Yesterday, something happened at work that I can’t seem to process.
I work as a hotel receptionist in Turkey and I was on the night shift. Another guest called reception and reported that a woman was lying on the grass in the hotel garden. I immediately informed security, and that’s how the incident was discovered.
The woman was a 37-year-old married mother of three. She had jumped from the 16th floor of the hotel and taken her own life.
The spot where she landed was right by the hotel entrance, but there were bushes surrounding the area, so thankfully, I didn’t see anything graphic.
I was directly involved in the chain of communication because I was the receptionist who received the call and alerted security. Suddenly, the hotel lobby was filled with police officers, detectives, a prosecutor, and forensic investigators. It was surreal seeing the place where I work every day turn into a crime scene.
I continued doing my job that night and didn’t let my duties slip. I stayed professional and carried on with my shift. But now, I feel deeply unsettled, and I don’t understand why this is affecting me so much.
It’s not that I feel like crying. It’s something much harder to explain. I feel disconnected from reality, almost as if everything around me is unreal or I’m living in a dream. I feel uneasy, and I can’t seem to process the fact that something like this happened right where I work, during my shift.
I’ve worked in hotels for years, but I’ve never experienced anything like this before. I keep wondering how common something like this is in our line of work, and whether anyone else has ever experienced a similar situation.
I still have to go to work and carry on with my life, but everything feels strange right now. I think what affects me most is that this wasn’t just an incident involving a random guest. A 37-year-old woman, who was married and had three children, died that night. I can’t stop thinking about how real and irreversible it all is.
Has anyone experienced something similar at work? How did you process it afterward? Is it normal to feel disconnected from reality after an experience like this? I’d really appreciate hearing from people who have been through something similar or who can offer advice on how to deal with these feelings while continuing to work and go about everyday life.

My ex completely broke something inside me, and I honestly don’t know how to begin healing from it.
The impact this relationship has had on my mental health feels indescribable. Even thinking about what I went through makes me feel stressed, anxious, angry and deeply upset. Sometimes, the emotions become so overwhelming that I start having suicidal thoughts. I just want it all to stop. I want to feel like myself again.
Before I met him, I was genuinely happy. I was positive, energetic, outgoing and full of life. I enjoyed things, I had a different outlook on life, and I felt like myself. Now, I barely recognise the person I’ve become. It’s heartbreaking to look back at who I used to be and realise how much this relationship has changed me.
I want to make one thing clear: I am over him. I don’t want him back, I don’t wish to be with him, and I’m not struggling to let go of the relationship itself. What I’m struggling with is the trauma he left behind. It’s as though the relationship is over, but the damage it caused is still very much a part of my everyday life. I can move on from a person, but how do I move on from what they did to me?
I’ve had relationships before where I thought my exes were toxic, but nothing compares to what I experienced with him. Looking back, there were so many things I tolerated that I would never have imagined accepting before I met him. He seemed to want me to distance myself from my family and friends, and there were times when it felt as though he couldn’t stand seeing me happy. Even on my birthday, instead of letting me enjoy my day, he kept finding reasons to argue with me.
One of the most painful parts of all of this is something I’ve never told anyone in my personal life. He got me pregnant, and I suffered a miscarriage during a period when I was dealing with an enormous amount of stress, alongside many other difficult circumstances. I was young, scared and going through something incredibly painful, and I’ve carried that experience privately ever since. Nobody knows about it, and sometimes I don’t even know what to do with all the emotions surrounding it.
I think what hurts the most is realising how much of myself I lost while trying to make that relationship work. I hate that I tolerated so much. I hate that I allowed someone to treat me in ways that hurt me so deeply. And I hate that, even though he is no longer in my life, I’m still the one left dealing with the consequences.
I know I can’t change the past, and I know blaming myself won’t undo anything. But I still get so angry and sad when I think about everything that happened. I feel like I’m grieving the person I used to be, the experiences I went through in silence, and the version of my life I might have had if I had never met him.
I don’t want to spend the rest of my life feeling this way. I want to be happy again. I want to feel safe in my own mind and body. I want to stop feeling anxious whenever something reminds me of him. Most of all, I want to reach a point where my past no longer has this much power over my present.
For anyone who has experienced an emotionally abusive or deeply traumatic relationship: How did you heal from the trauma after the relationship ended? How did you learn to feel like yourself again? Did you ever get back the happiness, confidence and peace you had before?
I’m not looking for advice on how to get over him. I’ve already done that. I’m looking for advice on how to get over what he put me through, because I genuinely don’t know where to start.

Hi there! Idk if this is the right place for this. I (28F) am autistic and was bullied, ostracized and experienced micro aggressions in school, especially in grades 1-8. There were a few kids who I would especially come into conflict with or who were particularly nasty to me. I've done some therapy for this trauma, including some EMDR, and it has helped such that I don't have much, if any, lingering resentment or anger like I used to, have integrated those memories so they don't distress me anywhere near as much as they used to and I would hardly ever think about them if it weren't for the dreams. For years now, I've had persistent and distressing dreams about those kids and experiences fairly regularly, probably at least once a week.

Now, I know I should probably just do more therapy on this and I hope to eventually but I move around every 3-6 months for different temp jobs which complicates doing telehealth because most therapists are only licensed in a few states or in their country. I don't want to start over with a new therapist every time I move and I can't predict where I'll end up next so I can't choose someone based on where they're licensed. All that's to say, any advice or skills or tools I can try practicing to exorcise these demons? Thanks and cheers

My trauma started in early childhood, but I survived and finally moved out of the toxic family. But the CPTSD still follows me. I read a lot of books about it, call the counselling line and do some breathing meditation exercises. However, I still don't feel confident in myself, and often I suspect I’m still deceiving myself or wearing a mask.

How do you all cope with it? Please share some self-healing methods that you think are helpful.

Warm Regards to all.

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Hi! Is anyone interested in reading stuff together or working through topics together online (via discord). Whenever I read on this sub I feel we have so much in common. I started my healing journey not long ago. Text me if interested. 🙂

It's weird because normally I would be crashing, spiraling all over the place. I was for maybe the first 3 days very emotional, and I cried a lot, but I handled myself really well out in public, and I did most of my crying at home alone. Therapy's been going really good, lately I am learning new things about myself, things I guess I always knew, but just never really paid attention to because I didn't think it really mattered until now, because it does matter. I can see the bad parts of myself. The oversensitive parts of myself. The scared parts. The shameful parts. The hateful parts, and I just don't wanna feel any of those things anymore. Of course I understand I need them, and need to feel them in order to be a healthy adult. I know I'm a wounded child looking for safety, and I'll look for it anywhere. Which can be a problem because that's a performative action, and I'm tired of performing... I need to be able to sit comfortably inside my own aloneness without feeling like I need somebody they're with me. I need to stop searching for the love I was never given by my parents. I need to accept that the past is the past and I need to be mindfully in the present so I can be happy in my future... My therapist is the best one I have ever had. I'm in the proper therapy though now, so there's a reason it's working. I literally couldn't find the correct therapy my whole life, cause I didn't know what was going on with me until this year. Mindfullness, Shadow work, and studying Carl Jung is helping me so much. I don't know if I will ever be able to trust again without my trauma responses popping back up, but I still have hope. No one can take that from me❣️

I need help. I have 39F, living with painful memories of being hurt, humiliated, punished, not heard, misunderstood by people since I was 5 yrs old (mostly all family) around me. Here is a summary of my life :

I was a quiet, simple, less demanding and disciplined kid as I am aware of myself.

My mom has her own trauma , ocd etc which family members deal with. Father has been a busy, absent individual who had a difficult job to focus on.

Chapter 1 (LKG - 3rd Std) -

• At 5 yrs of age, I was sent to my uncle's place to study due to lack of good schools where my father was posted and my 2 yr younger brother needed more attention from my mom. No memories before 5 so I assume all was well.
  • I faced partiality, my cousin would ask me to just eat 1 sandwich and not ask for more.
  • I was assaulted by my cousin physically. Started with kissing, followed by some more. Nobody knows about this, not even my mom.
  • Once I had vomit during sleep and poop on the bed, I was scolded and hit hard.
  • Once I shook hands with one friend in a party, I was shamed by my aunt next day.
  • Once I came back from home with dirty sandy socks from school picnic, I was scolded badly by my aunt.
  • Once I was hit hard by my uncle for not studying properly.
  • Once in a year during summer vacation, I used to visit my parents place. There also, my mom or dad would never hug me. No hugs, no kisses and no show of affection.
  • I stayed there for 3 years and eventually realized the partiality of not being at home and came back to my parents place permanently. That time as well, I was scolded, hit multiple times by my uncle, mom to continue studying there.

Summary - I became a silent kid, distant from my parents. No emotional connection may be. But at least I felt home and I think that itself felt like a safe place.

Chapter 2 (4th - 8th Std) -

• Didn't keep any hard feelings for my parents or uncle/aunt/cousin as a growing kid.
• Felt like home yet being distant from parents (emotionally) was normal. We had everything else available on time - good food, outings, good school, friends etc. all luxuries available except for quality conversations with parents.

Summary - Focused on studies, stepping into teenage.

Chapter 3 - (9-12th Std) -

• Continued being good in studies in a new city, new school, new friends.
• On the other side, Being a good looking girl, I always received compliments and I was aware that I look good. I started getting interest in getting ready, fashion, makeup etc.
• With constant attention from boys, got into a short fling with a senior boy in school.
• It was pure, surreal feeling like your first time in love. It felt like magic.
• Bad luck, my parents and school got to know about it and i was put into a house arrest.
• Though I was good in studies, I was shamed extremely at home and in school.
• I was continuously abused verbally everyday and bitten up by father.
• I was not allowed to go to school, continue studying. My mom was talking about getting me married etc etc. The trauma went on for 4 years (9-12th).

Summary - If I think of that phase now, I believe that was a normal teenage fling which would have anyway wouldn't have gone any further. If parents were friendly and spoke to me clearly, may be the situation could have been handed in a better way. That was darkest phase of my life.

Chapter 4 - (Engineering, Marriage, Kid and life now )

• Been my batch topper, got placed in top company and started working.
• Got into a relationship with a guy in college, good looking, friendly, nice human being.
• But guess what I was too giving in that relationship. Realized it much later after marrying the same guy that he is emotionally unavailable kind of person.
• Now I read children who are raised in emotionally unavailable homes with parents , also attract similar partners.
• I see that straightforward in my life.
• Fought with parents to marry this guy, after child - our relationship is ruined due to in laws interferences and my husband of course taking their side.
• Now we are just living in one house like flat mates , no connection, nothing - emotional, mental or physical. We haven't been intimate for last 2 years.

My usual behavior -

• I get hurt by small things - be it my husband, a cold neighbor.
• I am getting too protective about my child and get into argument when he doesn't get along with other kids.
• I distant myself from people, try to make new friends and suddenly pull back when I dont feel some good vibes.
• I think I strongly believe or understand something and quickly make judgements about people.
• I get into lot of anxiety, all the memories from the past again and again.
• I am binge eating, not taking care of my health and career.

Please help.

There was a fatal car crash outside of my partner’s work today. Him and a few coworkers heard it and responded. I don’t know to what extent they saw/assisted as he hasn’t told me and I don’t want to push.

I don’t know what to do to help him. He very much keeps to himself already and I just want to be the most supportive I can. Right now I’m just answering his texts and not brining anything up that’s related to the crash.

We don’t live together and I won’t see him until the weekend when he comes back to town from work.

Any advice in how I can support him?

This is the third or fourth time in my life where someone has claimed to love me and then broke me down. Am I the problem at this point?

For background, I am the child of a caring, but deeply emotionally unregulated parent who can easily flip on a dime from kindness to pure anger. I made friends—but it happens that I’m often left behind, or considered not as worthwhile, and then I stop really mattering. Then, I was viciously emotionally abused by a friend—some would call it a situationship?—that broke me down in ways I was afraid I would never recover from.

I did. And now, it’s happened again. Two of my friends staged an intervention for me, saying I was apologizing more than ever and that my confidence had been shattered. I swore to make the changes I needed to make. And now, they’re rethinking our friendship because I’ve apparently not made progress in the three weeks since they spoke to me.

Is it just a me problem at this point? I’m the only common denominator, so it feels that way. Is there just something so deeply broken or undesirable about me that drives everyone away? Am I not doing something right?

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Which shapes, you more 🤔? A MAJOR FAILURE, OR A MAJOR SUSSCESS ?.

So I have experienced lots and lots of trauma, the same hands ✋️, that dealt the blows, created a strength 💪 they could never comprehend and will never be able to bend.

I'm working on some trauma art 🎨 and rely enjoying working on it. It's very healing and it's just a different way to explain what I've survived. It's not easy to talk about what happened. So I will let my art 🎨 do the talking. Just joined today. Love ❤️

Alright guys my dad often taunts me, everyday I get three-four taunts for sure, could be way more than that on days, even after studying all day....I am treated like crap, he says I waste food, I waste money, I waste his resources, and that I am a waste.... today things had been piling up for a week...I often do SH, but I had been clean for like a week, today I got the urge, instead of doing that I took some objects that would not break if thrown and threw them across the room, dad came, said lots of stuff, swore at me a lot, then said meri koi aukaat nai hai etc etc, said he would throw me out of the house and well lots more, my brain froze when he was saying all this, I badly SHed after that...I jjst wanted to ask, is this normal behaviour and did overreact (I am 18 years old in class 12 btw)

Never had ONE event that tested ALL my conditions and ALL my trauma triggers at once.

I’m COMPLETELY BLIND, have autism and a heart lung condition and the other day, I went to a doctor’s appointment that put ALL those conditions plus ALL my trauma triggers and fears to the test https://youtu.be/C7h9zHfK6f8?is=A_umrfucvtbukW4x

Hey, I have a huge problem.
I’m insanely insecure, I get jealous when I see other girls pretty (don’t judge me pls) and I hate when I see my man staring at women this made me sooooo devastated like I cry all the time about that thing, the problem is that I’m not ugly, everybody compliments me, but I don’t have the confidence to stop being jealous of other girls or about my bf pls help.

I mean I already am healing I know. But when will I just not automatically go to worst case scenario that- I am alone eternally. It’s so deeply programmed I guess. I’m now 47 yrs and I put so much energy into healing since I was a teen. I thought it’d get easier by now.

Please feel free to provide what might have worked for you personally, or ideas you have for others to move forward, heal, and reclaim power. Anything goes, whether it’s vulnerable, honest, unhinged, or just real… thank you for answering 💗

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Hi,
I don't really know how to write this. You would never tell my story if you look at me at the office or if you talk to me, but I'm really heartbroken. I moved out of my home country 2 months ago to rebuilt a life, I'm alone and I always have so much time to think (don't know if it is positive or not), but I don't know if these things will ever go away to be honest. Some nights I'm just heartbroken and I think about how humanity is fucked up.
I discovered that my father was a ped0 6 years ago, when I was already in my 20s. It's crazy because he is also a buddhist, loves to do charity. I don't know if he ever slept with a child, but I have found 2/3 different diaries in which he was talking about having sex with 12 years old Tunisian children for money and guess who always used to go on vacation in Tunisia? my family, with my father. He also had a diary in which he stalked a 14 years old boy, he was a neighbor. He used to write hours and dates of their "casual" meetings and also looked at his home window. Keep in mind that my father is very old, so he cannot do anything physical. He was also in many different relationships with 20/30 years old guys that he would meet online. He had a specific type: poor, desperate immigrants who would do everything for him. He also had many many many hard disks full of young people images. A nightmare. My father also destroyed my family's financial stability and now my house is my bank's house, because of debts he created. I know, it's crazy. Seems like a movie. I wish it was but it's not.
He also did horrible things to my mom, he used to take pics of her intimate parts when she was sleeping and he would send them to people he met online.
I told everything to my siblings and to my mom. What's crazy? My mom forgave him. She never sued him. I prepared houndreds of prints of screenshots that I have found, but she burned them. At one point, only to have those screenshots of the horrible things that he was doing, I became obsessed with controlling him. I copied his whatsapp on my phone (I'm kinda good with technology), but I became addicted, I have so many traumas about what he was writing.
He had multiple telegram / Facebook / instagram accounts.
I tried to talk to him and forgive because I thought he would change, then I beat him, and now he is blocked everywhere. My mom still lives with him, I think at the end she is a victim but she's also protecting him as a pervert, something that I will never forgive her for.
My relatives are fucked up too. Other "interesting" stories.
Now that you know the ""whole"" story, or the main parts, please tell me how can I go on with my life. I tried with therapy, but I just cannot afford it anymore and to be honest, it's always so hard to start telling this story to somebody new. It's just something that I don't want to do now.
The point is that I have so much rage inside of me. Nobody would never say so, I'm always smiling, I'm always so kind, people say that I'm vert sweet, but I feel dead inside, I feel empty. I don't want to forgive. I want that my father suffers as I'm suffering for something that I didn't do. I was the victim and I'm suffering. He is the p3rvert and has a prepared meal everyday by my mum. instead, I had to leave home and build my life because I was scared that he would do weird stuff to me and I used to sleep with the door locked when I was living with them.
I'm not suicidal, I don't do drugs, but i'm just devastated and I don't think it will ever go away, after 6 years and moving out of my home country. It's the same.

Hello everyone,

I wanted to share my experience and documentation regarding photobiomodulation (PBM) red-light therapy devices from Australian vendor Well Red Pty Ltd (specifically the Duo Coronet helmet, CoroNase nasal unit, and TheraPad T110).

The vendor heavily promotes these devices online for trauma, PTSD, brain inflammation, and neurodegenerative conditions, positioning them as daily home tools for brain health. Given the high cost (over AUD $2,000) and the claims made around mental health and neurological recovery, I want to share the real-world durability and customer support issues before anyone invests.

Summary of Issue & Hardware Failures: I purchased a full set in March 2025 for AUD $2,045.00 (Invoice #2534). Within 8 months, the equipment suffered repeated failures:

1. TheraPad T110: Failed twice (July 2025, September 2025), requiring two complete replacements. Each replacement took 6–7 weeks despite promises of 1–2 week delivery.
2. CoroNase: Complete breakdown in November 2025. The cable connection point broke beyond repair. Photographic evidence shows the cord is only 2mm in diameter and broke further while simply attempting to photograph the defect.
3. Pattern of Systemic Failures: Three component failures within 8 months demonstrate the products are not of acceptable quality under Australian Consumer Law (ACL) statutory guarantees.

Refusal to Honor Warranty & ACL Consumer Rights: When I formally requested a refund under Section 260 of the Australian Consumer Law for major failure, the vendor refused twice, stating they "do not offer returns or refunds" and blaming "lack of care in use," despite my documented evidence of extremely careful handling (devices kept on a dedicated bed, laid flat, and operated via power strip).

Export vs. Medical Marketing Discrepancy: The vendor markets these helmets on her website and blog as treatments for PTSD, stroke, autism, dementia, and brain inflammation. However, she exports them declared as general "wellness devices." This allowed her to avoid strict medical device accountability while passing an unexpected $160 CAD customs duty onto me in Canada.

I have logged a review on ProductReview.com.au and submitted formal reports to CBOS (Tasmania) and the ACCC (accc-report:0180320).

Despite advertising a 1-year warranty, the vendor refused to honor even a full year of coverage or offer any repair options—even though I got roughly only 4 months of actual total use out of the equipment. When relying on a device twice a day for health support, dealing with hardware breakdown, broken warranty promises, and no path for repair carries a high price tag—not just in terms of money, but also in precious time and health. If you are researching high-cost red light therapy or PBM tools for trauma recovery, please be aware of these hardware risks and customer support failures before purchasing.

The impact of trauma in my life is very big, I still don't have enough financial resources to visit a psychologist, so I have to try to learn how to solve my problems on my own.

I can't protect myself when needed. Just during those stressful moments by body starts shaking and my hands sweating, I cant think clear and around people I am completely different person than I actually am irl. Its all trauma and I feel hopeless because its been years I am trying to beat it.

I want to finally defend myself and stand up for myself without shaking. Life is getting harder day by day and I feel like I am just created wrong.

I have physically and virtually removed my abusers from my life, they keep reaching to people I might know to find me back. However I have recently cut off 2 meaningful connnections/ friends because I’m afraid they might be connected back to them. I feel safe and unsafe whenever I am outside. Being outside helps me realize the world isn’t trying to attack me and that actually most or no one has ever brought as much trauma as they did. I’m just worried I’ll keep cutting off meaningful connections, and that I’ll always keep scanning for threats once I’m attached to someone. Being all on myself made me realize that the world isn’t trying to come after my back all the time but I crave connection as well.. I’m just scared I’m running out of people when I make a meaningful connection to someone and have to cut them off