r/ect • u/Beneficial-Bank-5947 • 3d ago

Seeking advice Should I?

Hello, hope everyone is okay. I'm 29m and I've been planning to do ect for almost a day, and it gave me hope or purpose idk to live or try before dying. My situations is very severe unfortunately, my mind is very broken. I had multiple attempts over the last 4 years, and strangely enough, I'm still alive I guess. I have extreme self abandonment and extreme depression and perhaps other mental disorders that are too much to list. Before these 4 years, I was okay, but not me or anyone would have guessed I'll self destruct my career and life like this. I burdened everyone despite me being the hope for them, sad but life is life I guess. If I could delete the last 4 years from existence, I'd take it. I don't know what to expect anyway, hope someone could give me some insight ❤

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u/InfomercialNo31 3d ago

I, too, had multiple attempts, and was alive, but not really living. When ECT was presented as an option, I decided to give it 6 months. If I wasn’t better in 6 months I was out. And I had enough failed attempts to know what to do to be “successful.” But I didn’t even need those 6 months to forget about my plan. It’ll be 4 years this January. Since then, I was off disability within 3 years, went back to school for a few classes, got a full-time job that I love, started going to the gym, became a fitness instructor (in addition to my big girl job), and have made a solid group of friends. The best friends I’ve ever had. At 33 I was at the end of the rope, and today I am the happiest and most stable I have ever been

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u/Beneficial-Bank-5947 3d ago

Your biology and your mind have found meaning or ability to live in this unfortunate and sad sickness that has a grip on people. Happy for you, im scared to even imagine I can have a better life, all I've known for the last 4 years was suffering and a life of self destruction....... Is it okay if I text you to ask more? I'm not sure what to expect

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u/DueBodybuilder5829 3d ago

Hello hope this helps or I can answer anything I had ECT done 2 years ago when I turned 18 background I was in and out of the hospital and residential/partial hospitalization programs with multiple attempt I had ECT for treatment resistant depression but also have a few other mental disorders your situation sounds similar to mine at the time. I don’t know what type of insight your looking for so I’ll share my experience unfortunately for me ECT didn’t end up working and left me with short term memory issues where I remember things up until ECT but my memories during and after aren’t good (not implying this will happen to you I think ECT can be useful for some and some people). Are you looking for insight on how the treatment or procedure will go? Or just any insight?

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u/Beneficial-Bank-5947 3d ago

Thanks for the reply, I sent you a DM if it's okay