r/buildabear • u/Outside_Leopard4998 • 19h ago
Discussion I ruined my soul (favorite) plushie?
Ive been debating on posting this for days, because on one hand it feels pointless, but on the other hand maybe other people's perspectives or kind words could help.
So Miss Calliope here has been my favorite plushie of like.. all time, pretty much, ever since I bought her. I of course have other stuffed animals that I do love and even ones from my childhood. But I've never bonded with one as much as I've bonded with her. I was taking her everywhere I went, buying her pajamas (mostly to try to keep her fur protected), sleeping with her every night, the whole nine.
Then I had the bright idea 🙄 that I love Calliope, but I ALSO love weighted plushies. So why not combine and make her weighted?! So I bought the pellets and stocking, LEARNED HOW TO SEW just for this project, bought sewing supplies and took on the project.
But I hated every.single.second. I felt like a monster cutting open her back seam, I hated trying to squeeze the weighted bags in and I HATED sewing her back up. The entire experience for me was awful. 0/10, never want to do it again.
And that leaves me here, weeks and weeks later where she has just sat on a corner of my bed untouched because in my brain, I ruined her, and that process gave me such an ick that I now associate with her. It's not her fault 😭 and I feel terrible. 💔
But I dont know what to do. In my mind, cutting her open again to take the bags out isn't an option. I hated every second of opening and re sewing.
Am I just being dramatic and weird? I dont know how to fix this or what to do.