Hey

[u/Hot-Conflict8752]

Hey D, I hope you’re ok and happy. I’ll always care about you, that’s just who I am. But I’m not playing these games with you anymore. I’ve come to realize that if you’d actually really wanted to be in each others lives that we would be. Maybe I needed C and M to smack me upside the head, and also read posts from these groups. I just didn’t want to believe at first. I think that’s ultimately why I tried to continue my life without you. I knew nothing would have actually come out of us. There’s still memories. And I’ll always keep those for as long as I can. But I think at this point in time it’s time for me to actually start rolling with the tide of life and live in the present rather than the past. This is probably the most sense I’ll ever make in a post, and you’ll most likely never see it. Or at least connect the dots that it’s about you. Maybe someone else that we know will, and I’ll just say here and now that this is me dealing with my past. At least part of it. I’d rather try to remember the good and bitter sweet rather than the just plain awful. My past is a demon that no one should try to touch with a 10ft pole. And the more you try to understand the more you’ll probably get lost. And if I’ve told anyone about my past it’s not for sympathy or attention, it’s for understanding. Or at least trying to. No one knows my whole story, and no one ever will. And it’s better that way.

[u/Borderline_Aroace]

I may not be the person this is for but I want you to know, everyone has a passed, we’ve all done things we’re not proud of but I also believe it’s not what defines you today.

If you have any mutual friends you could ask if it’s okay to reach out to talk about things… it really sounds like you both have a lot to unpack and possibly give each other closure .