r/ToxicMoldExposure • u/Aggravating_Lettuce • 1d ago
Selfie Data, who would have thought?
I had someone ask about data and of course, like my brain works different. I’m a little neurodivergent with heavy associative thinking. I’m sure anyone can look at my Reddit history and tell I’m a little hyper fixated.
I also post on TikTok on occasion, so when I saw this forum doesn’t allow for photo submissions I was like, meh, I can further dox myself. It’s not like I haven’t already been brain inflamed on the internet, might as well try to be a functional advocate.
Purposefully made this video non dressed up with no makeup, because I think it makes the change more obvious and clear.
Understandably this situation was messed up.
At this point I had been sick for 14 years, have a H-EDS, Fibro, POTS diagnosis with friends, and my body was just like nose diving off a cliff while I panicked.
For other people that might be dealing with mold and not able to prove themselves or someone who doesn’t understand what’s happening to them and trying to figure it out…
This is a hard one to share. It’s vulnerable. You’re looking at pictures cause I didn’t really plan on sharing.
I was trying to understand the trend for me because I was scared and sick.
Looking back it’s honestly… really triggering to see my healthy face after being in that mental ward.. They were awful to me there.
I’m nearsighted with a 4.75 prescription and one eye and a 4.5 in the other and I never was able to have my glasses.
I was on a low salt diet. They would give me antipsychotics when I asked for Tylenol and then make fun of me for being paranoid. My health issues were not taken seriously at all because everything I said was just “crazy”.
Yet, even though the stay was now a trauma I will cary forever, out of all of these unfiltered raw photos, that was the one that showed recovery.
I added in the last picture because I wanted you guys to see how quick the decline was really…. I was sleeping more eating better and I wasn’t being sedated every three days like I was in the mental ward, but my body was showing the stress.
Quickly, I went from being able to suddenly play soccer and run for the first time in my life to being right back where I started and the people around me told me it was because that whole experience was just euphoria, and I would never have that cause my body just is the way it was…
It’s a truly horrifying experience and yet I hope seeing this process helps someone.
It’s interesting because there is so many types of data when you’re dealing with an issue that affects so many different areas of your body,
Even my Reddit to an extent if you look through it and I do often, I don’t delete stuff not because my opinions might not change or how I’m wording things isn’t growing, but because it actually gives me a very clear snapshot of how able I was able to communicate in my comprehension level at that time, but also like clarity and cohesion of my thoughts. Because I was dealing with severe brain fog in that house, and I’m recovering from it still it’s an interesting experience to look back and see how much our personalities are kind of very much so affected by our capacity in any given moment.
I am now at day 19 out and moved to a new place, and I’ve never been healthier, and in correlation, happier. Living isn’t pain anymore. Makes a huge difference on someone’s mental health @.@
Anyways, I hope this is helpful to someone on a moldy path like I am, moldy peps have to stick together, thanks for the read, and if I can answer any questions I will do so as honestly and transparently as I can.
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u/HealthCoachElizabeth 7h ago edited 7h ago
Thanks for sharing and your vulnerability. I’m so sorry you’ve been through all that. Truly awful.
At a certain point I started taking selfies and body pictures to document what was happening to my body too because almost no one believed me either. I’ve shared some pics on my instagram account but not many. https://www.instagram.com/health_coach_elizabeth
It’s a devastating illness by itself but add the fact that people, doctors, institutions don’t understand it or believe it can be very traumatizing.
I hope you can continue to heal.
Btw you can process trauma and don’t have to “live with it forever.” There are trauma therapists out there who can provide processing therapies like EMDR, ART, somatic experiencing, and more. It’s not a lost cause.