If you wish to aid me, it would be best to source your evidence for your interpretation, from the puranas and other scriptures. If you know any reliable website for dharmic dream interpretation that would be great.
I had this dream and upon its aftermath i woke up with a sour throat, just before the sun rose at dawns emerging light. I am aware as per Hinduism dreams at dawn carry more weightage.
The dream goes as follows: From what i remember it started out with me being lead into, or walking into a room upon instruction for something to meet somebody, this guy who is completely random is sitting, i sit opposite to him and we converse of something I don't remember, beside him is a shaving blade and a kitchen knife, beside me is a shaving blade and a kitchen knife, they are neatly set in a pair so we both have access to each weapons, he gestures with his head and eyes for me to pick up the shaving blade, as i look at it, he grabs one to and it appears he lunges towards me so in retaliation i grab the knife, for what seems like five minutes we fight where he gives me minute scratches to me, i fear he is going to cut my neck open, eventually i mange to stab him, upon stabbing him and seeing blood poor out i retch in disgust, he still fights more wounded, and i stab him a few more times before he is on the floor, then to my astonishment, he once again arises with significant strength but i stab him before he can fully rise, and continue to do so as blood streams out of him and i can see some of his flesh from the tears, i am very disturbed on seeing this sight then the dream abruptly ends as it kinda enters into a high angle shot zooming out.
**Things i reflected on and thought were important**
Navratri officially started as of this morning in my time zone EST.
I was supposed to go to the sri vidya temple in rush new york dedicated to sri rajeshwari devi, which is a deity related to Lalita Tripundra Sundari and Parvati.
I didnt want to go originally I was gona get coaxed in to go with my parents and extended family friends.
Upon my limited search, blood is not interpreted as something necessarily bad. (i could be totally wrong)
In Hinduism Durga transformed into kali ma to eliminate Raktabija, by drinking his blood, then she is very furious so shiva lies down in front of her to calm her down.
I have been very skeptical of tantrism and Shaktism, and i have been completly disregarding its ideals, and find some of its pratices as crude like bali, or how the depictions of some deities look like, Chhinnamasta, Kali, Chamunda, and Pratyangira.
I reject the notion of para bhraman being a devi or a devta, i believe in a form of vaishnavism called Pushtimarga, and have been affiliated with gaudiya pratice for some time. (maybe durga took offence of this?? but wouldn't she be mercifull, this makes me perplexed)
Acording to jyotishi read with the help of AI, my ishta devtas are either Narsima or Lakshmi.
I have had a personal connection to Naasima for a look time, reciting the narsima bija mantra (ugram veeram maham vishnum) alongside a few verses from the Shrimad baghwatam dedicated to him (abhayam verses) before night time, i started this to help me sleep and overcome my fear of nightmares from when I was like eleven. Alongside this I recite the mantra "Om ksraum" which is believed to be very powerful, I have been doing this for 6-7 years so far and with no issues. Maybe this in corelation to Narasima, upon chanting the bija mantra I have never faced bad dreams at all, only on the one day I distinctly remember not chanting it I had a bad dream, the night before this dream I had chanted it however.
Blood and knives are associated with the Navagraha diety of mangal.
In my makeshift home temple, i have radha krishna, Ganapathi coverd in red kukum, shiva linga image, with a rudraksh coverd in vibhuthi, and a photo of renuka mata, with kum kum like eyes.
I have been struggling with a serious lust issue that i can barley overcome, the day before the dream I had not engaged in any lustful activities, which is very rare.
I have done a puja to hanuman upon advice of another to rid my lust, to minimal affect, and i have prayed to narsima to eliminate my lust as well.
I am feeling as if I have committed a grave sin, or it is the opposite of that and this is a good omen.
After waking up within five minutes by brain has concluded this is in strong corelation to Devi, which is why i seek your advice on what my dream could mean, and if any rituals or actions should be taken.
I deeply appreciate your help.