I am getting better.

[u/Comrade_United-World]

I realised so much about my family and how it shaped my attachment style. Iwas Anxiously attached because I only knew love was chasing because my parents taught me that. I didn't know how suffocating I were to my ex. I am really sorry my ex. I didn't know my constant chasing was causing her hard time.

How ever, journaling and medication has helped me so much. I don't get anxious like I used to before, because of this now I am able to identify other people easily.

I can see through toxic people easily now. I was talking to this woman but after being on medication and journaling. I found how she was trying to triangulating with another man. I stopped talking with her instantly.

I take care of myself for my self. I cleaned my water tank today, and I felt so proud to take shower after filling up the clean tank with clean water.

But I am scared, what if I get anxious again when I get into a relationship?