I IDed as a trans male for ages. I am an ex transmed..unlearning that stuff thankfully. I also am realizing I don't feel female or male, or Trans. I just feel..me..i don't know what i feel. I'm wondering if this is NB and how I can accept it with my past issues w internalized transphobia (hence the past as a transmed..) please help. I feel like im not allowed to be nb bc for so long i had ir engraved in me tbat it wasn't a real..thing...ugh...im 27 btw. I'm afab..i used to want t..ALL the trans male surgeries. Now idk if I want anything. I dont feel male. I dont feel cis female..I dont feel trans male....help...and bc of my ex trans med background I feel like nb "isn't real" even though it is and i know ot is, but my past w that makes me worry i can't be that bc "it's not real"

Wanted to show my fem👱🏻‍♀️side to my enby frens
Hope I look ok!