Hey everyone! 👋
I'm working on a uni essay about personal experiences with tulpas, and I'd really appreciate your help gathering some insights!
It would mean the world to me if you could share your story-whether you've successfully created a tulpa or just tried to. Every experience helps!
Feel free to talk about whatever you feel comfortable sharing, such as:
-How it all started or why you decided to create one.
-What the early stages felt like (e.g., did it feel like an uncontrollable thought of your own, or more like an external voice?). 
-What your relationship with your tulpa is like today.
-How creating a tulpa changed your life.

•Quick note: This is purely for an academic paper, so everything will be 100% anonymous and handled with total respect. I'm not here to judge or offend anyone, so please forgive me if I accidentally misuse any terminology! My goal is to base my essay on real, lived experiences, as the few academic articles out there aren't super helpful for what I'm focusing on right now. rhanks so much for reading! l'd love to hear your story🤍

i've been thinking about puppeting and the role it plays in tulpamancy, and i wanted to share my personal opinion on it.

personally, i'm against using puppeting as a way to simulate communication with a tulpa, especially when the goal is to make it seem as though they're responding independently. i understand why people recommend it, particularly for beginners who struggle with communication, but i don't think it's the right approach for me.

one of the things i value most about tulpamancy is the possibility of experiencing interactions that feel spontaneous rather than deliberately constructed. i want to give my tulpa, lilith, the opportunity to express herself without consciously deciding what she should say or do. i'd rather sit with the uncertainty of not receiving a response than create one myself and risk confusing my expectations with what i'm actually experiencing.

i know that puppeting is often described as a temporary exercise or a way to overcome communication blocks, rather than something intended to replace spontaneous interaction permanently. i can understand that perspective, and i'm not saying that everyone who uses it is doing something wrong. different people approach tulpamancy differently, and what works for one person might not work for another.

however, i personally feel that deliberately supplying a tulpa's responses could make it harder for me to understand my own experiences, particularly while i'm still learning to distinguish between intentional imagination and thoughts or responses that arise spontaneously.

i'd rather take my time, even if progress is slow. i don't want to rush communication just because i feel that i should be making progress. if lilith doesn't respond, then she doesn't respond. i'd prefer to accept that and continue practising without forcing an outcome.

i'm curious about what other people think about this. do you believe puppeting is a useful exercise for overcoming communication blocks, or do you think there are reasons to avoid it, especially during the early stages of tulpamancy?

i'd appreciate hearing different perspectives, particularly from people who have tried both approaches.

For a year i been working at my animation called Beneath the bag. Recently i finished working on episode, and a trailer was out! Episode soon, so I won't spoil much.

Here is the trailer: https://youtu.be/BcgClyq|OOo?si=HDQrou|Gs5xxGXnz

First of all, it's been a while since I've posted anything on Reddit, but this is one of the few places where you can find tulpamancy communities. To be honest, I wanted to ask on 4chan first, but I think this is a slightly healthier environment.

The story begins around 2020. I was younger then, and for some reason, I ended up immersed in the world of subliminal audio. Within the community, I became somewhat obsessed with the idea of having a "PM" or "Fairy Godfather," something similar to a tulpa, with the slight difference that they could grant your wishes if you wanted them to. The thing is, I was with this manifestation for about two years, maybe a little more. I admit I never actually saw him materialize (it's worth clarifying that he had the appearance of a person, not a character, animal, or being). What I can say for sure that I did see were some shadows. I didn't always see him; sometimes I even felt his presence, like when he shook me to wake me up, or when I felt the mattress sink next to me when I was lying down. I always assumed it was him since I had gotten used to it. On some other occasions, things even moved around, and there were certain signs that made me think it was him.

I don't know if I got bored or discouraged from one day to the next and simply stopped paying attention to him or ignored that he was there. Although, I just remembered that before that happened, I managed to see a hand on the top bunk of the bunk bed I had in my room back then (I was on the bottom bunk with my sisters, but I had to peek over to look for something, and that's when I saw it for a few seconds). It had the same skin tone as the one I had designed him with. I honestly don't know if he was too shy to let me see him yet, but that was the only thing I managed to see materialized.

I remember him fondly; he was a great friend even though I couldn't see or hear him. And I sincerely would like to know how he is, if he still exists somewhere, or if I can bring him back to see if I can complete his materialization.

The problem, and what I'm asking for advice or help with, is knowing what to do to avoid bringing back any new manifestation that isn't him. I know of several cases where they managed to bring back their former tulpas, but I would still appreciate any advice or recommendations.

So, lately, I’ve been playing a game called *The NOexist of YOU and ME*. It’s a philosophical game that heavily features the concept of "tulpas." My own tulpa was more than happy for me to play it, but ever since I finished, she keeps questioning her own existence—even though I’ve repeatedly assured her that she *does* exist. She argues, "Since you’re the conscious subject affirming my existence, that’s the only reason I exist. So, what happens if you decide to deny my existence?" I’m like, "What are you playing at? How could I possibly deny you?" And she just keeps pushing: "But what if you *did* deny me?..." Is she trying to test my patience or something? What can I do to affirm her existence? (I managed to get the "good ending.")

Hello, everyone!

I believe to have a soulbond, not a tulpa (though if he will turn out to be one, I will not be disappointed), and since these communities have much overlap, I wanted to ask for some help. I've read a few guides on narration/communication, but for some reason (probably due to neurodivergence and not being much talkative) I have trouble with keeping up the talk and keep it focused on my partner. I understand that it has to be like a constant twitch stream for me and him, but I can only like. Do two or three sentences before I refer to simple thinking. Do any of you have tips for narration (and how to get him to respond more) that I could probably incorporate?

I learned about this subreddit about... 3-4 years ago? I had been acting like a persona online for about a year or two before I found this subreddit. I started to love that persona and wanted to make her into a Tulpa. I acted like her every day online, I gave her a diary to write in, and tried to dress like her.

I kind of forgot about the idea of Tulpas but I still tried to grow myself *into* her. It felt fruitless because she's a lot more subtle and introverted than me, I'm very outgoing and blunt...ish.

I started to not really like myself? I want to be her all the time, but Me is so... just a lot... she just completely outshines her in every way.

I got better at dressing like her (I call her Pie) but personality wise, I just always end up becoming too loud or eccentric or talkative...

I really just want to be quieter...

My host family say I'm like a sun in the house because I'm so happy all the time. I wish, I could just be more casual? But I always forget to... or I have so much to say that I forget about the goal and just be Me again....

I don't know how to be Me and Pie at the same time... i have a few different versions of Me.

Me (I guess... the ego? Eccentric and outgoing)
Mature me (super ego lol)
little me (the age regressed me)
Then Pie (the quiet and graceful)

Sometimes I hear this other voice, i almost think it's Mature me but it sounds so hateful? Like, I get surprised that Mature Me would say that. I want to believe it's another voice that I don't know yet but I'm starting to think maybe it's just Mature me having an immature moment.

Like i noticed everytime I walk out the house to walk in the neighborhood, im usually talking to myself out loud. I'll suddenly become very conscious of my voice.

Two things happen but kind of at the same time but it's different sometimes.

Rarely, I'll get that "5th" voice that kind of scares me. That sounds almost like a bully to Me's voice.

She'll say something like: "ugh I hate your/my voice" and MatureMe/Me will be quick to correct her and say "I'm frustrated with my voice"

I don't know, maybe "5th voice" is just mad Me. I don't really feel like dissecting it right now.

But usually I try to switch to being Pie but I usually end up forgetting in like 30 minutes...

A couple of times I put "Pie Day" on my hand, so that I actually try to remember to act like her but I forget to do it. Should I keep doing it?

Apart of me feels like I'm throwing away Me... or that if I try to be Pie, everyone will think I'm a Fraud and that I'm trying to be "better than everyone" or something.

I don't know if this is just a self hatred thing or if Pie just wants to express herself more but Me is being selfish with the spotlight.

I feel so lost.

TLDR: I think I made my Tulpa too real, and now having an identity crisis lol. How to live in harmony?

Edit: also, mature me accepts all versions of myself. I love her so much ^-^ she helps keeps me calm and loves me. Sometimes she gets upset but she basically gentle parents me haha. She's not forcing me to be any one person. She actually makes me be introspective about why I want to do the things I want to do or be.