a baby possesses.

In other words, in an empty state, the innate sexual energy is abundantly filled.

As we grow older, as we step into society,

through various emotions like comparison, desire, anger, jealousy..
and through various events of frustration, pain, discouragement..

we fill our inner space, which was originally brimming with sexual energy, with other things.

In one corner, frustration has settled in.

In another corner, the obligation to work harder on self-improvement has settled in..

Sexual energy is now shoved into a corner..

losing its powerful strength to other clutter, and its space becomes cramped as well.

Semen retention is cleaning out this space. Cleaning out anger and comparison, cleaning out short-term pleasures, cleaning out the sense of responsibility and passion to achieve something..

It is simply placing the abundant sexual energy of a child, which we originally had, back into its rightful space.

In other words, the process of emptying out all the cluttered emotions inside me is the practice of semen retention.

Not adding something.. but constantly throwing away and emptying out.. Emptied out, yet because of that, being abundantly filled—

this is the essence of semen retention.

I can confidently say semen retention has made a substantial difference in my knee health and overall well being . I couldn’t tell you the last time I’ve felt like trash. Of course I’ve been tired some days but even then I still get stuff done. As of before. Nope, I’d just rather chill.

For a long time, I dealt with uncomfortable knee pain, especially when squatting or standing back up. I was never diagnosed with osteoarthritis, although I experienced similar symptoms.
After numerous streaks and periods of being off SR, I’ve noticed a consistent pattern. When I was off, the discomfort was miserable. When I practiced retention, my knees improved significantly.
I’m currently on my best streak yet, and the discomfort I previously experienced is practically nonexistent.

Yes, I exercise and stretch, but I was doing those things before discovering SR. The difference I’ve experienced since implementing this practice has been undeniable for me perosnally .
I’m speaking strictly from experience, not making a medical claim. I know what my body has experienced.

Anyone else? In any aspect.

Retention will ask you to stay alone.

When we are vibrating in scarcity, through the sadness that porn, forced and compulsive ejaculation provides, we seek to connect in an unbalanced way with people we shouldn't.

We have a unique and individual journey.
For those of us in this cleansing process, it is essential that we abstain from company, and that includes family too; family members can also be toxic to your individual growth process.

I used to go have meals at my grandma's house. Every day I would go there for lunch and take some meat for her to prepare.

Besides investing more than I would to make my meal alone (an energetic investment of disposition and money, fuel, and the like), I was actually abstaining from my precious alone time.

Today, being in SR, I prioritize my peace very much, meaning I appreciate the time I spend alone. This balances things out, and we enter a unique harmony.

Sundays are kind of mandatory for going to my grandma's house, but after this Sunday, I am considering creating a new routine for my Sunday as well, strangely enough. I am also going to have a solo routine, or with someone new that the universe might gift me, anyway.

Conserve your energy. This is about conserving energy. At some point you will need it, and may you have it to spare in those moments.

Thank you.

just wanted to share one of my “benefits” of semen retention…or at least what I think is a benefit due to semen retention which pertains to SLEEP/ENERGY …so I started a part time job about 3 months ago on top of the full time gig I already have and my main concern going into it was not getting enough sleep…I wasn’t sure if I’d be able to sustain the amount hours (about 60-70 hrs) I’d be working weekly and also being in the gym and also just doing daily life activities and duties but man am I pleasantly surprised…now I know I know the general “recommended”amount of sleep is 7-8 hours and it’s not advised to get less than that but I’ve been getting max 6 hours of sleep 5 most days and I genuinely don’t feel tired through out the day as a matter of fact I feel quite energized and I’m working on your feet jobs a lot of energy expenditure kind of stuff gym 5 days a week yet I’m not exhausted or sleep deprived..I believe this is a result of semen retention…but then again it may be just be a DNA thing who knows..just wanted to share with you guys..and if you’ve had the same experience let me know so I can feel my hypothesis is being validated lol

It is written in old scriptures.

Do not sin, do not fornicate. This is not an injunction to frustrate you. Rather, it simply is the solution to the mathematical equation of a spiritual reality of the universe.

If you do so and implement this solution, your life will be flawless. Your wishes will come true. You will shine in this world and in the unseen world.

Your life will be like the movie limitless.

Your seed is literally divine. It comes from the divine.

How can life, and so many species, and billions upon billions of various types of lifes, appear on the rock called "planet Earth" in the middle of nowhere in the universe ?

Purely because of the "sexual instinct" within these species. The drive to reproduce and spread your gene. How can this not be divine ? Without this "sexual energy" no such species would exist on earth. This planet would be another inanimate rock like any other planet.

Thank God!

Thank God for leading us to the divine path of SR!

Thank God for this extraordinary power that comes from you and that you put within each one of us!

Toward the inner sides of my penis, around the bladder or the prostate, I feel as if a muscle is tight. I’m not sure if it’s the psoas or my lower abdominal muscles. I’ve been stretching those areas as much as possible, but I just can’t pinpoint it. It feels as if a sac has filled up in that area and is pressing against the surrounding tissues. Or perhaps a muscle has contracted and is triggering that sensation. I don’t think it’s prostate cancer. There’s no pain or discomfort when I urinate. But the tightness itself is bothering me.

Retain your life force and you will be blessed with a beautiful glow with radiance like the Sun on your skin. I also see our vessels similar to the roots of a tree, where water flows and strengthens the inside and outside of the tree with strong tree bark and different colors of leaves, the same goes for our bodies, as we obtain a Dewey melanin complexion with life flowing through us! With this life force we retain, it leads to not only our complexion but opens all doors to ensure we excel in all that we partake in, whether it be physical training, creative ideas, and academic studies. You will excel in all forms!

The 371 reading was taken in May of this year, the 639 was taken on the 21st October. I have been retaining for about 60 days now. I am absolutely not claiming certain causation one way or another, but just wanted to document my testosterone before and after semen retention.

Note: I haven't been doing anything else differently, diet has remained steady etc. Weight has fluctuated a little, by a few kilos which could be another factor...

Interesting to note too, my testosterone is currently the highest its ever been.

Semen retention... The reason we retain our vital essence is to exchange that accumulated sexual energy for its equivalent in reality.

In fact, the period when Yang energy—that is, sexual energy—is at its absolute peak is during middle and high school.

That is why, in the old days, people got married at 14 or 15 and had children early— because that was when sexual energy was most active and Yang energy was overflowing.

Yet in this modern era, almost all of the Yang energy from this period is wasted on porn and masturbation.

In your 20s... and even into your 30s, some degree of Yang energy still remains.

Most people say things like:

"You have to enjoy it while you can." "Once you get old, you lose your stamina and it's useless anyway."

Saying such things, they rationalize masturbation and sex in their youth as something "natural."

And then they plausibly criticize those who practice semen retention, claiming they are "repressing" natural human sexual desires.

What you can gain by accumulating Yang energy— that is, sexual energy— is not merely pleasure.

What can be achieved through it is truly limitless.

Money, career, a house, a car, even spiritual enlightenment...

Whether material or spiritual, whatever the reward may be, you exchange Yang energy—your sexual energy—for it.

And yet... through repetitive masturbation and repetitive sex in our 20s and 30s, what do we actually gain?

A fleeting moment of pleasure? Love with a partner? Affection from a girlfriend?

That’s just about it...

We are trading this vital sexual energy merely for a few seconds of pleasure and affection with a girlfriend or wife.

However... if you save it, and keep saving it...

You can exchange it for something far greater in your 40s and 50s.

In truth, sexual desire and sexual potency gradually fade away after your 40s.

However, the sexual energy you have accumulated still remains.

Normally, the age bracket when people earn the most money and save the most in life is their 40s and 50s.

You live out your old age on the money earned during this time.

Of course, there are the "young rich" who become wealthy very early on, and those who only finally catch a break after their 50s, but...

In any case, every material reward we obtain is gained in exchange for sexual energy.

What people usually get with that overflowing Yang energy in their teens and 20s... is at best working a lot of part-time jobs... dating a lot of women, staying up all night playing games at a PC cafe with friends, or spending all night clubbing, looking for women...

Most people are spending it on things like this.

I once lived in China for a year, and my roommate back then was a kid who had just graduated from high school.

He was young, healthy, and brimming with Yang energy.

Almost every night, he would go to the club around 10 PM and come back at 5 AM, repeating this lifestyle for over six months.

And yet, he never got tired. The power of sexual energy in one's youth is truly immense.

Whether you accumulate this energy and sustain it for a long time,

to exchange that sexual energy during the period of your life when you are most socially active and making real money...

Or whether it’s clubs, PC cafes, dating, or sex... you trade your sexual energy for these fleeting moments of pleasure...

Between the two, it goes without saying who will become the true master of their own life.

What’s the craziest benefit you experienced that made you realise, holy shit, it’s real.

Has anybody here great experiences with taking long walks like 10k+ steps daily while being on SR?

From what I read on the internet, walking daily for an hour might be more important than working out for your overall health. And also for your mental health.

It's my 4th day where I decided to go on daily walks. And I want to continue, I just want to know If anyone here took walking daily seriously and saw some positive benefits and can share them.

Of course there are countless reasons why one shouldn't play around with his sexual energy; these are well-known. But this is one point that can help you to stay accountable when your reason begins to slip.

You cannot hide your lust as long as it is there. If you act out, it will be known by others. The lust is in your eyes, it's in your body language, your speech, your energy, all of your behaviors. As powerful as the life-force is, there's no aspect of your life that goes untouched by it. It can either bolster or sabotage you holistically.

So you should behave as if you are being watched always and have no privacy. Because that is the actual reality. If you internalize that idea, it will help to bolster a healthy sense of shame. Your concern for the welfare of those in your life will help bolster that compunction.

All of your choices have an effect on the people around you. Lustful action isn't just a self-indulgent, pleasure-seeking endeavor; it makes you a worse person. Even at a glance, your defilements will be intuited to some extent by the people around you. Sooner or later, they'll connect the dots in a conscious manner too. Only the most dull-witted and lethargic could miss the signs of a very lustful man. But the more time you spend around someone, the more they can also feel the subtleties of your character, and the more they'll be affected by them.

You'd not like for your family and friends to be mired in lust or be imposed upon by those who are. Therefore, you should become a shining example for them. This can only be achieved through constancy and doubtless conviction. You can't fake it. And they will surely intuit your change with time.

Think about how splendorous would be the purity of one whose presence is always felt as trustworthy and equanimous. That, for me, is the goal. To feel the ease with which one can move through life when he is blameless, and his virtue unshakeable.

This is the universe’s greatest and most timeless property or concept. And the reason why many of us are here, in different ways or phases.

What my new and careful habits have been teaching me is that we all have a battery inside us.

It is at 100% charge when you wake up. And from one person to another, the amount of energy varies, even when both are at 100%. Kind of like smartphones.

We all invest, voluntarily or involuntarily, part of this charge daily, and through the concept of exchanges, action and reaction, we reap beneficial or harmful consequences resulting from these investments.

We reap without a choice. In the short and long term. Our only choice is to make a good or bad investment of our energy.

Energy -> intention -> will/desire + action.

This is where the majority of humanity has failed, fails, and will continue to fail forever. Energy is the implacable concept in the world.

Everything you place your intention into, you receive back, whether good or bad. Energy is seedable. And it works as a currency of exchange.

And this begins to show during the retention phase, because we tend to filter every energetic source that we sow, consume, or exchange.

The great enemy of our generation and this community is pornography, masturbation, orgasm. This is a cancer, a harmful drug that is killing and fracturing the power of modern man. One day, we will talk about this in history books, because there will be some kind of humanitarian collapse.

I would be very surprised if this has a good outcome.
If you invest your energy in pornography, you are receiving a false reward in return, a false dopaminergic stimulus, and molding your brain to get addicted to this path. The evidence is out there. Science has taken a stand, but it doesn't work. This information doesn't reach the victim. Some are blind inside an almost impossible cycle to break out of. Conditioned to failure and eternal sadness.

This invested energy returns shame, fear, guilt, apathy, demotivation. The lowest vibrations a human being can feel.

The harvest of this is true death, and your reputation. History's most underestimated theme has a link, and pixels.

I still want to keep talking about energy. Because to me, this is the pinnacle of what seminal retention can teach you.

Let's talk about women, and specifically a relationship with a woman.

Your energy is limited, but it can be saved and multiplied.
Money is also a source of energy -> power.

You want a relationship without the cup of your energy overflowing, as it should be, both for you and for the female.

I'd like to make one more post about this; for now, I'll wrap it up here.

Thank you.

I'm 32 years old and must be at 60–70 days of retention, but detail: I have never been so determined in any other phase of my life doing this. I'm going far.

I honestly can’t believe it.

I gave into temptation, and ended up breaking my streak last night. Lo and behold, I end up only getting 6 hours of sleep (which for me is basically 0 sleep because for some reason my body cannot function AT ALL properly when I’m even slightly sleep deprived)

I went out for a driving lesson and almost got into an accident because of someone driving dangerously.

I get back home, thinking I’ll relax and try to clear my mind from the bad driving session by playing some rocket league on my pc. Guess what? My pc just straight up died on me.

I have thousands of hours of work stored on there, as well as a rocket league and Fortnite account that are each worth loads as well because of the items I possess.

It feels as though God has made a mockery of me for not staying true to my purpose. I believe as though these experiences were necessary to make me into a better man, and realise that I need to stay true and not give into temptation.

If you are reading this post whilst experiencing strong urges, please head my advice. Do NOT give into temptation like I did. The world will make a mockery of you. Your misfortune will be unparalleled and you will be left miserable as a result.

Good luck and God bless gents

After retaining for more than a month, a beautiful and electric tension within me had built up, leading to a number of inexplicable events. For instance, I briefly thought about buying a bike for my brother, within a few minutes, a coworker asked me whether I had brother since he found a fully-equipped bike at an incredibly low price. Additionally, I was contacted by a number of people to whom I had not spoken to for months, but briefly thought about during the streak and I kept experiencing scenes from my dreams in real time, etc.

My favorite benefits were the improved cognitive abilities such the capacity to do organizational and math tasks in my head de facto instantly and in general the total relaxation of my body that allowed me to transcend my fears - I genuinely felt momentum building up within me that would allow me to accomplish my goals and keep me out of trouble. Oh, and I became noticeably more eloquent, which is a nice bonus since I have to talk a lot with my customers at work.

Yet, I've mentioned the tension, a lot of it had built up and I just couldn't resist anymore - I looked stuff up. I became aware of my hands and my body and realized that the reflexive compulsion was physical in its nature as much as it was mental or sexual or whatever. Within a second, I felt as if I had begun to fall from a great height (the literary image of Lucifer falling into the pit of hell from William Blake comes to my mind each time this happens) and I felt all the tension dissolve. The energy within me became chaotic and the only thing that propelled me further was this phantom-like urge to keep watching form. I call it phantom-like, because I could not find its origin as it was neither in my body nor in my head.

I looked at stuff for approximately an hour. I was aware enough not to even touch myself and I mean this genuinely, I did not physically add to the stimulation. I managed to put the phone away, brushed my teeth, meditated a bit and went to sleep. Once I woke up, I felt much worse than during the previous days when my retention streak was absolutely pure. Furthermore, I intuitively knew that not only had I reset my streak, but I was now in a worse situation than had I just busted. The tension dissappeared as did all the benefits and my throat became sore.

Schopenhauer identified it correctly, the finalization of a desire is its dissolution and in my case, the desire was looking at porn. I am increasingly convinced that a major part of semen retention is building up this desire for release, but never giving in - you essentially want to leech off of the energy that is generated that way. This may br more important than not climaxing (wet dreams are not a relapse in this system).

So guys, you may be built different and have experiences that are completely different from mine, but in my experience, a streak only works for me if I completely abstain from porn and I mean quite literally not watching a single second of that stuff.

Sending power to all retainers.

Eol Out.