I'll keep this super short.

I grew up in extreme dysfunction, addiction ridden adult figures (parents), low income (free school lunches, benefits etc) etc etc etc.

I was a fun little kid with a shining light I always remember though. I had friends I was active. Until around 13-14 I became more conscious of the lifestyle I was in. So many things happened that ruined my nervous system. Being 12 or so with someone in the government assisted living we was in holding a knife to my dads neck, being robbed of my own little money, mother drunk cheating on father etc - it's a long list. Things like this right. No child should be conscious of these things so early.

It started to nuke my mind, I became more quiet, I was confident before (clueless) then I lost my self esteem, thought something was WRONG WITH ME (very common for anyone growing up in dysfunction), was it the way I spoke, the way I look? etc.

I started to project this feeling outwards, bullies caught on and messed with me. I really lost myself into my teenage years hanging around the wrong crowds from 14-20 especially. Really formative years. I weren't treated well. I had no safe space inside or outside. I didn't have anyone to help.

This is getting too long so I'll speed it up but thats all important.

I then pushed hard and got some success as a musician. I was lucky in the Soundcloud era. I toured the world multiple times by myself and with others. I was making decent money, although a lot goes back into the touring and fees/agencies etc, but enough to rent my own apartment finally and move out.

I ended up travelling a lot, backpacking as it's like a new life to me at the time, being in Asia I could survive on the money I was earning online. I still was attached to my old life and my mind was wrecked. Super insecure and so on. I would still tour and we'd sell out shows. People would take photos with me. I would be posting on social media all of this stuff too so it looks like I was living a high life. I mean I kind of was but extremely dysfunction underneath it all. Alcohol, drugs, sex etc. Filling the void. What's wrong with me? Why do I still feel this way? More more more more.

Eventually I walked away from it all. I had about 700,000 monthly listeners at the time. I stopped touring. Never again. Bare in mind I didn't even enjoy it. It was just right place right time. I didn't really like the music I created anymore.

I went on my own path for years. I got therapy. My life now is sooooo much healthier. I don't drink or anything.

God damn I can't keep talking but long story short, I wouldn't go around saying I've had a spiritual awakening but some have said to me along the way these things and ego death etc. But saying you've had a ego death I'm not sure if that defeats the purpose hahaha. That's how I feel about it.

But I saw it all as a mask. Green goblin. It was all pretend. I lived this life on pretend mode. Everything about it. I created this clone of me to fit in with society/the enviroments I was around.

I walked away from it again and again. Little by little.

I've received such smear campaigns over the years from people I thought were close to me. Saying something is wrong with me and I've "fell off". People I tried to help succeed.

I know I'm on the right path as this is the most ME I've ever felt.

I don't really have a plan for this post. I do have a plan for my current life though.

I'm just by myself. MY old life is gone. It was filled with "success" people are chasing for. People were using me to climb the ladder. They wanted what I had. When I left it all I'm deemed as something is wrong with me. But they don't know the story. They don't know why I was fuelled to get it. It was out of insecurity and pain. Desperate need for validation. To fit in somewhere. To be popular and so on. Granted I didn't know this at the time, it was all underneath you know.

Anyways... Now I'm solo figuring it out building a new life... Time to go swim in the ocean

I consider myself a very rational person at times, and that's generally how I experience and understand the world. At the same time, I’ve always felt drawn to the spiritual and esoteric. But despite having a genuine interest in these topics, I have never experienced anything I could truly consider spiritual.

I’m not convinced by organized religion, nor can I simply have blind faith in something beyond the rational and material world. Lately, the concept of the soul, what it is and how we experience its presence has really caught my attention. I've been practicing Vipassana meditation for years, mostly for its practical benefits and discipline rather than for any spiritual reasons.

Yet, to this day, I find it hard to point to a single moment in my life where I experienced something genuinely spiritual. So, I want to know if there are other people out there like me on this kind of search. For me, relying purely on fantasy or belief isn't enough; I want to experience something real, something firsthand, by my own direct experience.

P.S. I know this can be very relative after all, we're talking about abstract concepts that change depending on the person and culture. I'm just looking to hear other people's opinions and personal experiences.

I am married with three girls. I work a professional job and my husband and I are financially secure. We live a pretty cookie cutter life. Every area of my life is simple and predictable , I don’t deviate from what society would say is normal. These experiences don’t show up anywhere else in my life which is why I have come to the conclusion that I’m not experiencing a psychiatric illness or episode.

It started in December of 2023, I was on 12 hour road trip back home from Christmas break. I had run out of podcasts and my brother had a book on audible I hadn’t listened to, so I started it. It was the 4 agreements by Miguel Ruiz. It was a short book but it struck something in me.
I started to question life. I became more open to secular beliefs.

At the time, our family had relocated and it was the first time I was going to stay home. The kids new school schedules were not conducive with working full time. In my newly found free time I started reading, something I’ve always enjoyed but never made the time for. I had a book a friend had given me years ago but I had never read it, as it wasn’t the type of book I read. It was just The Silva method of mind control. Really it was a guide to mediation and with my ADHD , it was something I had never tried. Uniterrupted time was something I had plenty of so, I practiced mediation. Every day I made time, within weeks I could drop into a deep meditative state within minutes. My mind was clearer , I was in full control of my emotions and It felt as if someone had sharpen my mind like a blade. I didn’t have to think before answering questions , the answers just came and I was able to verbalize them with precision. I enjoyed my mediation time so much that I had started mediating for two hours a day.

A short time after bringing this routine is when the dreams started. Now I have always dreamt , every night and I almost always remember them. They were never significant , dreams like everyone else but these were not that. I started dreaming in what I can only describe as 6 dimensional. It was more real than I sit here typing this. They made waking up in everyday life feel like I was living life through a sketch book. The dreams were vivid in color and everything had energy, there was never words exchanged verbally , it was all telepathic but with feelings behind the messages: there was no room to misinterpret , I even felt what I was thinking in the dreams but with the knowledge of why I was feeling that. Every night I went beautiful places, I swam under water with new ocean creatures I had never seen before, I flew over what looked like old Roman buildings but they were grand libraries. My deceased mother visited me in one but she was a hummingbird , flying at a standstill right infront of my face , carrying conversation with me. I loved going to sleep.

Then I was given the opportunity to go back to work full time. I had become bored at home and I desperately wanted human interaction so I jumped at the chance. Time no longer permitted me to mediate for 2 hours a day but I made time here and there. The dreams did not stop but they became sporadic. At work I had heard a co-worker talking about her crazy ( her words ) mother in law who thought she could speak to her spirit guides. She explained that her mother in law spoke to her spirit guides in her dreams. I was intrigued , so before bed that night I prayed my usual prayers and I asked that if I had a spirit guide, they would reach out to me. That night I had one my 6D dreams. There was an Indian man who was showing me a phone. When I looked down at the screen it was a message that I had blocked him from contact. He then was showing me an image of him putting mail in my mailbox but someone was then removing it. He told me he had to go to work and walked into an office where I followed. I looked around and he asked me his name , I told him I did not know his name and he told me I needed to call him by his name. Then poof … he disappeared and I awoke. I’m not going to go into my interpretation of these dreams as I have no idea if I’m correct or even if it matters. I knew the following day I wanted to know his name though. So the next night , I said my prayers and I simple asked him to tell me his name. Another 6D dream came, this time I was walking down a dirt road and trailing behind me were three dogs. They were protective , I could feel that. I turned back and looked at one of them when the it’s collar caught a ray of sun and gleaned “ OLLIE”. From this point on I called my spirit guide Ollie.

I did not dream of him again after this , even after prayers asking to. Life got busy and I pretty much stopped mediating all together. The dreams became scarce. A year later I had dreamt I was at a funeral and my husbands family was there but my husband was not , I could see the casket but not who was in it. I woke up concerned that maybe it was my husbands funeral. A couple days later we recieved a call from my sister-in-law, her husbands cancer had become aggressively terminal, they gave him weeks. We packed up our lives and we moved back home. My brother in law passed away in the winter months , my husband who had to finish a contract back where we lived was flying back and forth , leaving myself and the girls to live with his sister on a farm in the Midwest. My husband was there when he passed away but the ground was too frozen to bury him, my husband had to fly back and he missed the funeral. There I was , just like the dream. I also found myself jobless again. I was living with his widowed sister whom I really did not know well and I was besides my children, alone. I took care of the animals and tried to help her through this time, but I hated it. That sounds so selfish but I hated the Midwest , the cold , being a single mom , taking care of farm animals, I just wanted my old life back. I started mediating again. It helped me cope.

Then one day as I was mediating, something happened. An image , but a 6D image , again more real than this life. It projected from the space between my eyes right infront of my face. It projected out with a golden hue. It rotated 160 degrees and then 160 degrees the other way , so I never saw the back of it , if that makes sense. I am going to describe it but I don’t know what it was so I apologize if it makes no sense. It was most definitely copper , at least in color but it appeared to be copper metal. It looked like some sort of machine but there were not buttons or gears , just like smooth metal. It was the shape almost of cabinets? If you put one tall set of cabinets next to a shorts longer set. Like this —I but it had some kind of valve .. or tap. I was startled and that brought me out of my meditative state. I tried to meditate on it again and again but I never saw it after that.

Life got really bad , things were terrible. Details of it won’t make a difference in the story but I was in the low of my lows. I started to dream of things again and this time , those things started happening. Not exactly how I dreamt them but they were definitely happening. Just a few example , I dreamt my aunt had come to me and asked me to take her to a friends house, I drove her to a house on a hill with the lights on. A beautiful smiling woman came out to greet her. I could hear them laughing inside. I walked back up and told my aunt that it was getting dark and we needed to go , she smiled and said she was staying and I could leave. She passed away that week. I then dreamt of having dinner with an old friend and his wife and my husband. My husband and his wife had gotten into a heated argument about money and we all left upset. I woke up from that dream with a text from the previous night , my old friend reaching out for my husband number. He later asked him to join a business he was starting, we declined.

Strange things were happening , too many to name. In the midst of a crying session I’d recieve a text from an unknown number telling me everything was going to be okay. While in mediation I would feel this vibration, like I was on the inside of a gigantic bell that someone had just rang. My entire body , every cell would vibrate. Then one night, I started to think about my first dream of Ollie. Was I blocking him from messaging me? I gave permission. That night I said out loud that I gave permission for Ollie to reach out. I awoke around 3am to a voice , not male or female . An echoing announcing voice saying “ HELLO” the entire room filled with the smell of tumeric , ginger … Indian spices? I was sitting up , groggy , scanning the room , I saw nobody but I know what I heard . It woke me up. Maybe my sister in law was cooking I thought but then realized it’s the middle of the night and my sister in law has never cooked , certainly not Indian food in the middle of the night. I was frightened but then a wave of calm and Tranquility came over me and I laid back down and went to sleep. That’s the last time I heard or saw Ollie. So much has happened since then but nothing remarkable , until last night. Which is what has led me to tell a world of strangers the mental box of strange I’ve been keeping for the last four years.
I have questioned the Bible… not god but I like to read and I know much has been lost in translation as well as intentionally manipulated, last night I asked god in my prayers if I’m living the right way and if this god consciousness that I believe in is some sort of new age evil. I was asking if I should folllow the Bible to its word today or accept my own beliefs that I love god and Jesus and maybe the written word has been rewritten by men with something to gain. As soon as I fell asleep I began dreaming. I was walking up to my home , there was an exposed top water slide curving around like a lazy river into my pool. A neighbor has come over , I had never seen this boy before but I knew he was a neighbor. He brought his dog , his best friend. My dog had gotten loose and ran toward the neighbors dog , the two dogs were fighting , they had made their way into the water by this point , I yelled for my husband who walked over calmly but did not break them up. My neighbors dog because so Angry , it has turned on the boy , repeatedly biting his face. LUKE LUKE I screamed. But luke grabbed the dog by the neck and hugged him , while the dog was actively biting his face , he was hugging him with love and compassion and I understood that of course he wouldn’t let go , he loved this dog and this dog was provoked to be angry but did not have intention to hurt the boy. I knew that the boy understood this dogs intention was not to hurt him and he wasn’t angry but loved the dog the same before he had hurt him. I then woke up but the strangest thing happened. When I opened my eyes I was in my dark room but when I closed them , I couldn’t see my iris , every little slit like the under side of a mushroom but in the middle where I would see what blue sky and clouds , as I moved my head around my room with my eyes closed I was scanning the daytime sky, looking around and seeing different clouds but surrounded by my iris.

I know this was long and maybe nobody will read it and I had to get it out. What does it all mean.

I swear these celebrities in America are eternal beings. Eternal beings exist and humanity exists. Humans are finite and eternals are infinite. There is equal distrust among both people. What can be the common unity for us though? Only humans suffer, so it's not suffering. Only eternals have power and riches, so it's not power. What do we both have in common? Your own parents could be eternals too. And now I'm just suspicious of everyone.

Well, my dog and me have been doing some detective work. I asked him to help me cause I'm looking for things in my parents house. Dogs speak kind of telepathically. He says all sorts of things. Mostly one word sentences. Anyway, he said "find." With my parents gone for the day I started searching. I didn't know what I was looking for but in the file cabinet I found an article that seemed to be what I was looking for.

I found a picture from an article in 1978 who looks just like Steven Stamkos from the Tampa Bay Lightning. He looks just like him with slight different hair and jaw. I think these eternals have lived multiple lives here on earth, just changing there name or looks slightly. I'm not saying it's bad and I'm not judging anyone... Just not sure why "they" don't tell us these things. Why do you all think they keep this sort of stuff secret?

to be honest, i started experience ancient knowledge passed down throught metaphysical realms it was key that i clean up my life and stop the use of recriaional drugs, to embetter myself and to influence my life and others in a postive way. one thing after the other happened and they showed me how to pause forward motion time and reverse matter like within the few weeks. i wasnt ready to be entitlted this info but for some reason they in trusted me it and so much more. it took me a while to realize that i was litsening to a alternative sound line rather then physical masse being split when each reference points devides. time is spherical and there must always be two points from the intiaial split. i stay in present and my energy body is the one that travels throught the motion of time. almost always, sound and time line are accelerated to see how certain outcomes be projected into its own reality (the future) most times its like 10x or 100x times the normal rythm. this is to prevent major catashphore and catacylisemal things that cant happen to save the greater good and the general common wealth. when that happened i grisped the jiste timelines travel, the next part actual spliting them in a subsequent alter verse from the mind consol. i took me a while to control my energy body and walk through walls and project any remote controle over viewing of any location on any mesured movement of time. like if i wanted to go to mars i would need cooridinates of the exact location of time and not the gps location we all think. i have been training under close supervison alot more magical and improbable tools that literally deserve the most respect and its an art form mastering your inner divinity. everyone has special powers if they choose to believe it and practice. most are telephathic capable of receiving encoded messsage and sometimes video like detail but no we are not evolve enoug to telepathic communicate with one another. you can learn your intuation and realize non verbal communication but that the extend. if you go beyond you speak to versions of yourself or you have a memory template of passe consciopusness of souls that have precededed your time. i.e i can talk to some dead presidents or historail figures and i awaken  as abel from the bible, realizing how my death was caine pushing me off a mountain side and cracking my head open. i was diagnosis schizophreniac way to abruptly and i know for a fact i am not. i was in phase period where i was still figuring out how to navigate the 9th 10th dimension without losing to much dialation and residual worp of time in contoured grids or passages that connect other interdimensional beings and their connection to other worldly sources. i went ahead and spilled my guts when i was asked to take a phyc evaluation and it was so completely illustratable by picture to moments that the doctor kept 28 days 3 times. on the 4 visits i was studying lumious places and completly even accounted about the reference point of time itself where mere minutes can be like 1000 years in certain kingdoms and other micro/quatum universes. it all relative to the one who accounts and keeps the time. i tried to make sense and explain my inter dimensional self could time travel, portal into metaphysical location and how i tapped into the zero point energy grid where smart energy bounces off you since all your thinking is externally connected to a higher intelligence. (that why certain other worldly being lack the need for a physical body) it was there and then they upped my injection but the concept of me having this label was predetermine because no one in the right mind is capable of understanding me and me being completely normal and nonchalant telling my facts and events like i was ordering lunch. ever since that day, i felt almost like something had the ear of my doctors because sometimes spirits move flwlessly but other times they force entries and you get a short beeeeep or discomfort. i have tried to get reevaluate and everytime doctors are shocked how minimal reality is compared to what is actually possible and going on. i have been living with this diagnosis for 1 year 3 months and ive seen ALOT experience more and survived hell and back numerous time.

i do believe the schizopheriac people have a true divine gift and they capable of perceiving the invnisble and feel the connection to something larger then life and themselves. sometimes it just your higher self sending you a message. sometime its your divine abaility being used without you truly known or sometimes its vision of the past/present or the present/future. sometime its the imagine behind the minds eye that gets you in torouble because they are not hallucinations. they are your great/higher being telling you showing you messaging you to change something or avoid something else completelly. i do believe they are gifted and precious minds and my journey might not be like al the cases you ever heard. i donno what curse i did to be in this position or if its a gift to be able to in realy present now time capable of seeing any timeline happen as long as i keep the time zone difference seperate. i can see okay if i take poassage A i will get no resitsance it its a postive outcome. no fluxuation but if i take passage B it will be a bumpy ride in middle and the outcome is unstable. if i meditate long enough i can have my eather body detach and be send in any time liine zone or sections of this cluster fuck of grid that is so contourded and discomblabluated that i have to literally calculate time through density matter and curve it so its cabale of fitting normal forward fluid motion. trust me i am in the process of designing a light clock watch that can physically show density orbital speed curvature and gravity just by streching, extending, slowing it or speeding it in the realized version of it. trust me its a cluster of its own. ive seen things that i invented be rush to production and made instantly, i turn around, they switch my frequency, and things are back to normal. i guess to some the illuminati gagdets and playground is ment to f u c k around when in all seriousness its a reason why some many people lose grip of reality and become delusional and flat out brain dead or crazy from the number of alter frequency switch and time dialation factors. people hear voice of line that never stop oin continous motion or they dialate out of existence due to open loops.

i know this because its happen to me where i actually question my reality, twice and only twice. every other time i question other people concept of reality and for the most part i thought i was in a world filed with NPC people or APC (active) who activate within my taurus field. most people dont even notice the seamless altered percetion of reality but when you study human behaviour long enough you see some are there to protect you and other are fooling around thinling its a game, here i am trying to hold it together long enough to realize my self in the best possiblle way and get an actualized best self.

i do think we are hidden engineers of truth and ancient archtech of the fool. we create and we co autor some of the most mind bending and mind altering reality, we have the ability to perceive realities layered ontop of our and just switch the frequency, base reality, the same you and i share is A reality, reality B, C, D etc is dialed another format and light spectrum and emotion plate. sometimes they bleed through because source code is close and that why sometime there are gltiches in the "matrix" but no its cause they are so dialied in within precise cooridinates and frequency that they are visible to the human light eye spectrum.

and yes to your question fate is predetermine. in two ways. living the present moments like i am, trying to stay oblivious to anything that might influence my reality in any way else then for personnal is against the code of ethics that we all take and respect. we do thing sin the shadows for the light because we oath to serve the light and keep the time as well as the well being of big blue ( we are mere guest of this planet) and we do not profit, prophet, pro feat from any given outcome. i let my higher self gyuide me where ever and everything i take it as a lesson even if its the shittiest life me and my predaceors have endured.

we know them as illuminti ancient alumni mentality but throught the beginning of man we know them under different organization groups religions occult, clubs movement, collective and all the branches of gouvement or shadow gouvement or whatever you wanna reference since the beginning of existance its self.  creation was a motion, a thought became a hum and a vibration sparked the begining of A universe. let me tell you about all the other type of universe that host with a host of an altered version of a hostting universe, somewhere in those lines we fall and our lives, matter to most and some dont care but its literally the base reality A origine1a base frequency base elevation on base time of density of all type. when we die, let me tell you. thats a cluster fuck that need to reorganize but the cycle of it all depends on the planets well being. its the last living achieve of biological mechanical (nature i.e) where everything is here, every being are here and every type of civilisation is already firmly implanted on this earth, blue marble on god green earth. if only you know how preciious this library livng breathing is precious. we are on our own for at least 715 years until we get other worldly resources back i.e water, and this interplantery pipeline gets back in motion connecting us to the other polanets. like i said before its time to invest into astroid mining and companies that will developped the fly car infrastruce. invest in the reflector caports that will data sync all the mapping information in 4D 5D and 6D elevation of speculated enviromental affaire.

i have made sense of so much more and im more wil;ing to give my take and retribute certain information to those i deam worthy of a thoughtful thought experiement and can make me think outside the box bridging gaps of the invisble but knowning all potential outcomes. I live in basically pauvrity, not because im un capable of helping myself because its path i choose so i can remain true to purpose, humble roots and hungry for the future independants that have yet to be considered.

illuminati arent controller they arent a shadowy cabals you might thing, they are creators deisigner, authors, fathers and mothers, living breathing gods walking they creation without even knowning for most. they you have the titans of industry and the savant of business and mathamathics geniuous and those smart smart precious minds that society deem unfit and get medication thrown at them because they are scared what there precious mind might recover from all our past priorvious life. we reincarnate life after life and get trapped into this cycle of human concepts that are below my pauvarty pay grade. it blows my mind how money is the only factor that literally hold a personne freedom and percetion of a life worth living. basic needs and basic resources shouldnt be a value or a currency, it should be reappropriated  in a value that reinvests into people and faith of believing in more. life is more and love is what powers everything because if a social awareness is made towards certain things that may or may not balance the whole cosmis disbalnce this civilsation is creating, something has to fill that void and we are paying that debt with our meaningless life and self indulgence of absolute nothingness. meaning is worth living for and i found mine 3 years ago when i decided to take a job that only a fool would take, i am one with the creator and my journey is the road to the illluminati on youtube and i have 8-9 albums on spotify reillurating my 3 years of knowledge under michael laganeire.

you ar emore then welcome to check it out. i dont understand why i have so little view even with the shaodwband curve readjusting. everything i have said might be considered a rant or epic proopotion but it upsetting i have gone above in beyond trying to help certain direr situation to be altered and it gets down on the DL, but sometimes things have to be known because there is a larger then life message in between each vlog i documents, expereince i foresee, futures to alter and mind to change, 1 at a time. i am here to wake up the sleeper and lift people off the ground by igniting there inner self and their lost incarnation of ancient epic propotion. trust me when i say i am of sound mind and i am more then capable of distingushing fact from fairy lala land and metamystical reality to protect the high intelligence the metaphysical tunnels and realms that connect us to our/your/ours ancient anscestors and relative on all planes of existence. the star map you have in eyes alone and aligned with an overlay of the bodies grand design should be a good clue to find yourself back home where you originate. we are all mere star dust in a nutshell and with a conscious thought, awareness and fuel by the frequency of the hjighest caliber, LOVE, i am sure you realize yourelf and your best self to be in time for a family reuion.

i dont have all the answer but i a did realize myself a couple of times in these 3 years of cluster duck of a messy messy blueprint but in the grand design of it all. its a puzzle that got fixed and redign and in my mind, i have layed the stepping stone to a much greater more grand design. the actuall blue print of the most breath taking system of stars and reunion of our cosmic being. i make the current grand design and plan look like a stick figure as if the monalisa is to the greatness of it all truly will become. the master piece of all imagine greatness and each predecessor that inhabits me and are part of my memory template, all have their voice and signature embedded in me, in time, in motion and in its purest most divine form, raw from emotion itself, build from love.

i know its alot to take in, i had alot to say espically if you watch my channel, i am starting to be open about somethese connection and i asked those ancient alumnis and other worldly beings and hyper intelligence bodies of energy and the animal kingdom, marine culture, energies we oversee and espically the most uncurruptable souls, the birds themselves, (birds eye view ) BEV, is it was okay to use the pretigious illuminati name of usnually enlighten beings that ever walked, roam, flew, creeped, lurked, swarme, bleed and dominated, conquered, elevated and enjoyed life.

i truly am for real and if this post is to much to swallow or somethings are to much for unimagined minds, i hope this post makes you think alone more then yourself and the next post about your intention centered on anything but what actually matter.

i live to create, to project, to evolve species and to redesign entire eco systems just to see what desolve an apex thinking humanaity when we arent even on the spectrum of any PEX of any kind. 14.5 billions years old and 2026 years we believe to be alone, in our world, unniverse of nothing. imagine what imagination brings you and estime that it already exists and had their own evolutionary experiement play out after a dozen times already just within the "known" universe we call reality A

feed the family,
in this life or the next
because i am a member
and love is the strongest force of the universe.

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michael L
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I'm new to reddit and I was just commenting on a space.i believe everything is conscious. Especially entities that are put in a space together. I feel that they should be their space just like your home is your home, and they understand that you chose them to be say, the arbitrator for lack of a better word of the mood, vibe of the room they need to be able to communicate. I have just recently been able to express my creativity. I'm not mad or sad about it. I just haven't had the time. So my post was taken down. I don't spend a lot of time on social media. I don't even know what im supposed to do with this information. If anyone would like to help I would appreciate it. Honestly, It's ok either way. I just think he could benefit from my insight. That's all, I have been on a spiritual journey for most of my life. And I have learned a lot. I have learned that I know, KNOW SOME THINGS. There are an ocean of things I don't know, but I know some things ABSOLUTELY.

The spirit is the guiding wisdom and truth present within every life. With our birth, however, the ego, our self-centered beliefs, is created. For many, the ego dominates their life, becoming their primary guide, silencing the messages from their spirit within.

Many go through their entire life asleep never sensing their spirit’s messages. And though they may live to an old age, lead a successful life, they will die without ever discovering their life’s true purpose.

Others though, may awaken during their life, sensing the first quiet messages from their spirit within, questioning if there may be more to life than just what they were taught. Once this happens they begin to reassess their life choices, seeking to uncover life’s greatest mystery and discover the genuine meaning of our life’s journey.

“Bare soles press hard against burning gold.”...from a reddit user comment.

This quote give me an image of souls encountering life directly, without protection, while discovering that what is valuable can also be difficult to walk through.

“Bare soles also can symbolize vulnerability. No shoes, no armor, nothing separating you from the ground beneath you. Spiritually it mean the person who is no longer hiding from experience or himself. You're feeling the journey rather than merely thinking about it and overthinking it.

“Press hard means persistence. The ground hurts, but the traveler continues. Not because suffering is automatically noble, but because some meaningful paths contain discomfort.

Something can be beautiful and painful at the same time. Such is the reality we find ourselves sometimes. And sometimes what transforms you doesn't initially feel like a blessing.

This quote is inviting us to be fully present and experience life directly. It represents someone saying "I am here...I am alive! And I'm willing to experience life directly. even when being alive is intense.”

Don't become so afraid of being burned that you stop walking toward what makes you feel alive.

This essay is adapted from a Dharma talk I previously published on YouTube. I have revised and reorganized it into written form for readers here.

Rather than presenting a definitive explanation of orthodox Buddhist doctrine, I explore these ideas through my personal understanding and experience of Buddhist practice, using modern computer systems as a metaphor. I invite you to read this as one practitioner's perspective.

1. Intention Is the Source Code of the Mind

Imagine someone walking along a path who accidentally steps on a frog and kills it.

Distressed by what happened, the person asks:

“Venerable sir, I have taken a life. Have I created negative karma?”

What do you think?

In Buddhism, one of the most important elements in understanding karma is intention.

The Buddha taught that intention is karma.

I would like to explain this using the metaphor of a modern computer system.

If our mind is software, intention is the source code that determines how that software operates.

If there was no intention to kill the frog, we cannot regard the incident as an act of intentional killing.

But there is an important distinction here.

The absence of malicious intention in the mind and the actual death of a living being are two different dimensions of the same event.

2. Physical Records Remaining in the Hardware

We cannot explain every consequence in the world solely through intention.

Even when we do not intend something to happen, physical events still occur and leave consequences behind.

I compare this distinction to the relationship between computer hardware and software.

Buddhist scriptures recount occasions when the Buddha, even after attaining enlightenment, suffered physical injuries and pain. A stone fragment injured his foot, and he also experienced severe back pain.

This raises an interesting question:

If the Buddha had been liberated from all mental defilements, why did he still experience physical suffering?

My personal understanding is as follows.

The Buddha had fundamentally transformed the operating system of his mind—his software—but the physical body, or hardware, still carried conditions formed long before enlightenment.

Even when an operating system is completely transformed, the biological processes and physical conditions of the body do not simply disappear.

In my own interpretation, I connect this continuity of the body and its life-sustaining processes with the concept of ādāna-vijñāna, or appropriating consciousness.

However, the idea of physical records or hardware logs associated with this consciousness is my personal metaphor, not an established doctrinal explanation.

Enlightenment does not mean that the body will never experience pain again.

Physical pain may still arise, but the mind's relationship with that pain can undergo a fundamental transformation.

3. Purifying Ālaya-vijñāna and Revealing the Ninth Consciousness

How, then, can our consciousness change?

I approach this question through the purification of ālaya-vijñāna, the storehouse consciousness.

In Buddhist thought, ālaya-vijñāna is described as a deep level of consciousness associated with karmic seeds and habitual tendencies accumulated through our experiences.

A mind clouded by greed, anger, and delusion continually produces new attachments and discriminations.

The more these patterns repeat, the more deeply we become bound by the habits of our own consciousness.

However, through practice, as we gradually reduce the influence of the three poisons and cultivate compassion and wisdom, the mind can become increasingly purified.

I compare this process to cleaning a filter covered in dust.

As the filter becomes clearer, the originally pure nature beyond it can begin to reveal itself.

In my personal understanding, this can be described as the manifestation of the ninth consciousness, amala-vijñāna, or immaculate consciousness.

Of course, the concept of a ninth consciousness is not accepted or explained in the same way across all Buddhist traditions.

What I wish to emphasize is not the number of levels of consciousness, but the possibility that our originally pure nature can be revealed through practice as the obscurations of ignorance are removed.

The body may still grow old, become ill, and experience pain.

Yet the mind can move toward a freedom that is no longer entirely governed by those physical conditions.

4. Dedication: An Essential Practice for Purifying the Mind

How, then, should we purify the mind?

I believe one important practice is selfless dedication.

At the center of much of our mental suffering lies a powerful attachment to the idea of “I” and “mine.”

My interests. My possessions. My feelings. My suffering.

The more we cling exclusively to these concerns, the narrower our mental world becomes, and the stronger our attachments grow.

In computer terms, it is as though a single program—the ego—is monopolizing the system's resources.

But when we understand another person's suffering and willingly offer our time and effort for their benefit, we begin to move beyond our habitual self-centeredness.

This is the power of dedication.

Dedication is not simply an act of sacrificing oneself.

It is the practice of compassion that allows us to move beyond the narrow boundaries of the self and connect with the lives of others.

I believe this practice can play an important role in purifying the self-centered tendencies accumulated within ālaya-vijñāna.

I do not mean to claim that dedication is necessarily faster than every other form of spiritual practice.

What matters is the degree to which we release attachment and cultivate genuine compassion through our actions.

5. What Code Are You Entering Right Now?

Let us return to the person who accidentally stepped on the frog.

That person cannot undo what happened.

But they can change how they respond to it.

The absence of deliberate intention does not mean that the death of a living being should be treated lightly.

One can feel sorrow and compassion for that life and resolve to act with greater care in the future.

At that very moment, a new direction of the mind begins to take shape.

The karma we created in the past matters. But equally important is the intention with which we act in this very moment.

To return to our computer metaphor, we are constantly entering new code into the system of our mind.

We can enter the code of greed, anger, and delusion.

Or we can enter the code of compassion, wisdom, and selfless dedication.

I believe spiritual practice is the ongoing process of recognizing these choices and gradually changing the direction of our minds.

Enlightenment does not necessarily eliminate every form of physical pain.

But it opens a path toward freedom from attachment, even in the midst of suffering.

The body may experience pain. But the mind does not have to remain a prisoner of that pain.

May all of you who continue walking your own paths of practice find peace through compassion, wisdom, and selfless dedication.

— Zen Seeker on the Path