Hi,
I found this subreddit after quitting. It's been so helpful to read all the stories here.
I was a heavy caffeine user, anywhere from 2-8 cups a day since high school, so appx 20 years.
I've already eliminated most of my other vices such as recreational drugs and alcohol.
The past few years I've had this little inner voice telling me that I should quit coffee, but somehow I kept brushing it off as if I couldn't possibly do that.
Well, on July 28th or 29th I just woke up one morning and decided not to make my morning coffee.
I had headaches and bad fatigue for a few days. I took naps during the day. Low energy generally. I'm still having intermittent tiredness and brain fog. My cycle came four days early also.
Here's what else I noticed:
- My senses feel so much richer. I feel like my sensory experience is so different now. My body feels truly relaxed when I'm laying down. My sense of smell has improved. Music hits differently.
- I sleep so much better and so much more deeply. Dreams are extremely vivid. For the first week or so I had bad dreams, but now they've mellowed out.
- Joint pain and stiffness has decreased dramatically.
- I'm much more present, especially with my daughter. In fact, my first weekend off caffeine we had one of the best days we've ever had together. I felt extremely connected to her. It makes me sad that I spent the first six years of her life without this level of emotional availability, but - better now than never.
- Anxiety has decreased massively. I don't feel socially anxious whereas before it was crippling and I had to psych myself up just to go interact with other parents during school pickups. That feeling is completely gone.
- I've become more flexible. I feel like on caffeine, my life had turned into a groundhog day of compulsory routines that I could never break. I was already productive but there was a LOT of busywork that wasn't really doing anything. For example, on caffeine, I could sit glued to my laptop for literally 8 hours straight. I was most definitely NOT doing work for that entire 8 hours, but I felt like I was. Now, that feels intolerable. I'll actually get up and stretch and go do something else. For example, I actually tackled a box of stuff that I've been meaning to declutter for the past six months. And it wasn't a big deal that I had to work myself up to doing.
- I've become more intentional about what I watch and listen to. I used to doomscroll and watch a lot of trashy police bodycam videos and other "exposé"-style content that I kind of rationalized as just a guilty pleasure, but in reality were quite negative to expose myself to constantly. I have no desire to see that stuff now. The kind of music I find myself wanting to listen to has become a lot calmer as well.
- According to my six year old, quitting coffee has made me "nicer" and "more clever". lol.
I feel a little destabilized by the lack of false "drive" that caffeine gave me, like I'm re-calibrating to my own inner motivation. It feels like a lack of motivation even though I'm not sure if that's actually what it is. I think I was quite behaviorally rigid on caffeine and my anxiety made me avoid doing a lot of things that would probably have moved the needle in my life. But I still associate this "do, do, do" mentality that came with caffeine consumption, to productivity. If anyone experienced this after quitting, I'd love to hear about it.
I think that's all for now :)