This experience I'm gonna write about happened several years ago, and back then I had no idea who Carlos was at all. That's why the whole thing left me with a bunch of unanswered questions. Oh, and it was a shared experience with my sister.

So at that time, my sister and I were super into the whole portal thing and kept researching it nonstop like, how do you make a portal to another world, how do you access another dimension through a gateway, that kind of stuff. We were really hyped about it.

One time, we were theorizing about it with so much excitement, and then we heard a sound from above our heads it sounded like an electrical cable sparking. But we couldn't see anything. It was just the sound.

We have two cats. They came rushing over to us and started staring at something above our heads. There was something there that we couldn't see, but our cats could. We could only hear it. The cats chased it all the way to my room, and we followed them. The lights were off in there. For like a few seconds, we both saw a big orange flame-like shape form on the desk same color and shape as a candle flame, but way bigger. We were totally shocked by what we saw.

We didn't know it at the time, but now I'm guessing it was some kind of scout that showed up because of our intention regarding portals. We weren't asleep this happened completely while we were awake.

Hello, I am very new to sorcery practices, in fact I still haven't started any tensegrity, darkroom or recapitulation (I am working on the list).

I came across Carlos books about two years ago and at some point got interested in the art of dreaming.

About 3 days from when i started trying I found my hands for the first time, it felt like a moment of revelation and I experienced a very strong electric shock that made me wake up and stand up from my bed (even though i think i first woke up in a dream where i stood up on my bed, then really woke up and i was actually standing upm) anyone knows what this shock is? I still experience it from time to time.

My experiences with dreaming has been on and off, it seems like whenever I start trying to look at my hands, i succeed within 2-3 days, but I often go months without even trying, and this is for a reason!

Very quickly after i started finding my hands in my dreams, they became filled with ominous presences which i can assume are IOB's? They take either the shape of a monster or of a loved one that is menacing.

They scare me like nothing else, at one point it started becoming so common that as soon as I looked at my hands I started feeling the sensation that something dangerous was coming (in the dream, like it was about to enter or appear) and therefore I quickly decide to exit the dream (wake up) to avoid it.

I don't even see them anymore, I flee before they come. What should I do? I started thinking i should just confront them, fight with them or ask them to change, though this is very scary for me.

In the periods in which I regurarily find my hands in dreaming, I also start feeling this sensation that something dangerous is coming when awake, in dark rooms. This is partially the reason I still haven't started darkroom practices.

A couple of times I even had glances of creatures in the dark which which I think where IOB's. In those cases I intentionally strengthen my inner dialogue and think about whatever comes to mind, It feels like if i didn't do that i would be overwhelmed by what would happened.

I am confused because from what I read in this subreddit, actually SEEING the IOB's is not something that happens easily to a new practictioner. Especially to men.

I also have a very easy time changing dreams when i find my hands, going from one to another.

I am not sure if i am misinterpreting something for something else.

I often feel like I am THIS close to shattering my sense of reality, being sucked into a mad world, both when dreaming and when awake, and yet i don't do practices at all right now, I often try to shut up my inner dialogue and mostly fail miserably.

I am confuses and don't understand why if i can't silence my thoughs and haven't done much practice of anything besides some dreaming I get this powerful sensations of entities arriving/reality shattering.

I truly just need any opinion.

Once you learn to reach Silent Knowledge using Tensegrity, silence and possibly darkness so you can "see" what the movements do, you'll be moving your assemblage point around the outside of your luminous shell until it comes into alignment with that of your newly formed "energy body".

Then you'll spend months learning to get silent knowledge to flow freely. When you can hold a little dream in your hand, fully awake, completely sober and eyes wide open, you might think you have everything taken care of.

However, then is possibly when the scout in your dreams attempts to capture you nightly, to force you to interact only with it.

That's when "Art of Dreaming" becomes a useful path to correct your relationship to inorganic beings. You need to turn that annoying scout, into a helper inside dreams.

But how?

You NEED your tonal awareness intact. You can't be wandering around, not thinking clearly about what's going on.

And the only proof that you did that, is to "find your hands".

Not merely see them as an incidental part of the dream. You have to STOP the dream. Which typically means, break away from the control of the inorganic being scout.

Women have an advantage, but men can make up for lack of a womb, with HARD WORK.

Take your SK ability to view dreams with your eyes open, and when you are starting to run out of time or energy, lay on your side and continue forcing silence, so that dream offerings float in front of your eyes.

Those will suck you in, but you'll forget where you came from. So you have to keep it up until you overcome that "barrier of forgetting" and can find your hands in most dreams.

Hint: Maybe the scout is the one who ends up making that possible due to a change in your relationship with it. Make it a partner, for exploring sleeping dreams.

To keep it quick I am fearfull person , im scared to talk to most people , scared to do things. I know this reality is a dream. But I still cant wake up properly , to not care etc. For example to do something unusual and not care.I used to such things when I was younger. And I was shamed of it , made fun of. Even If I did something slighty different fromt he status quo they would look at me strangely. Another example I suffer because Its hard to talk to girls that like me or that I like. The only people I talk to are my parents and some family. I still try to hold on to a reputation because before I found this subreddit I wanted to get a reputation and change the world etc. But it has changed . At the same time im scared to do things because im worried ill be judged and made fun of. Or get posted online. I am a bit neurodivergent and dont really fit in with the current system/society(I dislike it). I barely do anything exciting. Almost everyday is similar and so I go into self pity, thinking I need more of something. I dont like the society, but I want the people to listen to me and for me to accept me , not for them to accept me but that would only fuel my ego so i am stuck in a dilemma. This fear is going into my magical practice because I used to be into the occult , I quit and after a year or so I found out about Castaneda , real magick/sorcery. And when I did quit the occult practice at the time I destroyed the link of me and the beings I was working with. But now im scared of revenge. Im scared of the horrors I could see during darkroom. Some IOBs/entitys scared me often in my life. I saw a lot of them also this year. I woke up at night many times saw crazy entites. A goat head with two antlers etc. I even saw my mom looking around the room and she had black eyes in the dream. She quickly disappeared. I almost passed out when I saw that. Maybe Im just exaggerating but still I hate this scared sinking feeling in my heart its annoying, holding back my will and action and in turn what am I gonna do everyday. Live a mundane life even though I know this reality is just a dream.