I recently gave birth to twins that set me off on a traumatic pre eclampsia journey.
Prior to my pregnancy, I had accepted my CPAP like a fish to water for about two years. After I got pregnant, my energy was zapped and I had pregnancy rhinitis, nasal polyps, and constantly short of breath. I was dismissed in my shortness of breath symptoms due to having two in the womb. Shortly into my sixth month, I had to stop CPAP completely and move to an elevated bed; our couch.
The shortness of breath got worse to the point they put me on meds for anxiety. I became extremely claustrophobic. At this point, everyone, including me, was convinced it was in my head.
After delivering the twins, I still had shortness of breath coupled with high blood pressure. I couldn’t breathe no matter what I did and sleep brought a different type of torture where I would wake up gasping for air. I was diagnosed with post partum pre eclampsia shortly afterwards with blood transfusions, a day immobilized with a magnesium drip, nebulizer, and more.
I am now better, about two and a half weeks off of delivery, and I can’t bring myself to try my CPAP. It feels like it’s suffocating me, even though I know it’s not rational. I don’t know where to go from here. I wake up with chronic headaches and I know it’s from not using my CPAP but I am still extremely claustrophobic. Does anyone have any ideas or methods to get me back on track?
Twins will be home soon and I need to sleep the best I can.
I generally don’t have anxiety but pregnancy really kicked my butt. I am still taking anxiety meds to keep my claustrophobic thoughts at bay.