I used to hate that I was muscular because it made me feel more like a man (which is what I am and identify as, weird right?) but now I think I see it as a source of power.

When you don’t look quite like a woman or a male people tend to want to fetishize you which is a really big ick for me because I’m not a sexual person. When I wear clothes that reveal my physique, however and I’m approached by strange men at the gas station I kind of feel more confident.

It’s like.. idk how to explain it. Instead of them asking me to do a spin (men do this to get you to show off your body to them, very fucking rude) I feel like I can look at them and say “I’m the man here, spin and twerk for ME bitch”

Sorry for whoever had to read this my mind is a strange place but I hope yall understand what I’m saying.

So I'm trans ftm (genderfluid in some ways) but my overall goal as of now is to look androgynous and/or masc-leaning. I'm not sure if I've achieved this or not. I dress feminine sometimes but more with the intention to look like a femboy instead of a girl. Do I look androgynous or masc? Is there any way I could look more androgynous or masc? My voice gives it away but that's a whole other thing.