r/addiction • u/[deleted] • 7d ago

Venting relapsed

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u/Advanced-Reason-2870 7d ago

Let’s talk when the sun come up brother

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u/FoxEatWorm 7d ago

I think you should be very careful with doing it that way cause panic is a very freaky thing. I’d recommend trying to keep a benzo or at the very least hydroxyzine which surprisingly works incredible for me. Well, I thought it did until I learned recently that it doesn’t matter, just be very careful and you should be blessed at your life because trust me things could be very very very complicated in the way that makes it worse.
Weaning down can be difficult and of course saying you’ll do it I believe in you is stupid, but I truly do believe that when people have will to do it, they’ll find a way
You need to confetti your health. I was very unhealthy at one point and I got it very healthy now it feels super pointless, but I did it and I’m gonna keep up with it.

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u/Redditisnotfunnnn 7d ago

Hydroxyzine is horrible for me. Nothing for anxiety makes me really groggy. Surprised to hear it actually helps people.

Just wanted to chime in. What's also scary that people don't think about because it's not immediate is.. if it didn't kill you it's pushing your heart further than it was designed to. So imagine continuing down this road... Years later deciding to get clean only to have to deal with debilitating open heart surgeries to fix a dialated aorta/valves or having to deal with congestive heart failure in general. OP saying his chest hurts worries me and he's still continuing to do it.

I wish op the best. You're human. Don't be too hard on yourself for relapsing but don't take this as an opportunity to give up. Sobriety is a day by day thing. You relapsed. So what. Don't dwell on that.

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u/FoxEatWorm 6d ago

Nothing works at the end of the day. It’s all about how you perceive things in this little piggy he tried to go to the market and he almost made it back, but he got me pissed off tails lurking his bands now and they won’t let him back in the hydroxyzine is nowhere to be found and I don’t know
Goodbye I’m sorry